Dear Diary,

I missed you. I haven't been able to write for too long. Fortunately, everything is starting to fall into place. After the accident life was odd. Slowly I'm discovering the real world, once again…


Elena's eyes couldn't see anything. It was pitch black. She started feeling a little bit dizzy and some noises were slowly becoming clearer. There was a repetitive "bip" and a couple of distant voices. She tried to move but couldn't. She tried to blink but it felt like her eyes were glued. She moaned and, making the strongest effort possible, she finally opened her eyes and saw some distorted light. A man's voice yelled "She is awake! She is awake!". The voice was familiar and it gave her more strength to fight through the rigidness of her body. As she pushed and pulled, the silhouette started forming and she couldn't believe it. Her little brother, sweet Jeremy, was there holding her hand and calling for her.

"Elena? Can you hear me? Elena, please answer me, it's Jer, your brother, can you hear me?"

She wanted to speak but her mouth couldn't form any words. With swollen eyes she made an effort to look at him and forced her lips to at least outline a smile.

"Elena! You're there! I missed you so much", he held her strongly and it felt good.

Tears started rolling from both their faces and when Elena had her eyes completely open she finally was able to mutter "Jer! I'm so sorry, where is he? Is he ok?"

"Elena, now is not the time, you have to rest, we'll talk later, you take it easy now, ok?"

"I have to know Jer, how is Matt?"

The question took Jeremy by surprise. He thought she was asking for their father. Why was she worried about Matt?

"He's fine, he's been here but he had to go home and he won't take long, ok? Don't you worry, he'll come soon. You just relax."

"Is he fine? Is he good? Jer, I'm so happy he's alive. I'm so happy Stefan saved him."

Jeremy was even more confused, when had Matt ever been in danger? Who was that Stefan she was talking about? Now was not the time to question her, she had to rest and take it easy. He was just happy that she had finally woken up.

"Elena, you have to calm down, everything will be ok, I'll go get a nurse to check on you. Be right back sis."

Elena felt good that Matt was alright but she sensed something strange about Jeremy, as if something was off. She really thought she wouldn't make it. She felt death coming and she hadn't any more strength to hold on to. Had Stefan been that fast that he was able to save her? What had happened? How did she make it? Anyway, she was too tired and quickly fell sound asleep.

A couple of hours must have passed and Elena was still asleep. The nurse who checked up on her told Jeremy that she was recovering and the doctor would talk to him as soon as possible. Jeremy let himself relax for a while on the maple inside Elena's room. He told the nurse how her discourse didn't make any sense, but was advised to wait for the doctor, as he would explain everything he needed to know. Jeremy felt tired. Now that Elena had awakened from her coma, his body started to give in. It has been some months since the accident, some months eagerly waiting for her sister to wake and return to life. She was here now, and his body and his mind needed some rest, desperately.

Jeremy was napping for some time now when Matt came into the room.

"Is it true? Did she wake up?"

"Hey man, yeah, it is.", Jeremy said suddenly.

"How is she?"

"She seemed…fine, I guess. For someone who has been asleep for so long, I could still see her in there, you know? Not just some lifeless body."

"Did she say anything?"

"Actually, she asked for you."

"For me? Really?", Matt was surprised. They had a huge fight before the accident and it looked like they were done. Now that she was asking for him he felt slightly hopeful. Perhaps they could work things out and give their relationship another try.

"Yeah man, it was weird, she asked how you were and that she was glad you were alive. Did anything happen? When were you, you know, not alive?"

"What? Hey, nothing happened! I told you, we had an argument and it felt like we were done, nothing more. I didn't do anything."

"Do you know anyone called Stefan? Was anybody with that name at the party?"

"Stefan? No, never heard of him. Why? She told you about a Stefan?"

"She said Stefan saved you…"

"What the… Something's not right. Jer, I…"

"Matt?", Elena's voice echoed in the room.

"Elena!", Matt ran towards her bed where he came to an alt. He looked at her and she was smiling a weird smile. She was still sleepy but he felt comfortable enough to slowly sit beside her. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm good…ish. How are you?"

"I'm fine, I'm happy you're back."

"And how is Stefan? Where is he?"

Matt looked up at Jeremy, both of them exchanging a worried look.

"What?" Elena said with a serious face now.

"Elena," Matt started "who is Stefan?"

Jeremy locked his gaze at Elena's face, searching for any sign of what was going on.

"What?" Elena said angrily.

"I mean, we don't know any Stefan."

"Stefan, as in Stefan Salvatore."

"Did you meet Stefan at the party?"

"What party?" Elena's heart was starting to beat too rapidly, she was getting impatient and this whole conversation was frustrating. "You two tricked me and took me from the house, you said it was to keep me safe from Alaric, Klaus and everyone. Come on guys!" Elena's frustrated voice was loud.

Doctor Fell came into the room noticing the heaviness inside.

"So, you're awake Miss Gilbert. How are you feeling?"

"I'm… fine, tired but fine.", Elena's voice was lower now, but she still gave Matt and Jeremy a look that clearly implied how this conversation was not over.

"You are aware of the accident you were involved in?", Dr. Fell was checking her up now.

"Yes, I am."

"So, tell me, what is the last thing you remember?", when this words came out of his mouth Jeremy and Matt quickly looked at Elena, curious of what the answer would be.

