Author's Notes: I know the idea of a fanfic from Michael's POV isn't
unique, but it fits. This is the first chapter of a story I'm writing: each
chapter will also be a songfic. Wheee!
~~**~~
Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine..
~~
Monday, 6 pm
I dislike Kenny. I do not hate him. I do not want to scream at him very loudly every time I see him. I do not want to - must purge my innocent mind of these thoughts. Its not his fault that he gets to kiss Mia every day. Its not his fault he gets to talk to her all the time. It is not his fault he is her boyfriend..who am I kidding? He deserves a very painful death. A very very very painful death. Mia deserves better then me, but Kenny's not far enough to count, right? Mia's perfect, and guys like me (and Kenny, for that matter) aren't perfect. She's white and we're. grey. Or maroon. Or something. All I know is that she's making it harder for herself to get a better mark in Algebera by being. herself?
~~
Your face I've memorized,
I idolize, just you...
~~
Wednesday, 7:30 pm
Is it really that pathetic for a guy who's a senior to keep a journal? Oh well, at least I can vent here and not at. him. What a jerk, he did the worst thing today! Well, the worst thing he's done yet. When he was trying to kiss Mia (at least she didn't want him to, I think) she fell on the ground in the middle of some mud, and he just stood there as she got up! I mean, he didn't laugh or anything, but he didn't even help her up! Lana and Josh broke up again and got together again twice today, which might be a record for them. I can't stop thinking about Mia, even if she was sitting in the middle of the mud. She's the most wonderful girl in the whole school, she has everything that the other girls don't have. She's smart, pretty (despite what some people say), kind, thoughtful.wait - she just e- mailed me. I'll write in this later.
~~
I look up to,
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong..
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done..
You're still you
After all, you're still you..
~~
Thursday, 7 pm
Why can't I be Kenny? I mean, I wouldn't really want to be him, but I want to be Mia's boyfriend, because then I could be the one who would be able to tell her that I wanted to take her to the Fall In Dance, and I would be able to dance with her all night without having to make up lame excuses, and I would be able to tell her I loved her and kiss her, and.. well, there is always dreaming. Even if she looked so happy when Kenny told her about his plans for the dance, and even if there's no way she'd like me, I still dream. Its not her fault that she would never love me back, it's my fault for setting my sights too high. I've loved her since I met her, as much as a 10 year old could love his sister's best friend. She used to babble on and on about Josh, even when I was in the room. At least she doesn't love him anymore, then I would have no chance at all. Wake up Michael, you still don't have a chance.
~~
You walk past me,
I can feel your pain.
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same..
You're still you..
After all, you're still you...
~~
Saturday, 11 pm
I hate Kenny. Everyone should hate Kenny. He said he wanted to take a break from dancing, so Mia went to talk with Lilly (Boris was also taking a break) who said that we should dance. I swear, sometimes I wonder if my sister does know I'm in love with her best friend. Mia looked like of apprehensive, but she didn't say anything against it so we got to dance two or three slow songs. I got to smell her hair, too - she has this beautiful smell, like that scented soap you can buy in fancy stores. Anyways, Kenny came and cut in, and they went off to talk. When I was talking with my friends who had convinced me to come, I saw him yelling at her. What kind of boyfriend yells at his girlfriend? Especially since it's Mia. I knew she was crying too, and I wanted to run over and hug her and tell her it was alright, but I can't, because I'm just Michael and she's. Mia.
~~
I look up to,
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong..
And I believe in you,
Although you never asked me to..
~~
Tuesday, 5 pm
This is great! Mia broke up with Kenny today, which means at least I don't have to see him kiss her all the time. I heard it from her in G & T when she was arguing with Lilly, while I was trying to tutor her.
Reasons why it is great that she broke up with Kenny:
He doesn't deserve her
He likes Japanese Anime
He yelled at her for dancing with me
He won't kiss her anymore
He won't have to be murdered
~~
I will remember you,
And what life put you through
And in this cruel, and lonley world
I found one love
You're still you
After all, you're still you...
~~
Wednesday, 8 pm
What the hell am I supposed wear?! To do?! To say?! I, Michael Moscovitz, have a date with Mia! Well, kind of. There's this big party that Lana is throwing at everyone was invited. Normally both Mia and I wouldn't go, but Mia's freaky grandmother said that she had to go because it would give her more social exposure. Lilly said that she really should have a guy with her so that Lana wouldn't spend the night teasing her, then said that maybe her and I should go! As friends, of course. But still! It's only in a week - I have to prepare.
