He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not... Chapter 1
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Waking up to the eye-blinding sunlight, I smell the sweet, alluring scent of my favorite tea, Earl Grey. I also hear the all so familiar, charming voice of my butler, Sebastian. "Scones or Toast, my Lady?" He says with his usual gentle tone, "I'll take the scones." I mutter lazily. I looked up, and studied Sebastian's face as if I have never seen him before.
First his hair, the silky, fine, raven black hair, that fell over his face naturally that brought out his perfect white skin, his smooth, kissable lips, his perfect jawline bringing out his masculinity, and my most favorite asset, his eyes. Those blood-red and ironically heavenly eyes staring right back into mine… "Do you like what you see my Lady?"
Wait. What?!
When I realized he caught me staring at him, I immediately flushed a brilliant red up to my ears, earning a signature smirk from the beautiful demon butler. I tried to defend myself, "D-don't be ridiculous! Who'd fall for a demon like you?"
"If you wish, I can list quite a full list of women and might I add, men that have fallen for me." He replied with his smirk and cockiness still visible on his face, "you have no idea how many times I've have them willing to be even my slave to receive the pleasures I've given them. In fact, I can tie a cherry stem into a knot with my tongue. Would you like me to prove it?"
That was it.
My face was probably as red as the cherry he was talking about, "N-no need! I'd like to get dressed now… Alone!" I drove him out of my room and slammed the door on his face then jumped on my bed. "Really, he drives me crazy…" I thought about all the women (and men) that would've had fallen in love with him.
'Some must've been quite beautiful. Enough to have others wanting their attention, but they would only have their eyes on Sebastian…' I pondered, yes… Like me.
I am Alice Phantomhive, current head of the Phantomhive family and the Funtom Toy Company, born on July 5th, and the 16 year-old daughter of Ciel and Elizabeth Phantomhive. I'm practically an identical twin to my father; I have his blue-grey hair and blue eyes and my mother was ecstatic when I was born. In my manor there are four servants. We used to have five, but one of them passed away due to elderly age. One of them is the household and my personal butler, Sebastian Michaelis, who is a demon that somehow ended up having to serve my family's lineage for eternity. When I was 7 my father had his soul taken by Sebastian because the contract was over and my mother died of an accident when I was 10so since then he has been in my command, along with a title of the head of the family name, a beautifully built manor, and my 4 trustworthy servants, and also, the cursed title of the Queen's Watchdog.
The Queen is quite elderly now, but despite her high status, she has treated me like a granddaughter, of course not including the fact that she gave me jobs dealing with underground crimes, and making sure I clean up any mess even if that involves killing in order to carry out my duty.
I decided to hurry up and get dressed, for who know what Sebastian might do if I ended up messing up his carefully cleaned out schedule he had for me; in the morning are violin and piano lessons, Latin and Greek studies, and then I have my afternoon lunch and tea, then paperwork regarding my company, history studies, literacy, and later whatever else I have to do. And if I did ANYTHING to mess that up, Sebastian would get irritated, having the look of disapproval that I don't like to see.
When I went down to the piano room, Sebastian was already inside tuning the violin, dressed in full "tutor" mode… And by that I mean his hair combed back and he wears his glasses… As if he needs them... And he gets strict, and I mean really strict. "You're 5 minutes late my Lady" he clicked his tongue, "what on earth were you doing in your room?"
'Thinking about my life, and how much I love you'-"I accidently dozed off for a bit." I lied. Of course I did. How could I possibly tell him that I loved him- a butler? A love affair between a high-ranked noble and a butler would be looked down upon, not that Sebastian would even think of loving a human girl like me. "Let's just get on with the lesson Sebastian."
He looked at me with a questioning look, as if he knew there was something wrong, but he dismissed it with a dazzling smile. "Of course my Lady. Shall we begin?"
It was about an hour into our violin lesson, when my wrists were too tired to play another note and Sebastian "generously" let me take a small break, feeling curious, I asked, "How long have you played the violin?"
With a thoughtful look he said, "I believe it was when the violin came to existence I suppose, although there has been previous instruments that were similar to them but not quite so at the same time. After all, I have lived for many years, and I've met many humans that were quite imaginative with inventing new things but haven't let it out to others."
"So you must be like, an expert at it I'm guessing? Play me your favorite song."
"I suppose, after all, I am one hell of a butler." He chuckled. "If I may, I'll play my most valued piece, The Devil's Trill."
