Title: Breathing
Author: Maverick
Disclaimer: Songs by Life house. "Breathing" own nothing else.
(R/J)
CHAPTER 1:One moment
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me one more time
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Oh I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da...
Cause I just wanna be here now
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's all right, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
-Life house
~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
One moment that's all it takes. One single moment that could alter your life for better or for worse, one single second when your worlds twisted, and your not thinking straight. The importance of anything seems to disappear along with your broken dreams. That's all it takes.
~~
"Jessie Mariano! Nice of you to show up!"
"Its Jess," Jess muttered walking right pass his English teacher grabbing a seat in the back.
According to Luke Jess was no longer allowed to cut class. Not that he was ever "allowed" to in the first place. Luke also insisted that Jess be tutored. At first Jess opposed that idea, but when Luke said he has already asked Rory, Jess had a change of heart.
Rory Gilmore.
That one name made his stomach flip. Amazing how merely four syllables had could have such meaning.
Jess took out his notebook, and started scribbling down random thoughts and song lyrics. The teacher and class weren't there to him. Just him, the pen, and the paper; nothing else. There were only two other instances where Jess had such focus. When he was reading and when he was with Rory.
Life altering moments may be so small, and seemingly insignificant that they are hardly noticed. But in Jess' case, he knew things were going to be different the moment he lost his head in New York, and the minute he set foot in Stars Hollow, he was confirmed.
It was then that he thought his life was over. Until he met her, Rory Gilmore, the only girl, no the only person, in the world who saw him for who he was. She saw through the barrier Jess built over the years, and she managed to work her way into Jess' life without even trying that hard. And that scared the hell out of Jess. Jess had gotten pretty damn good at not caring, and she went against everything.
School went by utterly slow. By the time Jess was walking toward the diner, he was exhausted and had a huge headache. That's why when he bumped into some inconsiderate person he was about to push them back. That was when he saw it was Dean, Rory's boyfriend.
Now trust me, Jess would of wanted nothing more than to kick the crap out of the exceptionally tall bagboy. But then he pictured what Rory's reaction would be, so he just put his hands in his pocket, fighting the urge to swing. "Watch it," Dean said, when he noticed it was Jess he bumped into. Dean was normally the "nice" boy, but whenever he was around Jess he seemed to be the biggest jerk in the world.
"Watch yourself," Jess said back, and kept walking.
He made it to the bridge, and was about to sit when he realized that today was a workday, and Luke expected him at the diner within the next five minutes.
When he got to the diner, he sat in a booth until his shift started. After two hours of dealing with annoying customers, scrubbing tables, and countertops, and fighting a worsening headache, Jess had his break.
He sighed in relief, when Luke waved him out. He ran upstairs grabbed to Advil's, and made his way out the door.
"You're getting Tutored at 7 Jess."
"Whatever." Jess said before leaving.
Jess lay on his stomach, his head in a book. The air was cooling, and it was starting to get dark. The bridge was possibly the quietest place in Stars Hollow. It was the only place Jess didn't really mind being alone. The thing was that ever since jess was a little kid, he was left alone. His mom would leave a 4-year-old Jess, in the apartment, to find his own dinner, and Jess would pass time with a book. This must have really emotionally scarred Jess, like the kid in Rumble Fish.
For the first 8 years of Jess' life, he thought his home life was normal, that was until he met his friends' families.
Soon his mom met someone, Ron. Jess couldn't decide which was worse, having no one or having Ron. He preferred no one. Ron was a tall man, sort of reminded Jess of Dean. At least when Dean towered over Jess, just like Ron always had. What his mom saw in Ron he never knew.
Jess' watch beeped.. 10 to 7
Tutor time
Rory time
Jess got back to the diner to see Rory and her mother eating dinner. When Lorelai left, Rory approached Jess at the counter.
"So you ready?"
"Ready for what?"
Rory smiled patiently, "Take a guess."
"Uh robbing a bank?"
"Naw Clyde sorry Bonnie's coming at 8. Now get your books."
"Books?"
"You do have books don't you?"
"I don't remember."
"Okay fine Jess see you tomorrow."
