Disclaimer:

I do not own Bleach. Bleach is by Kubo Tite

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My Dried Persimmon

I love the way your eyes shine when you smile

I love the way your hair sway by the wind

I love the way you say my name

And I hate the way you look as I leave

I hate the fact that it is me that wipes away your pretty smile

I hate the truth that it is me that makes you weep

I hate the fact that it is me that breaks your heart

And I love the truth that I alone would be your love

I wish I could be all that you needed

I wish I could change everything that is me

I wish I could be the man you deserve

I wish you never loved me in any way

I may be a beast and a brute

I may be a killing machine for all I care

I may be a ruthless slaughterer

But you loved me nonetheless

I am everything every woman would not wish to love

I am everything no person would dare be acquainted with

I am everything you never should have cared for

Yet you loved everything that is Gin

I hope you would learn to hate me

I hope you would love someone better than me

I hope you would get over the pain of having me in your life

And I hope you never get to do all that

You taught me to care that night I saw you on the ground

You taught me to love that everyday I spent with you

You taught me regret that every moment I leave you

You taught me everything I had learned to unlearn

The only pain I know is never being good enough for you

The only pain I felt is never being there for you when you needed me

The only pain I knew is leaving you behind, every single time

The only joy I ever remember is calling you mine

I maybe just another villain

Another coldblooded, heartless slayer

I maybe just another brutal murderer

But once in my life, I did love a woman

I loved her with all my life

I loved her with all my heart

I loved her despite everything that is innately me

I loved her too much I had to stay away from her

Because I am everything that can damage her

I am everything that can shatter her

I am everything that can destroy her

But I loved her nonetheless

It was never because I was afraid to love

It was never because ambition for power is greater that you are

It was never because I did not love you enough

It is because I loved you so true I am willing to give you up

(Just so I can protect you from everything that is me)

Because, however I want to be another man for you

However I wish you to change my ways for you

However I want to be with you

I'm forever cursed never to be all that

You may never understand why I leave

You may never comprehend my reasons

You may never understand why I do all this

But, please, I pray that you understand one thing:

The only and sole person I ever and will ever love is you

I may as well say it again

I LOVE YOU, always and forever…

Ichimaru Gin

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In romantic love, you want the other person

In true love, you want the other person's happiness

Even if it means giving up your own