Proposal
Anger is all that was there just a moment ago. Now as he trudges up the stairs, dizzy and drunk, all thats left is cold pit of confusion and hurt. How can victory hurt like this? It isn't fair, he didn't do anything wrong. Why does this shit keep happening? Woman after woman that he lets close only for them to walk over him on their way out of his life. Moredecai is many things cruel rude and raw, but never to a good woman.
Good woman... maybe his definition of a good woman needed to be looked at. As he looked back on the women he'd been with he realized they where all very similar in a significant number of ways. Firstly was they way they caught his eye, a sharp slender physique with matching eyes. The eye's always got him. Dark hair and a smart mouth with a tongue like acid, always so string so independent. Strange when he thinks about it... at the end of the line he wants a woman he can care for. He enjoys spoiling them, although it is never appreciated.
Reaching out he places his hand on the wall to keep the room from spinning, he can hear Lilith's voice calling him from inside. He takes several deep breaths to calm his nerves and clear his thoughts, his mind is syrupy and the thoughts seem sticky. So he stays there at the door to headquarters for a good few minutes trying to calm down before stepping inside and looking for the source of Lilith's voice. She's so panicked, pacing quickly in long ovals in front of the center console.
" whut's wrong Lil?"
She spins around when she hears him, she wrings her hands in front of her and glances all over the room- looking any where but at him. He watches her repeat his process of breathing before she opens her eyes to look at him right in the eyes.
"sit down, I need to ask you to do something."
He lopes over to his usual spot in an out of place office chair, making sure not to miss when he goes to actually sit down. She looks at him firmly, whatever it is, he's probably going to say yes. It seems important.
"Mordecai-"
Crap. Its really important and really shitty.
"do you remember how Athenas was planning to send missionaries to 'purify' Pandora?"
Lilith curls her fingers into quotation marks at the word purify, putting them back crossed over her chest afterward.
" yea,they where gonna have what- a crusade or somethin- Right ?"
"more like a genocide, but I was able to send them a message. They didn't know that there was anyone already here trying to help. I've told them about whats going on, what were doing to try and help. Can you believe it they listened!"
Mordecai looks at her curiously, waiting for his death sentence.
"they did say however that we are not doing enough on our own... that if we want their assistance- assistance as in medical supplies food and clean water you know. Good important stuff – we really need it!"
"get on with it Lil "
" to their knowledge we are the only organization trying to assist and care for Pandora... that makes us Pandora's...government."
She spits the word like acid. Mordecai merely rolls his eyes at the comment, given that he isn't wearing his goggles at the moment she can actually see it for once. What did she think they where to Pandora anyway- charity? They made laws and enforced them as best they could. That seems pretty governmental.
"what's my part in this Lil"
His irritation was beginning to show in a deep scowl on his face and the tone of his voice.
" they will not help us unless we can form an alliance with them. Their government is run by their church so they can only see one way to form this alliance that they will accept."
"which would be?"
" Marriage."
He looks at her without any change in his expression, his eyes are sort of stonewalled.
" I'm so sorry I know you're with Moxxi but I just couldn't think of anyone else to have up there! It has to be someone I can present as a bridge between the people or whatever some one who – I can't have Brick up there he's maniacal and doesn't know how to behave at all- Axtons a loudmouthed pervert. If Roland where here he would do it but he's not and they said said they have a bride ready- wouldn't even consider sending a groom. I did I asked for a groom so I could do this instead of anyone but they said they only have one ambassador strong enough to transfer here! And-"
" No. "
Lilith stays quiet, in shock. Not what she expected, actually its exactly what she expected. So she takes a step forward closing the distance between them. Carefully she places her hands on his shoulders and asks again.
" Mordecai I can't ask anyone else, I need this to be you. I can't trust this much to anyone else, please"
His glare is surprising to her.
" I'm so sick of these damn women I don't want another one! I do everything for em and what I get!? Kicked to the damn curb when something better comes along! When I give em everything they damn well want and they have what they need their done with me! Well I'm done with that shit! These greedy PUTAS CAN JUST FUCK OFF! Jack can have that bitch, she ain't all that great anyway."
Liar.
He loved it when she would put her chin on his shoulder with her hands on his back, he loved it when she would lean on him. Little things, like when she would finally take off her heels and sit with him.
Liar.
He wasn't done, he didn't want to give her away. But he also didn't want to feel so used and hollow anymore.
Liar.
He hated having an empty bed, he hated seeing women look away. He hated wanting them and watching them walk away.
Liar.
" please... please I can't do this myself if I could I wouldn't have asked and I can't say think about it because they want this answer in the morning. At six A.M. I need an answer and a name to give them-"
Mordecai looks at her, shes trying so hard to stay calm and it isn't really working. She's here day and night, all of her every bit of her is in this. This struggle to help Pandora to make it better. That's how Roland was too.
" Even if Roland was here, it would still be me anyway."
Lilith looks at him confused.
"why do you think that?"
"because he would be choosing between you or them. So it would wind up being me anyway so. Fine."
She flings her arms around him hugging him tightly, almost ready to cry.
"thank you so much I owe you everything!"
" this chick better be smokin or I'm gonna kick your skinny ass!"
