I prefer- oneshot
"Harry I cant let you see those files! I cant believe you would even ask!" Harry knew I couldn't help him with…whatever he wanted help with. I could lose my job!
"Mione! I have to know alright. I just…have to." Harry's voice trembled slightly before he took a deep shaky breath.
"Harry, I've been meaning to ask you…..are the rumors true? I thought you might be…but I wasn't sure."
I didn't want offend him. I wanted to be there for Harry like any good friend should be. He raised his eyes to mine and stared at me wordlessly.
"Yes, they're true." He said firmly without a trace of fear, but I knew he was afraid I would reject him. I didn't understand it, but Harry was my best friend and I loved him. Every part of him.
"Harry, it's alright, I'm fine with it really, but I still cant help you."
Harry frowned, probably trying to find a way to convince me to help him. I didn't understand why he wanted files on the Malfoy. I mean sure, Draco and I are partners at St. Mungos, but Harry knew I couldn't give him Draco's personal files.
"Hermione, I need them." Harry said desperately.
"Why!" I cried, throwing my hands up sharply. What could he possibly want with them?
"It's a long story Hermione, but I cant get the truth out of him and his medical record will have it!" Harry ranted and the blood left my face. That's what he was going on about!
"Harry James Potter! He'll tell you when he is good and ready. I'm definitely not helping now. If I find out you were anywhere near the filing department, I'll being have a very unpleasant conversation with you."
Harry gulped and looked at me with what could only be fear.
"He told you and not me?" he asked finally, looking more hurt now. I didn't know he was friends with Draco on such a deep level.
"I had to review his medical records in order to hire him. I gave him my word to never speak of it. I intend to keep it too. Goodbye, Harry."
I shoved him out the door and leaned against the back of it. Harry just needed to trust Draco or else their friendship would end badly.
I was just sitting in my office minding my own business when Draco stormed in, seething. I couldn't even understand what he was yelling about.
"Draco calm down!" I pleaded but he ignored me completely. People were standing in the doorway listening to every word so I slammed the door and then locked it. A silencing charm seemed like a good idea too.
Draco seemed to calm slightly and was breathing heavily. He looked like a broken angle really. It was a joke between us. He was the most beautiful man I'd ever seen so I continually teased him about it and his girlfriends that I never get to meet. I guess I'm sort of in love with him, but I know he doesn't see me that way, at all. So I live happily with our strange, but refreshing friendship.
"What's wrong?" I asked at last when he sat in my chair.
He ran his hands threw his shaggy hair and looked up at me with sad eyes.
"I really don't want to tell you this Hermione."
My defenses went up immediately. He only called me Hermione when he was deadly serious. I waited silently for him to gather words.
"I know that you have feelings for me…..and I wish I could return them, but you see….I'm …..seeing someone."
It felt like he'd physically hit my with a hammer in the chest. The only sound in the room was my pain filled gasp.
I thought I'd hide it so well. This was going to ruin everything. I masked my face and waited for him to say something else.
"Hermione please don't think I wanted to toy with you, I just….this is going to sound bad….I prefer….." He trailed off embarrassedly and it all clicked in my head.
I was filled with an intense anger that I'm sure he saw. Harry I figured out because I knew him so well and my feeling for Draco clouded my perception of the now very painfully obvious.
"Get out." I said coldly, and he blinked twice before getting angry himself.
"Oh so you can except Harry the way he is but not-"
"I wasn't in love with Harry, Draco, now get out of my office." I screamed, just barely stopping my tears from overflowing. How dare he waltz in here and just throw this at me. It was humiliating and hurtful. He knew I had feelings for him and he just…..
"What did you say?" He asked blankly, and his hands fell to his sides in shock. I wanted to bang my head into the wall. Why wouldn't he leave? Hadn't he done enough?
"If you don't go I'll call for someone to make you."
"Hermione, please, I had no idea that you….oh Merlin I'm so sorry." He really did look sorry, but my heart hurt too much to let that count.
"If you sorry you'll just leave me alone and never speak to me again. I don't ever want to see you face again. Go live happily ever after."
He looked hurt and disappointed but didn't leave like I'd hoped he would.
"You told Harry what my father did to me." He said boldly.
That was the last straw. He came in and broke my heart and then had to accuse me of betraying him too? I know he isn't an evil bastard any more, but that was hard proof against it. I burst into tears and started sobbing in my hands.
I heard his shocked gasped and he tried to comfort me like he used too, but I wouldn't have any of it.
"No! you cant just come and here and hurt me like this and then falsely accuse me of betraying you! Harry came to me because he knew I had access to the medical filed of our sexual abuse. He was upset you wouldn't tell him! I should have guess it then. I didn't tell him a damn thing and I want you out of my office now!" I was about ready to just push him out the door. I didn't want to touch him though. I wanted him to disappear and never come near me. I don't think I anticipated how strong my feelings were for him. They were shocking consuming and every time I looked at his face I just wanted to cry. I guess I hoped that one day he would fall in love with me, but now I knew it was impossible.
Draco looked torn, but saw no other option but to leave. I wasn't in my right mind when I grabbed a nearby vase and hurled it at the wall beside his head just as he opened the door.
He spun around to glare at me, but my expression was murderous.
"Get the fuck out of my life." I said coldly and pushed him out the door. I heard gossiping through the door, but I didn't care. All I knew was that I was hurting and it was his fault. It was his fault and Harry's fault for being gay and being in a relationship, it was his fault that I fell in love with him and it was his fault that I could never have a chance.
I slide down the door and continued to sob in my hands. I really hated men. I really did.
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