Hey there! So this just a series of poems I've written for Lost Fragments. So far, I've only written three of them and they will be published as Lost Fragments progresses. Since [spoiler] Sapphire already confessed that she wants to commit suicide, I decided that this should be the first chapter. It's my first time publishing a poem in public. I've never written a proper one and my friend liked it so that gave me the confidence to publish this today. I hope you like it. T^T
Also, yay, my first fic published in 2018. ;-;
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the poem.
First Poem - Sapphire's Perspective
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Why do I feel like this?
Why do I feel empty?
Anxious?
Hurt?
Sad?
...lost?
...broken?
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I know.
This is normal when someone passed away.
But the ones who passed away isn't a random person I know.
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I know.
I feel pity.
But I feel more than that.
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What I feel is nothing but a bag of mixed, negative emotions, running, circulating and clashing onto one another.
I feel nothing physically.
But why I do I feel…
...numb...emotionally?
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How come I can't breathe?
How come I feel like crying every night?
Why do I have such nightmares hunting me every night?
Such nightmares with the same memories recurring every night, in every different perspective.
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Why do I feel like this?
Have I done something inhumane...?
...something unforgivable in my life that lead me to suffer like this?
I've felt negativity before, but...
This is worst than the ones I've felt growing up.
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I've felt heartaches.
Heartbrakes.
Self-doubt.
Self-hatred.
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I even come to the point of telling my best friend that I am nothing.
No one.
I'm not smart like my father.
I'm not talented like my best friend.
So what's the point of living if I am nothing?
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Sometimes I feel like ending my life...
Just so I can end these nightmares...
Just so I can end these feelings...
Just so I can end this pain...
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It hurts.
It really does.
It increases every day.
And I don't know how to stop it.
Exact date for Lost Fragments chapter 10 will be on January 21. I'll be publishing 3 fanfics on that day. Yep, 3, hehe. One of them is about Zinnia and Sapphire (FRIENDSHIP FOR THE WIN!)
