Just a Remus POV poem set after the events of OotP. I cried. A lot. I thought it was a brilliant book – disturbing, unsettling, tragic and above all, tragically pointless. Something Harry said about not wanting to be human stuck with me, and so I've tried to get Remus' thoughts out.
Don't Want To Be Human
I'm not a human,
I'm only part.
Lost half my humanity,
At an early age.
Didn't think that it could happen
Again.
If human means loving,
I was human with you.
If human means hating,
I was human then too.
Now I'm only part
Because you were my half.
Torn from my flesh,
Bled from my bones.
You promised me I'd never be alone.
And these humans that think,
I'm not like them.
They aren't like me,
All these humans in the street.
They haven't loved,
The way that I've loved.
Haven't felt half the pain that I've felt.
Half my pain and my flesh and my blood
And my love
Ripped away, beyond the veil,
It's too late.
To say that I love you.
You won't ever know.
All I ever wanted,
Was to be human.
I'm learning it so hard now
It's best not to be human.
If I weren't human I wouldn't dream
Dreams where you curve your lips
And smile.
Don't want to be human,
I should be blaming you then.
You made me human.
It's human to be in love.
