AN: Mm…This has been requested…I tried to give it a happy ending I really did! It just didn't work that way…I'm sorry. Bastard!Duo. Uke!Heero, and Strategist!Wufei. Wufei may appear OOC but it's explained.
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What's to become of them?
That is what has bothered me of late.
I watch them.
I find it amusing that one so capable of love,
Binds himself to one who is so scared of his emotions he acts like he has none.
I love them, in my own way.
It has become a goal of mine to see them at peace.
But how to force Duo to tell himself the truth?
And how to manage it so Heero would not feel it was forced?
I admit I am not as strong as I would like to believe.
I want them.
Want them both.
But there is no room.
So I will make sure that they are happy.
…Or a reasonable Facsimile thereof.
Surprisingly, or not, as you prefer,
Heero is the more approachable.
So I slowly insinuated myself.
Drew him out with light conversation.
And in doing so won myself rare smiles, that made my heart ache,
And my soul yearn to be selfish.
Some days I almost despaired of finding ANYTHING to nudge Duo in the right direction.
Any mention of his relationship sent Heero on guard.
Prying after that led to the monosyllables and grunts that so frustrated me during the wars.
Then I noticed Duo was more aggressive some days than others…
It didn't take long to connect Heero's smiles with the increase in hostility.
So now I had my method.
And one day Heero came in practically glowing.
I had to maneuver like the great serpent Dragons of myth to discover what had caused this.
Four little words.
"I Love You Too."
And yet, Maxwell showed no signs of change.
He was as flirtatious as ever, wooing the secretary's and winking at the interns.
It occurred to me then that maybe, just maybe, that was his hiding place.
We all have one.
I am…afraid of combat.
Not in my Nataku, no.
In her I fear nothing.
But the thought of coming face to face with a man trying to kill me freezes my blood.
It is why I practice my katas so often, so that while my mind gibbers, my body moves.
It is one reason Kushrenada was able to defeat me so easily.
Heero once told me his.
He cannot remember killing.
He sees the target, and fires.
But from the moment he fires, till the time the body is lifeless on the floor, there is nothing.
He does not see the bullet hit, or the light fade from their eyes.
He simply knows it does.
But Duo…I begin to think he hides his true emotions by covering them with others.
To cover fear he is overly sarcastic and cynical.
To cover anger he becomes excessively cheerful.
So, to cover love, would he hide it with lust?
Look at us…
The frightened scholar.
The confused child.
And the insecure waif.
You cannot change a personality.
Oh it will evolve on its own eventually, but you must give it room to grow.
But how to get my loves to realize they had that room?
I believe Duo is slowly realizing the truth.
It is painful for him, and his hurt hurts me.
But I cannot give up.
They both need this.
So I will plan, as sly and cunning as the dragons of old,
While a thief and a soldier blunder about in my cave.
I love them.
But sometimes I wish I didn't.
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Um…I sorry? I can't say I don't like it, because I do. If you liked it I wouldn't mind some feedback, Reviews make me happy.
