On the way down
By Ashley Barlow
Sitting in his office, Maxwell was thinking about how much things have changed in the last five years. Since Ms. Fine, Maxwell couldn't get used to calling her Fran, had come into their lives everyone seemed much happier. Yes it was tragic what happened to Sara and he knew that he would always love her but until Fran came to work as the nanny he never thought he could love again. Trying to escape his thoughts he switched on the radio, only to hear a song that could describe how much things had changed and he couldn't help getting lost in the song.
Sick and tired of this world
there's no more air
trippin' over myself
goin' nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
and I took a dive
He couldn't help but think about how stupid he had been to wait so long to finally reveal to Fran, and himself, how he felt. He said it was to protect the children, he never wanted them to think he was trying to replace their mother, but in reality he was scared, simple as that, he didn't want to risk getting his heart broken once again, that was some thing he just couldn't take. He caught himself smiling as he thought about the day Fran had shown up at his door, her uniqueness and wit took him by surprise but he found himself oddly drawn to her, like a moth to a light, he just couldn't stay away.
And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you
Than there was Paris, oh Paris, he had never expected things to end like that. It just wasn't like him to lose his composure, that was until he thought they were in real danger and he feared dying with Fran not knowing how he truly felt about her. When they landed safely on the ground is when the reality of what had happened finally sunk in and he panicked. He dreaded what he had to do, he never wanted to hurt her, exactly the opposite really but his fears got the better of him and he didn't know what else to do. The look on her face absolutely killed him; he would have given anything to take away the hurt she felt, the hurt he felt but the damage was done and now he had to get to on repairing the damage. Every time she brought it up it hurt more and more, like he had been stabbed and she was twisting the knife but he would rather feel this pain times 1,000,000 than lose her.
I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright
Sunlight
On my face
I wake up and yeah, I'm alive
'cause on the way down
I saw you
and you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you
The day he told her he loved her, and didn't take it back, felt like every weight had been lifted and he was finally happy, no longer afraid of his feelings, no longer afraid of what people might say, all that mattered was that he had the woman he loved finally with him and the children had every bit of a mother in their lives that they never should have been without. Everything was finally setting into place, even with C.C's mental breakdown; he couldn't have been in a better place. It was Utopia, It was ecstasy, and it was perfect.
I was so afraid
of going under
But now
the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing
Down, down, down
you're all I wanted
down, down, down
you're all I needed
down, down, down
you're all I wanted
you're all I needed
He stood up from his green chair and switched the radio off; he heard the stillness of the house and let out a content sigh. He walked out into the hallway and than down the hall past the living room where Fran was sitting on the couch reading a magazine, he felt a small smile tug on the corners of his mouth as he walked past, not wanting to get caught staring at her. As he walked into the kitchen and sat down his thoughts snuck up on him once again as he continued to think about the woman sitting in his living room, it was just than when the door swung open, pulling Maxwell from his thoughts, Fran walked in to grab a drink, As she walked past he caught himself staring and a song popped into his head.
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted
all that I needed
On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto youDown, down, down
But I held onto you
Down, down, down
But I held onto you
