I was sitting in the waiting room, waiting for my midwife to call me in. Taping nervously I was annoying every single person in the room, which was just fine with me. Something fun I had to do whilst being stuck in this god forgotten place. While concentrating on my breathing, convincing myself that I was going to be okay, that it was nothing, I saw an certain half Latina girl enter the waiting room. Quirking one of my eyebrow I study her intensely. When did miss perfect who only had kissed, and never done anything more, start to go to a midwife? Why should she? Probably to get counselling on how to shave her bikini line. Looking down at my lap I couldn't help but to smirk, I could blackmail miss peachy perfect. She was visiting a midwife, what would happen later? She would actually go on a third date with a guy?

Sitting and mocking Tori was actually great, kept my mind off things. Like that dreadful meeting with my midwife. My stomach made backflips just thinking about it.

"Tori Vega," a bored voice called out and Vega got up and walked away.

Why was she here? I couldn't help but to not over think about this. There are like two reasons you visit a midwife, either you're a child and need to get your vaccines or you're a woman whom is pregnant or needs advice when it comes to sex. There are no other reasons! So why was she here? It could be as simple to get herself prescribed birth control pills so she would have an easier period. But where would the fun be in that?

"Jadelyn West," my midwife called out. My heart started to race, butterflies flying around. I wasn't scared nor nervous, I was terrified.

Sitting down at the uncomfortable chair, in front of my midwife who only stared right into her computer screen didn't comfort me, nothing could.

"Okay Jadelyn, how have you been feeling?" She asked, still more concentrate on the computer then me.

"Perfect," I lied.

She actually looked up and stared at me which I only answered with staring back. Eventually she hesitantly nodded and looked back.

"So today we are going to do an ultrasound to see how big it is before we remove it, it probably is just a cysts, nothing to worry about Jadelyn," she tried to reassure me.

But here's the thing, I've googled my symptoms, it probably isn't just a cysts. It something worse. I was dreading to get to know the answer but at the same time it would be good to actually know what the fuck was wrong with me.

I sat down at the stretcher and lifted my sweater up. The cold disgusting jelly thing was put on my stomach and then the search began. I didn't want to look at the screen, silently I was begging, just a cysts, just a cysts. When I heard the midwife's oh my heart stopped. It wasn't just a cysts.

"Just wait here, I'm going to get a doctor," the midwife excused herself and walked away.

I was just staring at the celling while beating myself up, of course it couldn't just be a cysts. What had you expected Jade? That this would go easy?! It was me after all, nothing could go easily smooth, something had to be in the way. So what was going to be my decision? Operation of course. I still wanted to look pretty, think me without hair? What an awful image.

"Hey, I'm doctor Aidan and I've heard it's a problem here," a very young and handsome doctor said. He flashed me a smile before he poured, yes poured, some more jelly on my stomach.

"Okay, if you look here you can see that this isn't something normal, can you see it?" He asked me, flashing a smile. For fuck's sake I was dying here and he was going to charm me?!

I only answered him with a death glare because fuck him.

"Um, okay. Not one for words, got it. So you see here is a tumour, a quite large one actually," he said while he kept on smiling! I could only stare at him, didn't he learn anything at all in medical school?! Shouldn't the man had some sympathy? Some compassion to his work? Not smiling to someone who just found out they have a growing, quite large tumour in their fucking uterus! Wait, I don't know if it's growing. Of course it's fucking growing or how else would it gotten so large?!

"Um, doctor, she hasn't found out yet she has one..." my stupid midwife thought to say after this disaster of comment.

"Oh," doctor Aidan got out of him.

"Oh," I bitterly remarked. I truly hope a building falls on him.

"Um... Maybe I should let you talk to your midwife now..?"

"Are you stupid?! Or just plain incompetent?! I can't discuss these kind of things with a midwife! I need a oncologists!" I snapped.

