Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Dark Angel characters but the others are mine so no copying. K?
Summary: it all happened so fast and now when the world has calmed and everything is different what am I suppose to do?
Paring: m/a
A/N: I haven't written any thing 4 a long time so be nice. Ty ^.^
A small delicate woman sits up in a white-sheeted bed. The mattress is lumpy and the sheets are thin but she doesn't mine. Her thin face stares down at a small bundle in her arms. The brightly colored fabric is almost a cruel joke to this heart broken woman as she hugs the limp bundle tighter to her chest. Tears which have been held back now fall unchecked from her eyes.
Max holds her lifeless son to her chest as her emotions run wild over her face. Her body quakes as the sobs grow heaver and she looses her self deeper into loneliness.
Off to the side stands a lean man with his arms folded over his chest. His dark hazel eyes are fixated on his sneakers as he stands off to the side completely at a loss of words for the first time in his life.
The air in the room is heavy with remorse for the small sole who was lost before either had even know it was there. The X5 moved from his spot next to the door drifting stiffly over to Max. His eyes told the story he could not. With in them Max found some comfort.
Alec wrapped one of his arms underneath Max's arms which supported the limp child. The other came to in circle her waist. Her sobs lessened as he pulled her into his strongly built chest. Her teary almond eyes looked up at him imploringly all he could do was to pull her closer.
"I'm sorry Maxie." He whispered softly into her ear.
Alec thought back to how it had all started 9 whole months ago. His eyes slid closed and he let him self remember all that had happened, all that he had tried to forget. Right now it didn't care.
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Max sat curled up in her chair in Terminal city H.Q. behind her desk she felt safe and calm. She was in charge after all. Her eyes slid over the piles of papers in front of her and her mood dropped. ' Why do I have to do all of this?!?' she thought angrily.
Max leaned forward stretching her back enjoying the snap of her spine, her cat DNA apparent in her every movement. Restlessly she squared in her seat not knowing what was bothering her.
Max picked up a paper from on top of the stack and began skimming over it. After a second she set it aside giving up before she had even began. She got up from her chair and began to pace the room.
Alec sniffed the air around him sensing something different then from the moment before. After only a moment he knew what it was 'a female close by was in heat.' Max. His mind screamed as it went into overdrive. Before thinking Alec stepped closer to her office his muscles harding with every step closer. The pheromones coming off Max dragged him closer and closer to the wooden door. His mind became cloudy as he reached out a hand for the doorknob only a few inches away.
' O god I'm in heat' she realized as the door was flung open to reveal a lustfully driven Alec. Max had a last jolt of reality before her heat driven mind took over. 'Logan' she thought frightfully.
" Alec." She purred softly losing herself. Alec stalked over to her his hazel eyes clouded from her pheromones.
"Max." He growled. The name woke something within him. She didn't belong to him half of his mind screamed while the other tried to convince him that it would be all right. " You don't want this." He tried.
" Yes I do Alec, why wouldn't I?" She questioned while coming over to him.
He looked away from her trying to hold on to his line of thought. " Because you'd hate me when it was over." He said.
Max looked at him confused for a moment, "Now why would you think that Alec? Your all I ever wanted."
Max tried to think of a reason why she wouldn't want to be with Alec but her heat-clouded mind wouldn't supply one.
" No I'm not Max," he yelled. 'Did she just say she wanted he?' he asked himself silently. ' No! Pull your self together.' " Max you don't want me not likes this. Not like this he repeated.
" Put I do. Stop saying no Alec and show me what you brag about all the time." Max walked closer to Alec as he took another step backwards finding him self up against a wall. She ran her hot fingers over his chest. Alec looked down at her and nearly lost himself in her beautiful eyes.
" Max No!" He yelled while pushing her away. She looked up at him from her new stop on the floor anger rose in her eyes but quickly vanished. " Alec why did you push me?" She asked with a slight pout.
Alec ran his had through his hair wondering why also. He had never before wanted to resist heat so badly but why. Why now and not the other times. He let out a breath he hadn't know he'd been holding. Just then an idea sparked within his head.
One look in her eyes told him he had to do it no matter what. Besides he told himself she really didn't want him after all. Alec took a step towards her and before he knew it she was back onto her feet. He felt her heated up body only mere centimeters away. Quickly before he lost the nerve he reached out a hand and wrapped it around her neck finding a special pressure point. In a second she was out.
Alec watched as she slumped to the floor still trying to figure out why he had done it. He didn't know why.
Mole chose this moment to open the door. " Need any help?" He asked between cigar puffs.
" Yep,"Alec ran a nervous hand through his dirty blond hair. "Take her over to the isolation ward. She's in heat." Alec explained. Mole gave him funny look before picking her up and taking her away. Alec slumped against the wall sliding down to the floor. Why had he denied her? (Because you care for her) a small voice told him. He groaned that couldn't be it. Could it? Alec shook his head not believing it at all. He didn't care for Max. Bitchy Max who blamed everything on him. He laughed it off and then got to his feet.
A/N: so what do you think? Should I go on?
