Disclaimer:
I do not own Bleach. Bleach is by Kubo Tite
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My Dried Persimmon
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I love the way your eyes shine when you smile
I love the way your hair sway by the wind
I love the way you say my name
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And I hate the way you look as I leave
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I hate the fact that it is me that wipes away your pretty smile
I hate the truth that it is me that makes you weep
I hate the fact that it is me that breaks your heart
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And I love the truth that I alone would be your love
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I wish I could be all that you needed
I wish I could change everything that is me
I wish I could be the man you deserve
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I wish you never loved me in any way
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I may be a beast and a brute
I may be a killing machine for all I care
I may be a ruthless slaughterer
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But you loved me nonetheless
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I am everything every woman would not wish to love
I am everything no person would dare be acquainted with
I am everything you never should have cared for
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Yet you loved everything that is Gin
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I hope you would learn to hate me
I hope you would love someone better than me
I hope you would get over the pain of having me in your life
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And I hope you never get to do all that
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You taught me to care that night I saw you on the ground
You taught me to love that everyday I spent with you
You taught me regret that every moment I leave you
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You taught me everything I had learned to unlearn
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The only pain I know is never being good enough for you
The only pain I felt is never being there for you when you needed me
The only pain I knew is leaving you behind, every single time
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The only joy I ever remember is calling you mine
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I maybe just another villain
Another coldblooded, heartless slayer
I maybe just another brutal murderer
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But once in my life, I did love a woman
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I loved her with all my life
I loved her with all my heart
I loved her despite everything that is innately me
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I loved her too much I had to stay away from her
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Because I am everything that can damage her
I am everything that can shatter her
I am everything that can destroy her
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But I loved her nonetheless
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It was never because I was afraid to love
It was never because ambition for power is greater that you are
It was never because I did not love you enough
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It is because I loved you so true I am willing to give you up
(Just so I can protect you from everything that is me)
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Because, however I want to be another man for you
However I wish you to change my ways for you
However I want to be with you
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I'm forever cursed never to be all that
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You may never understand why I leave
You may never comprehend my reasons
You may never understand why I do all this
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But, please, I pray that you understand one thing:
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The only and sole person I ever and will ever love is you
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I may as well say it again
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I LOVE YOU, always and forever…
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Ichimaru Gin
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In romantic love, you want the other person
In true love, you want the other person's happiness
Even if it means giving up your own
