A/N This is the night after Bella's birthday in New Moon.

All in Edward's perspective.

And this is for all you Jacob-lovers who say, "Jacob's better than Edward because Edward left Bella!"

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Disclaimer: None of this is mine. I wish. sigh

Falling to Pieces

Edward's POV

I held Bella gently as I watched her fall asleep. Her injured arm was pressed softly against my shoulder. Her breathing slowed from our kissing. I shouldn't have... but I had a feeling I wouldn't have much more time with her.

My fault, all my fault. She would be so much better off without me.

I watched her chest rise and fall with her breathing. Her dark hair framed her pale face. As I watched her sleep, my heart filled.

How could she ever want to be with me? Me, the monster. How did she look up at me every day, eyes filled with love?

She's sacrificed so much, been so patient. She didn't deserve this! How could she want to be one of us?

My stomach turned. I couldn't ever do that to her. How could I condemn the one I cared about most?

Dark thoughts plagued my mind as the sun slowly rose. Bella slowly stirred as she woke.

She looked at my face in worry. I quickly masked my feelings, kissed her forehead, and quietly slipped out her window. I had made up my mind.

I quickly ran home. As I approached the house, an avalanche of thoughts crashed upon me.

My poor Edward, why he feels he needs to...

All my fault, I should have had better self-control...

Edward sure can be stupid. If I ever had to leave Rosalie...

Annoying little human can be out of our lives...

I'll have to call Dr. Snow. How Edward could think we're soulless when he's breaking his heart for her safety...

Why he's doing this I'll never know. She loves him so much...wait! He's home?

I sighed. Of course. Alice.

I opened the door to them all packing, running around. They all stopped when they saw me.

Esme was the first to approach me.

"We're leaving tomorrow morning. Take the time that you need," she told me quietly. Then, she hugged me tightly.

Jasper was next.

"Edward," he said, clearly in anguish, "I'm... sorry. So sorry."

Emmett just looked at me.

"Do what you need to do. I'm behind you no matter what."
Rosalie just smirked.

Carlisle looked at me and gave me a small smile.

"Edward you're wrong you know. But we understand."

Everyone left until only Alice was left.

I'm going to have my chance to say goodbye," she stated defiantly.

"No Alice," I replied wearily, "Bella doesn't need that. A clean break... no time for tearful farewells...that's what she needs."

"She's going to be broken. She needs you. Do you have any idea how much she loves you? How much this is going to hurt her?" Alice whispered.

"Bella will be fine in time," I stated mechanically, "She will be better off in the long run."

Alice started to say something, but I cut her off.

"I have to get to school."

I trudged out to the Volvo, the Volvo Bella hated. I couldn't seem to get her out of my head. Why couldn't I be good enough for her?

I shook my head. I was almost at school. I needed to prepare myself for the hardest thing I would have to do in all eternity.