"Isn't that Giuseppe Tartini's piece?"
"It seems you actually pay attention to the music lessons I give you, and yes it is quite so, though his version is only a part of my original. I never gave it a title, but since Giuseppe heard the piece from a demon, I guess he thought it was only natural he called it the way he did. Well, I'll begin my performance my Lady. Please honor me with your undivided attention."
And he got into position and played the Devil's Trill. I closed my eyes and sat down on my chair to listen. As soon as he played the first note, I was indulged into the music he created with the instrument. I was surprised, by how much emotion the demon could put into his music. Every single note was clear and beautiful, making me feel the sadness, grief, and the occasional happy parts that the piece was trying to deliver. Tartini's piece was something that wasn't even comparable after hearing Sebastian play. When I opened my eyes, I was awed. Sebastian looked absolutely perfect, and could've fooled me to think he was an angel if I didn't know his true form. But even so, he was breathtaking. Unknowingly I had tears in my eyes, and when Sebastian saw, he immediately stopped, looking worried, "My Lady? Was my performance not to your liking?"
"What? No, it's not that. It was amazing- absolutely amazing. I was captivated." I said, still in a bit of a daze.
"A mere butler like me doesn't deserve such praise. But thank you very much, Young Mistress." He replied with an uncommonly real smile. It made my heart skip a beat… Perhaps three.
"You should teach me how you play that song once I improve. Won't you?" I pleaded and tried to do the puppy dog eyes to persuade him.
He chuckled "We'll see how you behave. Now it's time for your afternoon tea Young Mistress. What would you like?"
After a long day, when the clock reached 1:00am, i was finally able to go to bed. I was dead tired and was practically half asleep while trying to undress myself but my corset wouldn't come loose. 'I can't call on Mei-rin(one of the servants in my manor) now, she's probably already heavily asleep! And it's not like I can just go to sleep in this attire either...' I grunted while I was trying to figure out a way to get out of the heavy pieces of cloth, there was a knock on my door.
"My Lady? Have you not fallen asleep yet? It's already past twelve and it's not healthy for a young lady to stay up this late." It was Sebastian! I guess there's no trouble in asking him right?
"W-well, I was trying to change, but the corset is being… uncooperative… and… I think… your help." I managed to mutter out in my sleepiness. I opened the door, and there was Sebastian not wearing his usual butler outfit, but in his white dress shirt half buttoned up lazily showing his well-built chest, black pants, and his hair was a bit of a mess. It other words, he looked damn attractive, radiating too many freaking hormones from one fine man. 'Damn it, Alice! What are you thinking? He's a butler for crying out loud!' "Could you get this thing off me?"
"Of course my Lady. It will be my pleasure," and at that he strode over to me and helped me undress, "and if I may say so, you should be quite careful who you let into your room. Even if I am your butler, you are a lady and I am a man. You never know what a man could do to someone as vulnerable as yourself, especially being a human. Men can be quite the wolves you know, and I'm definitely no exception."
"But you wouldn't do it, right? I- I mean you wouldn't do it to someone like me." I said, feeling a bit dejected, 'of course you idiot. Why would he do something like that to you? He could do it to any girl he wants! I'm sure they wouldn't even think about resisting him.'
Suddenly, Sebastian grabbed my shoulders and turned me to face him. I was surprised, not expecting him to ever do such a thing and because I was so tired the quick movement scared me. He brought his lips to my ears and whispered, "What makes you say that? What makes you think that I wouldn't want to grab you and make you mine?" That snapped me out of whatever exhaustion I felt. "W-What are you saying? D-don't joke around like that Sebastian! It's not funny!" This was happening so fast and I wanted to hide my face because I was sure I was blushing and knew that I was from how hot my face felt at that moment, but I by then Sebastian had grabbed my wrists with a solid grip so I couldn't escape, and looked right into my eyes. The gaze felt like a million daggers to my heart and it drove me crazy. But as quickly as it came, it left. Sebastian had let go and was already at the door.
"My apologies my Lady. It seems I was out of line. Please forgive me and forget what happened." And he left, closing the door behind him. I just stood there, unable to do anything, staring after the already left presence. And a fast emotion of sadness came over me, overwhelming me with tears. The fact that he would say something like that to me when he probably knew of my feelings for him was unfair. My exhaustion came back to me, and I got into bed, weeping silent tears, slowly drifting to sleep in confusion and sadness.
End of Chapter 1! I hope you enjoyed! Please review and tell me what you think!