"Well, I was with Matt, we were driving back to Mystic Falls and I saw someone in the middle of the road. I alerted Matt and he lost control of the van. I guess the rest is self-explanatory. We drove off the bridge and here I am."

"Alright Miss Gilbert, I'm going to talk to your brother and in a little bit I'll send a colleague to talk to you, ok? Don't get too stressed with these two, you need to rest.", he smiled at her, a reassuring smile.

Elena was confused, this situation was too weird. How could Matt and Jeremy not know about Stefan? What happened? She was desperate for some answers.

Jeremy followed Dr. Fell into the corridor and Matt quickly followed, "I'll get you some water Elena, you look dry". Before she could say anything to get him to stay with her, he was out the door. She pulled herself up to sit on the bed. Her body felt numb as if she had slept for too long in the same position. She powered through the pain and looked out the window into the corridor where her brother and the doctor were talking. She stood still observing what they might be talking about…

"Well, Mr. Gilbert, I have strong reasons to believe your sister is suffering from some kind of post traumatic stress. She doesn't recall things as they actually happened. She refers to people that don't exist. I'll send a colleague of mine, Dr. Rose, an excellent psychiatrist, to examine your sister and work with her. Usually when this happens it is a way for the patient to cope with the pain, with the trauma." Dr. Fell noticed the look on Jeremy's face, he had a puzzled and worried gaze. "Don't worry Mr. Gilbert" said the doctor putting his hand on Jeremy's shoulder, "your sister will be just fine. She will recover her external wounds and her mind will get cleared as well. She is strong, she will get through this", giving Jeremy a last nudge on his shoulder, Dr. Fell retracted his hand back to his pocket. He excused himself and went back to his office where he took care of passing Elena's process to his good colleague, Dr. Rose.

Jeremy and Matt came once again into Elena's room. She looked at them waiting for answers, her eyes were locked on both.

"What is going on?"

The silence was getting too heavy.

"What did the doctor say!" her voice was so irritated that the boys had to look back at her. Jeremy straightened himself and walked towards her bed. He sit down next to her and decided to be as honest as possible.

"Elena, you have been asking for people that we don't know. You have been narrating events that didn't actually happen. It is as if you... dreamed. Your mind seems to have constructed these memories in order to protect you of the pain that mom and dad's death might have caused you."

Elena didn't understand a thing of what Jeremy was saying, "Jer, mom and dad died over a year ago. Yes, it was hell, it is still painful, but this accident was different. It was Rebekah!"

"Who is Rebekah? There is nobody called Rebekah here."

"Come on! What is going on with you guys? Where is Stefan?", right after proffering these words, it hit Elena, "oh my God, where is Damon? How is he?". The boys looked at each other not knowing how to react. "How is Damon?", Elena said in a tense voice.

"We don't know any Stefan or Damon...Elena, I'm trying to tell you, listen to me, please, you made things up in your head that you will have to deal with, and I'm here for you, whatever you need."

Elena looked at Matt, waiting for a sign that she wasn't making things up, but he couldn't even keep his gaze straight at her. His supposed girlfriend was asking for other guys that he didn't know. Matt realized that she was actually his ex-girlfriend, and no matter what turmoil of feelings was forming inside of him, she was more broken than he was. She needed him to be there for her and help her recover.

"Your brother is telling you the truth Elena, there is nobody in Mystic Falls with those names. You were in an accident with your parents and you have been blacked out for months." He came closer to the foot of the bed "But don't worry, you'll be fine" and he glanced at her his reassuring look. Matt was always so calm and protective of her. To her, she knew he was just her great friend Matt, but she recalled how closer they were before and, if before wasn't actually as long ago as she remembered, the awareness came to her of what might be going on inside of him. How he might still be hopeful of their future together.

Elena was confused and this conversation was giving her a tremendous headache. She told the boys that she felt tired and wanted to sleep. They left the room with the promise that Jeremy would come back later.

Turning and tossing in her uncomfortable hospital bed, Elena couldn't sleep. After the news she was told she was restless. She knew Stefan and Damon were real. How could she fabricate everything that had happened? This couldn't all be just a fantasy. Every time she closed her eyes she saw in front of her the bright blue eyes that used to stiffen her. She worried about Damon, how would he be after everything he was going through that night? Stefan came to her, she saw him, he was alive. But the last conversation she had with Damon was over the phone, she didn't see him, she had no idea how he was. Had he lashed out after their conversation? She was afraid he might have done something stupid. Damon believed he was going to die and now he knew she had chosen Stefan, so it was just a matter of time before he did something really stupid. She missed him, though. Elena found herself always wanting to hear his voice again, feel his hands on her face, gaze into his eyes and adorable smirk. Why was she so worried and longing of Damon? She wondered why wasn't she thinking of Stefan more. After all, she chose him. She was sure of her choice, it was Stefan, it would always be Stefan. Buried in her thoughts, somehow Elena managed to fall asleep, a restless sleep that got her through the night.


The first day back felt strange. The world was peaceful again. Life seemed simpler. Nevertheless, I could never shake off the feeling of how real that dream felt. It felt too real to be ignored. It didn't matter if nobody else knew about my time with the Salvatore brothers. I wasn't ready to let go of it all. I knew that somewhere would be some kind of hint to the existence of those two.

I hope you enjoyed the Prologue of this story. This is my first fan fiction ever, so if you like it or if you have any feedback you would like to give me, don't forget to review. I really like to hear back from you guys :)