My midwife whom I own my life to chased the doctor away and then we started to speak. I was quite determined on that I would do the surgery, I couldn't go through chemotherapy because me without hair? Come on I would look ridicules. Plus if I did the surgery and everything went to hell I would still have a second chance.

Walking out of the hospital, with an appointment to an oncologists I felt strange. What did I know about cervical cancer? Nothing. Walking to the parking lot I walked past the bus stop were a very sunken half Latina sat. Was she sobbing? I stood and stared at her before I fumbled myself towards her. Sitting down on the bench I didn't know what to say or why I had seated myself. Fumbling with my words I slipped out: "What's wrong?"

Tori flied up and looked horrified at me before a very bitter facial expression took over.

"Why do you care?" She asked, the words very dripping of bitterness and it surprised me. What had I ever done to her? A lot of bad things, but still shouldn't she trust me when I come up to her and trying to be her friend? Nope.

"Well it's just strange to see you here," I said, shrugging towards the clinic were we just had come from.

"And then you came crying out of it and that is never a good sign. So what had happen, accidentally kissed a boy and now you got mouth herpes? Because, really Tori it isn't that bad," I said, trying to sound sincere or something close to it.

Her bitter facial expression harden and she looked right down cold, her cold death stare bored down into my spine and her eyes reminded me of a dead dear's.

"Oh, that is what you think brought me here? That I, miss perfect who is the biggest prude, can't do anything bad? Well do you know why I'm here?!" Her voice had started to shake and she was tearing up.

"I'm here because of one stupid night! I'm here because I slept with a guy! And do you know what I got now?" She asked, and actually was waiting for my answer.

"Huh? The great Jade West doesn't have anything to say? I'm shocked. Well because of that boy I have now chlamydia and on top of it I'm pregnant too!" She screamed out and then the tears were just spurting out and she was sobbing so hard. She fell into my arms and my first instinct was to push her away but then something stopped me. Instead of pushing her away I started to stroke her back and tried to do something so she would calm down.

"I know you're mad right now, who wouldn't be? I mean you let go of one night and this is what happens but chlamydia is treatable and you can always get rid of it," I tried which shot her up.

"Oh you think I'm keep this?" Her nasty glare told me she had had enough of life so I shock my head.

"I'm getting rid of this, I can't let something like this stop me." She was looking away, far off in the distant. Poor Tori. I mean on some ways she earned this but still, she didn't quite earn all of this. Maybe the chlamydia thing but not the whole I'm pregnant. We all been caught in the moment of heat. One shouldn't be judge of one mistake.

"When?" I asked and she looked at me.

"I don't need your pity," she snarled which I understood.

"I know, but you do need a female friend. A female friend who cares, and understands what you're going through," I said rather calmly and couldn't help but to look at her lower stomach.

"On monday," she muttered out.

I stared at her, that was like so far away. What if she change her mind?! What if it grows? I stared once again at her stomach, waiting almost as if it would grown out of her stomach just with my stare.

Tori's laugh brought me back to reality.

"You don't have to look so scared Jade, it's just a foetus. It won't attack you."

I nodded and made a weak smile. Just a foetus. We could laugh about it. Like at a joke at a dinner party. Casualties.

"Um... Do you need someone to come with you?" I asked her unsure.

She only sighed before she spit out: "Jade I know why you're doing this, so you can rub it in my face or spread this all over school to get my perfect imagine ruined or so you can blackmail me in the future. So stop trying to be my friend because really you aren't."

I looked at her before I got up but before I walked away and said with so much sincerely I could posses and both her and I was surprised on how sweet and nice it sounded: "If you ever need someone to talk to you know where to find me, and the offer of me going with you is always going to be there. This isn't something you need to do alone, this is something your closest and dearest should support you of. Especially the father. Just saying."

Walking away I realised I hadn't thought about my problem, the growing tumour inside of me the entire talk. I realised that by solving Tori's problem, and helping her I wasn't thinking about mine. Which I so beautifully needed. I realised that I should just from now on truly concentrate on Tori, helping her, being her friend so I could escape from my reality.