Hello, I'm Anthony Belikov and I'm Dimitri and Tasha's child. I have a little sister as well as a little brother, and my mom is pregnant again. When my parents told me I flipped but my two younger siblings were jumping with joy. I was pissed as hell, because who really takes care of the 8 and the 13 year old, me I do. I'm almost forced to, because all that my parents care about is the newborn. I hate being the first-born. As if it's not bad enough that my dad forced me to go to the academy, I have to take care of me and two younger kids named Hunter and Gigi. I'm 17 thank god, because next year I graduate and I'm done with this damn family I call family. I have 1 friend and her name is Justice Kiara. She has a lot of problems and secrets she trusts me with. You'll find out what later.

STORY STARTS!

I walk into the kitchen and I see my pregnant mom and my father sitting at the table and I role my eyes. "Good morning Anthony." My mum piped happily. I growled a little. "I give up!" Gigi shouted from upstairs. She walks down the stairs angrily. Before she walks past me I put my hand out and it hits her chest and I push back. "Whoa hold up there, what's wrong with you shorty?" I asked playfully. "Hunter is being a huge pain. He won't get dressed and he won't even talk. I give up!" She shouted walking past me as I dropped my hand. I look up stairs and I sigh. She was trying to act like a mum to him and he was getting angry at her. I walk upstairs and knock on Hunter's door. "Hunter open up." I knocked again. "Go away!" He shouted at the door. "Hey, only I can act like that. You're the smart one remember, now let me in." I told you I was like their parents didn't I? He opened the door and he was shirtless. "What?" He hissed. "Lighten up, what are you? Me?" I said mockingly and I walked into his room. I sighed as he lied down on his bed.

"Okay, Hunter, speak up. What's wrong?" I asked a little concerned. He's always happy and always full of energy and now he has as much energy as a limp dishrag. He looked at me. "I don't know what you're talking about?" He said looking up at my 6 foot 2 figure. "Is it about this family or about school?" I asked pushing him. "Family." He muttered and I sit down looking at him. "Tell me." I commanded gently. He started crying at this point. "I want dad to notice me and I want mom to cook and welcome me home from school but they don't do that. And I want that. I-I don't even know my dad's favorite color or my mom's favorite food. I-I just want a family." He sobbed. He sits up and continues to sob. I pull him into a tight embrace. I was 6 when I said the same thing and you see how I turned out. He cried into my pajama shirt and he was calming down some. When he stopped crying I asked. "Do you want to hang out tonight? Have a little party or go somewhere?" I asked softly. That's what I wanted to do when I was 6. I wanted someone to notice me and treat me like they actually cared. He nods. "Okay get dressed and it'll be just you and me." I said and he cheered up after that. "Thanks Anthony." Hunter said smiling. I nodded. I walked out of the room and I watch mum actually make Gigi lunch. I watched with my mouth wide open. She NEVER made me lunch. She made Hunter lunch at one point, maybe because she had other kids to worry about more than me. "Hunter hurry, you'll be late for school!" Tasha yelled and he came running down the stairs. "Your father is taking you to school Hunter and I'm taking Gigi." Tasha explained. "What about Anthony?" Hunter asked looking at me. I shrug my shoulders. "I don't go to your school I go to St. Vladimir." I explained. "Oh, okay." Hunter said his face falling a bit. "Hey, Hunter I'm not busy tonight and I was wondering if you would like to go to a hockey game with me tonight?" Dimitri asked smiling. I was crushed inside. I stared upward into the banisters and I tried not cry. I already made plans yeah ok that wasn't what I cared about it was that I'm being pushed to the side and he didn't even noticed. I was shocked and hurt. "Yeah, sure. I would love that." Hunter gushed. I nodded and I walked outside. I hopped into my car and drove to St. Vladimir's. I was so hurt. I actually began crying going down the road. I got to school and realized that I had a big fighting competition and if I won this I would go to the championships. I ended up wining the competition and I was off to the championship tomorrow. I go home and I start packing my bags and I was prepared for anything to come at me, until Dimitri came in the front door with Hunter smiling and laughing and having a great time. I nodded my head sadly. He didn't even know about the competition and how I won it. It was bad enough that Tasha and Gigi were having fun cooking and I was stuck with nothing. I shook my head and I went upstairs and I went to sleep because I was off for Texas in the morning. I wrote a note so they would at least know where I was just in case they cared.

Dear Family,

Not that you'd really care, but I won all my fighting competitions and I'm off to Texas for the main event, the Championship. If you need me I'll be at St. LaRue's academy.

Whatever,

Anthony :'(

I wrote that and I threw my stuff in my car and I went to pick up Justice and she threw her stuff in the car as well and we were off for Texas.

