A/N: Had this written for a while, just never gotten round to posting it. I hope you like :) I think I've written some bits rather...oddly. but ahhh well, let me know what you think :)))


Escape (1/3)

They'd been dating for 6 months, secretly, before she did what she did. Before she left him. He just, woke up one morning and she wasn't there anymore. All her clothes were gone, her toothbrush no longer next to his in the bathroom, her green goo wasn't in the fridge and the picture of them from the day she moved in was no longer above the fireplace. All that was left was a note and a shirt he found in the laundry a week later. The note read,

'I'm sorry.

I can't do this.

I love you.

Forgive me? x'

He went on a drinking binge for 3 days after finding that, and refused to leave his couch for a further 2 days. By this point, everyone knew about him and Addison and their break up. He'd told Izzie, who told meredith who told cristina who told everyone. Which also meant he wasn't talking to his friends at the moment, so the only person he could talk to was George, and he was being banned from talking to him by Callie, as she was still upset about her best friend leaving without notice. So he also didn't want to go to work. The day he decided he wanted a transfer was the day he found the shirt. He carried it with him in his backpack as he walked through the lobby, up the elevator, across the bridge and into the chiefs office. He asked outright, no hesitation. He'd heard about an opening in L.A. Wanted to leave, needed to leave. The chief wasn't happy about it. But he understood. So he let Alex go, gave him an outstanding letter of resignation as he couldn't get Addison to do it, especially knowing where she was. He obviously didn't tell Alex, but he never asked either, so it wasn't a big deal. Alex packed up his things and left Seattle two weeks later, saying goodbye to only a couple of people, meredith and Izzie, and downright avoiding others, callie and mark.

He liked L.A. It was warm, sunny, everything Seattle wasn't, which meant that it never reminded him of anything about the last 7 months. Except for the days it rained. They always brought back memories. Like the day he finally told her how he felt.

She was avoiding him. They kissed at Joe's and now, she was avoiding him. Like the plague. Everytime she saw someone who remotely looked like him, she'd walk the other way, or jump into the closest supply closet. She even put him back on plastics. What she didn't know though was that he was always there, just out of sight. He decided to give her space, she was obviously confused, nervous, maybe even ashamed (he really hoped it wasn't the latter of the three), but that didn't mean he didn't want to see her at all. So he followed her, not in a stalkery way, just a concerned friend way, besides, who didn't like looking at her? Well, Sloan definately did. He was constantly coming onto her and Alex had to use every power he had to resist the urge to interfere. That was until he saw him touching her. He saw how uncomfortable she was and he knew he had to help her out. So he walked over to stand with them at the nurses station they were at.

'Dr. Montgomery, your patient...'

'What do you think you're doing Karev? You're on my service, so why are you bothering Dr. Montgomery? Leave. We're having a conversation!' Mark interupted.

'Dr. Montgomery,' Alex repeated more forcefully. 'Your patient in room 312 is asking for you. Dr. Grey told me to tell you if I saw you. It sounded pretty urgent. And Dr. Sloan, I'm no longer on your service. I'd rather spend the day in the pit. Get someone else to get your coffee for you.'

Addison bit her lip in order to keep herself from laughing, whilst Mark glared at Alex and stormed off in the other direction.

'Thanks Karev.' She smiled awkwardly. She started to walk off towards her patients room, but before Alex could tell her the patients wasn't asking for her, she turned and said, 'You know, if you get bored of the pit, I could use another intern. Grey's good, don't get me wrong, but...shes got nothing on you.' she smiled shyly before turning again and walking away.

It took a moment for Alex to wake up from the shock of what she said and, heart swelling with pride, he ran off in Addison direction, grabbing her arm as he reached her and pulled her into the supply closet next to them, and moving his hands to her waist to keep her in place.

'What? Karev? What are you...get off me!' She stared into his deep brown eyes but she made absolutely no movement to remove his hands from around her. She sighed. 'Karev, I have a patient that needs to see me.'

'No you don't.'

'What? But you...'

'I lied. I saw how uncomfortable you were with Sloan and...I just felt the need to help.'

'Oh, well, thanks.'

'You're welcome.' he grinned. They stood in silence for a moment, blue eyes meeting brown. Alex thinks about how much he wants to kiss her right there and never let go, but he knows he needs to wait, and he has some stuff to say which should definately come first. Addison breaks the silence before he even has chance to think about how to word it.

'Karev. Would you mind moving your hands please?' she said, her voice shaking slighty.

Perfect. This is it Karev, don't mess it up. Alex thought to himself. 'Actually, I'd rather not.' He flashed her his signature smirk.

'Excuse me? Karev, this is extremely unproffesional behaviour! I am your boss, you do what I say. And I say, move your hands.' her lips pressed together forming a line.

'I don't want to.'

'Karev...'

'Addison, shut up.' She immediately closed her mouth, glared at him, before sighing and nodding slightly, her signal for him to contintue.

'I don't want to let go, because I have something to say and I know the moment I do let go, you're going to run like the wind and carry on avoiding me. So just let me speak. We kissed. We...kissed. And it was amazing and perfect and everything you want a kiss to be with someone who you can't stop thinking about, which is you Addison. I can't stop thinking about you. And not in a damn she's hot way. In a she's smart, beatuiful, funny way. Addison, you...you're all I ever think about. I love you. But if you don't feel that way about me, fine. Just stop avoiding me, because I can't bear the thought of not having you at all. Just, please, stop.' He sighed. 'I miss you Addison.' he whispered stroking her cheek.

'Kar...Alex. I...I didn't...I didn't think you felt that way.'

'Yeh, well, neither did I. Not really. Not until that day. When Sloan was being a bigger arse than usual. That day I knew, all I wanted to do was make you smile.'

'Alex. I don't know what to say. You just...wait...you, love me?'

'I know it sounds stupid and girly.. Considering it's coming from me and we've only ever kissed once, but I do. Addison, I so lo...' He was interupted by Addisons lips pressing against his own. After a few moments, Addison pulled back to whisper 'I love you too.' before bringing their lips together again.

So now, he was in LA, with nothing to remind him of her, sort of. But still he found himself constantly thinking about her. Eventually he came to the conclusion that he was never going to see her again, but he was happy knowing he would never stop loving her, she was the one. She was his forever and as long as she was happy, wherever she was, so was he. He knew he'd never be able to date someone else now. Heck, he couldn't even sleep with random women anymore, but he dealt with it. That was until one day, he was walking down a corridor at St. Amberose hospital and he heard someone crying in an on call room. He chose to ask a nearby nurse if she knew who it was, Addison had made him more considerate so he knew it wasn't going to do the person any favours if he just walked in on them crying.

'Urm, no, Doctor Karev. I don't who it is. I know she doesn't work here, just does surgeries occasionally. Goes up to the NICU everyday though. She works with Doctor King. But she's always crying, moved here about a month ago. She always comes at the same time every night, goes up there and cries. Then she just leaves.'

'Thanks, Nurse...'

'Sophie. Sister Sophie actually.' with that she walked away.

Taking a deep breath, he walked back towards the door he just abandoned, knocking before entering slowly.

'I'm sorry, I just...I heard you crying. Are you okay?' He asked, looking down. When he recieved no reply he looked up to see the occupant staring at him with wide eyes. His breath caught in his throat as his expression reflected hers.

'Addison?'


A/N: So that's part 1, part 2 shall be up soon :) but I am going to Canterbury Saturday so will probably be once I've recovered from the 7 hour drive :P I'll probably end up writing a ton on the journey, so watch out :D ahaha, review if you want :)