There are times in my life when I find it hard to say what I'm thinking. Phrases and thoughts will enter my mind and disappear as quickly as they entered. I'm going through that right now. There are so many things I want to tell you, so many things I have to say.

You left me when I was hurt. You left me when I needed you most. I couldn'tn believe that I'd bee abandoned by somebody I considered close to me. Entire days were spent sitting on my bed and looking out the window, naively hoping that I'd see you.

I'd be lying if I said that thinking about you made me angry after a while. You meant so much to me and I thought you felt the same, but I believed myself to be wrong after hearing that you'd left me behind. I have to live the rest of my life with this metal attachment, reminding me of the sacrifice I made for you. Do you even care about what happened to me? I can't tell through that expressionless face. It's so creepy. That's probably why you're always alone. Nobody can stand being around somebody who can't even smile or do something besides stare at others like a freak.

…I'm sorry. I probably started going a little far by saying that. There's something about you that stops me from insulting you further. I wish I could explain what it was. Just looking at you reminds me of every moment we shared and the bond that grew around them. You're someone I still don't know that much about, and yet there's something about you that makes me feel closer to you than I have with anyone else.

That feeling is probably why I'm so upset by you leaving. You had friends who cared about you.

I cared about you.

Look around you. The world we live in is falling apart. Something big is happening and we're going to be involved with it whether we like it or not. The only people you have outside your family are your friends. Most people you'll come across won't care about you they way your friends and family do. Remember this before you think about running away from those same people again.

As for me, I'm going to settle some things. I don't know what you plan on doing, but I can tell you're still unsure about what it is you want. Just remember that I'll be waiting for your answer, whatever that may be.

Goodbye.