- Before the championship -

I was really anxious and Justice couldn't come to me, because I'm in a guy locker room and she's a girl. Duh. I sat there with my head in my hands and I shook my head. I didn't want to do this. I only did it for my parents to notice me and look what happened. Nothing. I sighed and I didn't get ready, because I'm forfeiting. I shouldn't be here if the whole reason why I'm doing it isn't even here or even caring. I was the only person beside the son and father across the isle from me and they hugged because the father said he was proud of his son. I envied this guy I didn't even know. They left so I was the only one. I looked up the ceiling and closed my eyes and sighed. "Son." I jumped a million miles into the air and turned around. I saw Dimitri there looking at me. "Yeah?" I asked unsure. He smiled. "Here you should probably put this on your hands. So if you break your hands out there your bones will be in place." He said wrapping gauze like stuff around my hands. I half smile at him. "Thanks." I whispered. "Son, what's wrong why have you been acting up?" He said looking at me after he finished the gauze crap. I shrugged my shoulders and looked down. "Alright, look at me." He commanded and I look at him. "If there's something wrong you need to tell me." He said almost shouting. I look at him. "Why do you care, because no one cares about the first-born? You love everyone but the first-born." I shouted at him. "Anthony, you're on." Someone said to me. I shake my head and go fight and I end up winning. People everywhere congratulated me and I thanked them. I drove home with Justice dropped her off and went home. I ran to my room not looking at Dimitri and the others. Of course they got home before me, they didn't have to drop of Justice. I take off my shirt and I get into my pajama pants and put on deodorant and I cut myself so I could release all the emotional pain I've been keeping inside. I looked at what it said and it said 'unloved'. I hear Dimitri knocking at my door. "Anthony open the door." He said softly through the door. "No, go away." I said anxiously. "Either you open the door or I kick it in." He said warningly. I rush to the bathroom and hid there in the bathtub. I hear the door be kicked in and I wince. "Anthony, where are you?" He asked looking around my room. He enters the bathroom and pulls the shower curtains and he sees me. After he saw my wrist his eyes widened and he looked at me concerned. "Come get out of the bathtub." He said helping me stand being very cautious with my wrist. He looked at my wrist assessing the damage and he reads what it says. He mouths 'unloved', and looks at me even more concerned. "Come on I'll bandage this up." He said gently. He closed the door and bandaged up my wrist. "Do you feel unloved?" He asked questioningly. I don't move or anything. "Son you're going to have to answer me. This isn't normal for you. If something's wrong, you need to tell me." He said looking up at me. I shake my head. "It's nothing. Just some stupid rebellion." I muttered and he sighed. "That's not like you unless you have a reason." He said as he finished my wrist. I looked everywhere but his direction. I felt him stand up and I felt him move toward me and his hand forced me to look at him. "Tell me what's wrong." He said gently yet fiercely. I shrug. "There's nothing to tell you." I whisper. "Is it because you're feeling left out for so many years and you've been waiting all your life for me or your mother to notice you but all we care about is the newborn?" He asked matter-of-factly. I stare at him in shock. "How'd you know?" I asked softly. He smiles and sits next to me and stares at me as I stare at the ground. "Hunter told and also I can see it in your eyes, the pain, the torture, and the loneliness. Son, you have to tell me these things. I have three children and another one on the way. It was hard taking care of Hunter and you, and then came Gigi, and now this baby. This is literally killing you. You actually have to verbalize with me. If I had one child then I could tell in your eyes that you're hurting, and I could help you, but I have 3 and another on the way. I'm trying Anthony I really am and I want to help you. I do love you. I know it's hard to believe sometimes, but I do love you. Trust me, you're my firstborn. How can I not love you?" He said softly. I look up at the ceiling. "Then why keep having them, you know when Hunter was about to be born, I didn't complain even when I found out it was a boy. I knew I was going to be pushed aside, but it was worse than I thought." I whispered. "Now, we're getting somewhere, Anthony." He said tenderly. I close my eyes and I put my head in my hands. "Yeah, right." I muttered. "What?" He asked looking at me. I shrug my shoulders. "Tomorrow it'll be like nothing happened." I said and he shakes his head. "You don't think I'm going to let this wrist thing go do you?" He asked and I shrug. "Wouldn't shock me." I whispered and got up and walked to the window. I lean against it and look outside. I heard footsteps as Dimitri got closer to me and I felt a tear escape my eye. I wiped it away and then the phone rang. I answer it as Dimitri was staring at me. I hang up in complete shock. "Oh, my god." I muttered and I grabbed my jacket and run to the door. Dimitri stopped me. "What's wrong?" He asked and I burst into tears. "Justice, okay? She's dead!" I kept sobbing and he looks at me sympathetically. "Where are you going?" He asked and I look at him. "I'm going to Justice's house. To see if her family needs anything." I said and he patted my shoulder. "Son, I'm sure they just need time to grieve." He said and I turned around and walked to a wall and slide down it. "How'd she die?" He asked coming closer to me. "She…she…was murdered by her dad." I cried and my knees come up to my chest and I bury my face in my arms. I heard him kneel next to me and I felt like sobbing in his arms and not let go until the hurt goes away. His hand touches my shoulder and I do exactly as I wish I could've. I jumped at him and I hugged him. He was surprised at first but he wrapped his arms around me and he let me cry.

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