~~**~~
Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine..
~~
Monday, 6 pm
I dislike Kenny. I do not hate him. I do not want to scream at him very loudly every time I see him. I do not want to - must purge my innocent mind of these thoughts. Its not his fault that he gets to kiss Mia every day. Its not his fault he gets to talk to her all the time. It is not his fault he is her boyfriend..who am I kidding? He deserves a very painful death. A very very very painful death. Mia deserves better then me, but Kenny's not far enough to count, right? Mia's perfect, and guys like me (and Kenny, for that matter) aren't perfect. She's white and we're. grey. Or maroon. Or something. All I know is that she's making it harder for herself to get a better mark in Algebera by being. herself?
~~
Your face I've memorized,
I idolize, just you...
~~
Wednesday, 7:30 pm
Is it really that pathetic for a guy who's a senior to keep a journal? Oh well, at least I can vent here and not at. him. What a jerk, he did the worst thing today! Well, the worst thing he's done yet. When he was trying to kiss Mia (at least she didn't want him to, I think) she fell on the ground in the middle of some mud, and he just stood there as she got up! I mean, he didn't laugh or anything, but he didn't even help her up! Lana and Josh broke up again and got together again twice today, which might be a record for them. I can't stop thinking about Mia, even if she was sitting in the middle of the mud. She's the most wonderful girl in the whole school, she has everything that the other girls don't have. She's smart, pretty (despite what some people say), kind, thoughtful.wait - she just e- mailed me. I'll write in this later.
~~
I look up to,
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong..
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done..
You're still you
After all, you're still you..
~~
Thursday, 7 pm
Why can't I be Kenny? I mean, I wouldn't really want to be him, but I want to be Mia's boyfriend, because then I could be the one who would be able to tell her that I wanted to take her to the Fall In Dance, and I would be able to dance with her all night without having to make up lame excuses, and I would be able to tell her I loved her and kiss her, and.. well, there is always dreaming. Even if she looked so happy when Kenny told her about his plans for the dance, and even if there's no way she'd like me, I still dream. Its not her fault that she would never love me back, it's my fault for setting my sights too high. I've loved her since I met her, as much as a 10 year old could love his sister's best friend. She used to babble on and on about Josh, even when I was in the room. At least she doesn't love him anymore, then I would have no chance at all. Wake up Michael, you still don't have a chance.
~~
You walk past me,
I can feel your pain.
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same..
You're still you..
After all, you're still you...
~~
Saturday, 11 pm
I hate Kenny. Everyone should hate Kenny. He said he wanted to take a break from dancing, so Mia went to talk with Lilly (Boris was also taking a break) who said that we should dance. I swear, sometimes I wonder if my sister does know I'm in love with her best friend. Mia looked like of apprehensive, but she didn't say anything against it so we got to dance two or three slow songs. I got to smell her hair, too - she has this beautiful smell, like that scented soap you can buy in fancy stores. Anyways, Kenny came and cut in, and they went off to talk. When I was talking with my friends who had convinced me to come, I saw him yelling at her. What kind of boyfriend yells at his girlfriend? Especially since it's Mia. I knew she was crying too, and I wanted to run over and hug her and tell her it was alright, but I can't, because I'm just Michael and she's. Mia.
~~
I look up to,
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong..
And I believe in you,
Although you never asked me to..
~~
Tuesday, 5 pm
This is great! Mia broke up with Kenny today, which means at least I don't have to see him kiss her all the time. I heard it from her in G & T when she was arguing with Lilly, while I was trying to tutor her.
Reasons why it is great that she broke up with Kenny:
He doesn't deserve her
He likes Japanese Anime
He yelled at her for dancing with me
He won't kiss her anymore
He won't have to be murdered
~~
I will remember you,
And what life put you through
And in this cruel, and lonley world
I found one love
You're still you
After all, you're still you...
~~
Wednesday, 8 pm
What the hell am I supposed wear?! To do?! To say?! I, Michael Moscovitz, have a date with Mia! Well, kind of. There's this big party that Lana is throwing at everyone was invited. Normally both Mia and I wouldn't go, but Mia's freaky grandmother said that she had to go because it would give her more social exposure. Lilly said that she really should have a guy with her so that Lana wouldn't spend the night teasing her, then said that maybe her and I should go! As friends, of course. But still! It's only in a week - I have to prepare.
