Olivia sat up screaming and Brian put his hand on her shoulder "Liv it's OK" he said softly and she smiled weakly "was it Lewis?" he asked she shook her head "not this time" she sighed. Brian felt so helpless he couldn't understand how she felt he didn't know how scared and alone she actually felt. She got up and left the room "where you goin'?" he asked "checkin Noah I'll be back" but lately that was always her excuse Brian nodded he didn't want to say anything because Liv could get very defensive.

Olivia held the small baby in her hands she had a distraction at least from her thoughts, from her life. She gently put Noah back to sleep and laid on the couch tears seemed to just flow down her face. She fell into a deep sleep Brian went to the kitchen and noticed her lying there he felt so sad to see her like this but he knew she'd need time to recover so time is what he'd give.

He looked through some files and cases that she'd worked over the years she seemed to have worked lots with an Elliot Stabler so Brian decided that he should talk to Elliot about the whole recovery thing. He arrived at SVU making sure he got there before Olivia. "Who's Elliot anyway?" Brian continued "Oh he's Liv's old partner" Nick said and Brian tilted his head to the side "so when you say partner..." he trailed "friends" Nick answered although he didn't know anything about Elliot really himself.

Olivia woke with a start she was having another "Lewis episode" as she called it she looked around a bit confused of her surroundings at first but she suddenly came to. She headed to the bedroom and was surprised to see Brian had left. She sat in the silence nothing but a ticking clock. She heard her mothers voice then she heard herself crying she could picture it perfectly a sleepless night her mom high and her scared and alone. She heard Noah cry which brought her out of it.

She arrived to SVU late and slightly disorientated but she was crying and this she knew. "Liv are you OK?" Nick asked "I'm sorry" she kept saying Nick, was slightly confused but he had to help her. He brought her to the interrogation room. "Liv you need to snap out of this OK I'm gonna get you some water and then we'll talk OK" he said slowly Olivia didn't say a word she sat there and slowly started to realise where she was "Nick what happened?" she asked "Oh you blacked out a little" Nick said calmly but Olivia was panicking "I-I what'd I" she looked around and started breathing heavily. "Liv you're gonna be OK you just need to calm down" he said but he was worried she nodded calming down again. She looked him dead in the eye and hugged him holding him close "thanks" she whispered.

Brian and Elliot were talking and Elliot wasn't sure if he could face the past but he said he'd do anything for Liv and finally gave in. So when she got home Brian and Elliot were sitting there Nick was there to because he dropped her home it was a little awkward for the guys at first but it really lifted Olivia's spirits to see everyone she cares about in one room how'd that play out?

should this be a oneshot I'm not sure what'd ya think oh and soz about other stories I will update it's just inspiration comes and goes lemme know :))