Yo! Ok, so this is the first installment of Butterfly Kisses. The story is told in Grimmjow's perspective except for when Ichigo's name is in bold, other than that if you don't see any other names then assume that it is indeed Grimmjow's point of view. Err, i think that's it so enjoy!

Smiles :)


I am the loner.

The one that never shares their life

The person that is feared but yet revered all at the same time

The individual that lacks the confidence to speak his(or her) mind

So it stays locked up

Even to myself

And when it hurts, I don't whine

Because nobody would even hear me

And when I try, I fall hard

But sometimes I let myself go

And I dream crazy things

Like maybe I'm not alone

Or it's ok to cry

But why?

It doesn't make sense

And no one would understand

The fear that others see is my denial of how I feel

They stare at my features, never daring to speak a word

And it's almost funny 'cause I don't remember willing them to be afraid

But yet again it's the same

I want to be held.

Like any other person

And I want to forgive for all the things that I wish I could do.

And I want to move on.

To start over

But it seems that once again, God is not on my side

But when will he answer my callings?

When it's too late?

When I'm dying?

But wait..

There's no point in lying

I've been dead since I was born

A heart barely beating

But legs still moving

It's like living is a curse

With death as my gift

And when you say it aloud

The words are empty

Not hurting me anymore

Nothing.

What I am.

Nothing.

What I have.

Everything.

What I need.

Just thoughts allowing me to breathe

And I'm on my knees, begging and pleading

Oh, please God, let it end

Let the pain and suffering subside to let me breathe and take in the light

Let it pass on through and give me life

Please God..

Give me a reason to fight.

'Cause of now, I see no light in this tunnel

No end to this torture

And is that right?

Should anyone feel this hollow?

This alone?

This afraid?

But as I take a few steps back

It doesn't matter.

I'm ignored

I'm forgotten.

I'm lost.

And with every thought

I fall further into the background

Blending in indefinitely

Soon I'll be another shade of black or white,

That can't be told apart

But it's not like I'm worth it

So I'll sit here

In this God forsaken room

That reeks of death of failure

And I'll wait

For something that's destined to come my way

But I won't get my hopes up,

To have them crushed later

So just breathe

And it'll end for tonight

I close my eyes and lay it down

Through this quiet sleep

I shall rest

And with this dreadful peace that my mind has created

I shall lock it all away with my key

To preserve my memories

And fears...


Yes I know that some of you may have already seen this before as Hollow but I decided to reboot Hollow and turn it into this! This is going to be much longer and it'll be told as poems instead of like story format. I hope that's not too confusing but anyway what'd ya think?

~Lady Erin