"No wait, I'll get them hold on," Jess tossed her an apple and disappeared upstairs.
CHAPTER 1:One moment
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me one more time
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Oh I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da...
Cause I just wanna be here now
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's all right, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
-Life house
~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
One moment that's all it takes. One single moment that could alter your life for better or for worse, one single second when your worlds twisted, and your not thinking straight. The importance of anything seems to disappear along with your broken dreams. That's all it takes.
~~
"Jessie Mariano! Nice of you to show up!"
"Its Jess," Jess muttered walking right pass his English teacher grabbing a seat in the back.
According to Luke Jess was no longer allowed to cut class. Not that he was ever "allowed" to in the first place. Luke also insisted that Jess be tutored. At first Jess opposed that idea, but when Luke said he has already asked Rory, Jess had a change of heart.
Rory Gilmore.
That one name made his stomach flip. Amazing how merely four syllables had could have such meaning.
Jess took out his notebook, and started scribbling down random thoughts and song lyrics. The teacher and class weren't there to him. Just him, the pen, and the paper; nothing else. There were only two other instances where Jess had such focus. When he was reading and when he was with Rory.
Life altering moments may be so small, and seemingly insignificant that they are hardly noticed. But in Jess' case, he knew things were going to be different the moment he lost his head in New York, and the minute he set foot in Stars Hollow, he was confirmed.
It was then that he thought his life was over. Until he met her, Rory Gilmore, the only girl, no the only person, in the world who saw him for who he was. She saw through the barrier Jess built over the years, and she managed to work her way into Jess' life without even trying that hard. And that scared the hell out of Jess. Jess had gotten pretty damn good at not caring, and she went against everything.
School went by utterly slow. By the time Jess was walking toward the diner, he was exhausted and had a huge headache. That's why when he bumped into some inconsiderate person he was about to push them back. That was when he saw it was Dean, Rory's boyfriend.
Now trust me, Jess would of wanted nothing more than to kick the crap out of the exceptionally tall bagboy. But then he pictured what Rory's reaction would be, so he just put his hands in his pocket, fighting the urge to swing. "Watch it," Dean said, when he noticed it was Jess he bumped into. Dean was normally the "nice" boy, but whenever he was around Jess he seemed to be the biggest jerk in the world.
"Watch yourself," Jess said back, and kept walking.
He made it to the bridge, and was about to sit when he realized that today was a workday, and Luke expected him at the diner within the next five minutes.
When he got to the diner, he sat in a booth until his shift started. After two hours of dealing with annoying customers, scrubbing tables, and countertops, and fighting a worsening headache, Jess had his break.
He sighed in relief, when Luke waved him out. He ran upstairs grabbed to Advil's, and made his way out the door.
"You're getting Tutored at 7 Jess."
"Whatever." Jess said before leaving.
Jess lay on his stomach, his head in a book. The air was cooling, and it was starting to get dark. The bridge was possibly the quietest place in Stars Hollow. It was the only place Jess didn't really mind being alone. The thing was that ever since jess was a little kid, he was left alone. His mom would leave a 4-year-old Jess, in the apartment, to find his own dinner, and Jess would pass time with a book. This must have really emotionally scarred Jess, like the kid in Rumble Fish.
For the first 8 years of Jess' life, he thought his home life was normal, that was until he met his friends' families.
Soon his mom met someone, Ron. Jess couldn't decide which was worse, having no one or having Ron. He preferred no one. Ron was a tall man, sort of reminded Jess of Dean. At least when Dean towered over Jess, just like Ron always had. What his mom saw in Ron he never knew.
Jess' watch beeped.. 10 to 7
Tutor time
Rory time
Jess got back to the diner to see Rory and her mother eating dinner. When Lorelai left, Rory approached Jess at the counter.
"So you ready?"
"Ready for what?"
Rory smiled patiently, "Take a guess."
"Uh robbing a bank?"
"Naw Clyde sorry Bonnie's coming at 8. Now get your books."
"Books?"
"You do have books don't you?"
"I don't remember."
"Okay fine Jess see you tomorrow."
"No wait, I'll get them hold on," Jess tossed her an apple and disappeared upstairs.
