"JOURNEY"
Chapter 1: All I Want
By: Princess Sassafras
Notes: My first official 5x4. 'Woah daddy!' This chapter's POV: Chang Wufei.
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All that I want: his fair head resting against my breast. That is all that I have ever wanted. However, love and loyalty do not always live in the same house. They live in mine; they are housed in my chest.
My heart leaps when he smiles, and the cage of my ribs constricts when he is in pain. He would fight and die for me, just as he would for them. He has told me so. But I don't care about fighting and dying. I would live, for him. I fear he would never, could never, truly live for me. Or speak his mind to me in some quiet room. I could speak mine freely, to him. And he would accept, and know, and maybe even love. If he only knew my mind.
My mind is important to me. But to him, the Heart is all that matters. Somehow my heart never makes it past its physical place, never makes it to my lips. Or it rearranges itself into words that sound more appropriate, but far less real. 'I love you' becomes 'It is unwise for you to go out unaccompanied.' You see my problem now.
A tender touch turns halfway into a brotherly one, or into none at all. I shift my hand so quickly to land upon some inanimate object, that he can never tell that it wanted to touch his hand or his arm or his face.
A woman's grace grows dim next to the way he tilts his chin. Her eyes hold no spark to his. The hollow at the base of his neck enthralls me. His manner enchants me: the way he gestures animatedly and his brow draws upward in sincerity. I have been told my face is impassive, my lips cruel, and my gestures sharp and threatening. I could never argue. If only I could soften myself for him, make my words and my face more palatable to him. But it is hard to undo years of programming.
For him. For him I will try.
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