Yo! Ok, so this is the first installment of Butterfly Kisses. The story is told in Grimmjow's perspective except for when Ichigo's name is in bold, other than that if you don't see any other names then assume that it is indeed Grimmjow's point of view. Err, i think that's it so enjoy!
Smiles :)
I am the loner.
The one that never shares their life
The person that is feared but yet revered all at the same time
The individual that lacks the confidence to speak his(or her) mind
So it stays locked up
Even to myself
And when it hurts, I don't whine
Because nobody would even hear me
And when I try, I fall hard
But sometimes I let myself go
And I dream crazy things
Like maybe I'm not alone
Or it's ok to cry
But why?
It doesn't make sense
And no one would understand
The fear that others see is my denial of how I feel
They stare at my features, never daring to speak a word
And it's almost funny 'cause I don't remember willing them to be afraid
But yet again it's the same
I want to be held.
Like any other person
And I want to forgive for all the things that I wish I could do.
And I want to move on.
To start over
But it seems that once again, God is not on my side
But when will he answer my callings?
When it's too late?
When I'm dying?
But wait..
There's no point in lying
I've been dead since I was born
A heart barely beating
But legs still moving
It's like living is a curse
With death as my gift
And when you say it aloud
The words are empty
Not hurting me anymore
Nothing.
What I am.
Nothing.
What I have.
Everything.
What I need.
Just thoughts allowing me to breathe
And I'm on my knees, begging and pleading
Oh, please God, let it end
Let the pain and suffering subside to let me breathe and take in the light
Let it pass on through and give me life
Please God..
Give me a reason to fight.
'Cause of now, I see no light in this tunnel
No end to this torture
And is that right?
Should anyone feel this hollow?
This alone?
This afraid?
But as I take a few steps back
It doesn't matter.
I'm ignored
I'm forgotten.
I'm lost.
And with every thought
I fall further into the background
Blending in indefinitely
Soon I'll be another shade of black or white,
That can't be told apart
But it's not like I'm worth it
So I'll sit here
In this God forsaken room
That reeks of death of failure
And I'll wait
For something that's destined to come my way
But I won't get my hopes up,
To have them crushed later
So just breathe
And it'll end for tonight
I close my eyes and lay it down
Through this quiet sleep
I shall rest
And with this dreadful peace that my mind has created
I shall lock it all away with my key
To preserve my memories
And fears...
Yes I know that some of you may have already seen this before as Hollow but I decided to reboot Hollow and turn it into this! This is going to be much longer and it'll be told as poems instead of like story format. I hope that's not too confusing but anyway what'd ya think?
~Lady Erin
