Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who, but I have recently returned from the edge of my seat after watching the finale of season 4 and pondering this for days.

I think about him all the time.

He is living the life I want to live.

It's practically all I think about.

The stars were my home for so many centuries, adventures my daily fare. It's so different here. Yes, there are wonderful things to explore, parallel world and all, but my feet are always on the ground, stuck to this earth. I feel like I may as well be ordered about by the Brigadier again. But there's no Brigadier here, and even if there was he wouldn't know me, because there was no me here; well, before me. I long to roam again, time and space miss me, I'm sure. The only way I get to travel through time is forward; I sit and watch Pete's hallway clock for hours. My wings are equally clipped when it comes to travelling through space. Sometimes I feel like a dog tied up by a three foot rope in a yard of infinite size. There is only one thing here that would keep me from switching places with him in a heartbeat (which I only have one of now, let's not forget).

I'm sure he would agree with me.

She is my only reason to live.


I think about him all the time.

He is living the life I want to live.

It's practically all I think about.

Thoughts of her were all that filled my head from the moment I saw her father rescue her from the void. I even took Martha the same places we'd been before. Bit rude of me, now that I think of it, but the sealing rift took away the last three words I wanted to say to her and I just wanted to hang on to the memories of her, walk the same paths she walked, pretend like we had never parted. And now she is with him. Her reaction when he finished that sentence from so long ago was supposed to belong to me. That was my kiss. He's living my life. With my… I don't begrudge him his eventual death, although there are days that I wish for it. The only thing here that would keep me from switching places with him is what has kept me going my entire life.

I'm sure he would agree with me.

Adventure, discovery, travel… these are my only reasons to live.