Title: Surviving
Chapter 1
Word Count: 1205
Rating: M!
Pairings: Kendahlia/Loganator
Disclaimer: I, sadly, do not own BTR
Warnings: Language, self-harm, and stuff.
Summary: AU "It's not as easy as it looks," he whispered, breathe tickling the smaller of the pair's ear, "surviving day to day… when all you want to do is die."
Author's Note: Uh, hi… This is my replacement for My Own Murderer, which shall also, at a later date, be replaced by a story quite similar to it. :) Yeah… I screwed it up and I'm going to fix that whole story up, 'Kay?
Yeah, anyway, here's this!
Yeah.
DallieJLovesBTR
Kendall Knight's body slammed into a locker the second he walked past the hockey team in the hallway, just like any other day at Duluth East High School. The culprit, you ask, is Logan Mitchell, the captain of the team, the position formerly held by Kendall, before he came out of the closet the year before after the hockey championship, which they won. It came out in a rush of the excitement. Logan was now his main tormentor, although they used to be best friends and great team mates.
Kendall lived in a small and very homophobic town in Minnesota. By small, I mean the kind of small where everyone knows everyone and their entire life story. As an example, Kendall knows that Logan is adopted. He was taken away from his parents at age eight after years a sexual, physical, and emotional abuse from both his parents. The hurt from the abuse turned to anger and power on the rink. He's a star student and the biggest homophobe of the whole town. Anyway, when Kendall came out the news spread quickly across the town and now the abuse comes from everywhere. He could barely leave the house, his only safe haven, without, at the very least, words spat in spite at him coming from a passerby. He refused to the bus, knowing that it wouldn't end well for him. Instead, he walked to school, taking shortcuts only he knew of.
Kendall's mom is one of few people who accept him, getting shit for it often. His dad is no longer around, fleeing the town as soon as he came out, taking Kendall's baby sister, Katie, with him. Kendall still kept in touch with her, when able, for their dad practically forbids her to contact him. His grandparents, even being the extremely religious people they are, accepted him quickly, saying they always knew something was different about him and that they'd always love him. They, being rich, also supported him and his mother, seeing how his father wouldn't be paying child support.
"Knight!" Kendall heard Logan snap, whipping him out of his trance. He is standing in front of Kendall, flanked by his usual goons, Wally Dooley, better known as Wayne Wayne, and Jett Stetson, star-to-be. Kendall towers over him, but the pure power that he radiates with his stance and the dark glare of his eyes makes Kendall wanted to shrink away and hide, but, as always, he held his ground.
"Oh, how great! You know my last name!" Kendall spat out sarcastically. "I am ever so honored, Logie." His lips curled into a smirk as the old nickname slipped of his tongue and into the air.
All eyes were on them as Logan's fist curled and he snarled at Kendall. "Watch it, faggot, and I won't tell you twice. I will kick your ass without a second thought."
Kendall felt like laughing at the small boy at this point. It was pitiful. "Oh, really? First off, name calling? I thought you were above that. And, secondly, I do not believe you could kick my us, mon ami, for I have always been able to whoop yours. Just because I came out doesn't make me any weaker, and it sure as hell doesn't make you stronger!" It was hard to tell who threw the first fist. It was a twisted mixture of fists, feet, and curse words flying through the air, spectators moving just out of the way while shouting out the cliché of 'fight, fight, fight,' at the pair of boys. As fists flew, teachers watched on. This wouldn't be allowed if it were a straight boy. But, of course, with Kendall being who he was, it was allowed to pass without a thought.
It wasn't long until Kendall saw his best and only friends, Carlos Garcia and James Diamond, pushing through the crowd, elbows flying and angry words leaving mouths. A smile reached his way to Kendall's lips for he knew what was to come. Kendall felt strong arms wrap around his waist and pull him away from the brunette, as the brunette was being pulled from him. "Logan, Logan, how could you be so stupid?" Kendall heard James say as he held back a flailing Logan who was pleading to be let go. "Don't you realize that no matter what, Carlos and I will always protect Kendall, just as we all swore to in the second grade? But, it seems you've forgotten that tiny detail."
A smile reached Kendall's lips as a memory passed through his mind.
Kendall, James, and Carlos had just pulled some bullies off of Logan, for they had been picking on him for being the smartest and youngest kid in their class. The four had concluded on hiding in the small tree house in Kendall's backyard. They were playing a game of UNO in a comfortable silent, besides the occasional groans from Carlos when things didn't go as planned. After a couple of rounds, Carlos spoke, intelligible words, "Guys, we can't let those jerks do that kind of stuff. To any of us."
Kendall glanced at him and smiled, "Of course not, Carlitos." He paused for a second, looking around at his friends, who were staring at him, and waiting. "I have an idea!" He shouted. "Let's make a deal. We will all, no maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatter what, protect eachother. 'Cause that's what best friends do, guys."
They all nodded excitedly, sticking their hands in a tangle, and shouting out, "Hockey-heads!"
It made Kendall laugh, the memory so simple and a promise so broken. Logan's dark eyes stared daggers into the Kendall's soul. James squeezed Logan tightly, making him cough and sputter, not able to breathe. Kendall gets down, eyes level with Logan's, which were still staring darkly. "These are real friends, Logie, which you have no idea about. Hockey-heads!" He spat quietly at the boy before stepping back and gesturing for James to let Logan go. He smiled slyly at Logan before pushing through crowd, who were shocked and angry.
After getting a good distance away from the crowd, Kendall turned to his boys. "Thanks guys, you rock." He said, a kind smiling blazing. "I, well, couldn't have gotten out of that situation without you guys. I mean, yeah, it would have stopped but not until Ms. Wainwright showed up or some shit like that."
Carlos nodded in understanding, "It's all good, buddy! We love to help out." His head bobbed up and down as he spoke, shaking the loosely hanging helmet with it. As the hockey teams old goalie, he always felt a need to protect himself. He, too, had been kicked off the hockey team along with James, an old defensive player, because they refused to drop having Kendall as their friend. "Besides, the deal we made holds strong for us in here." He patted his chest, right above his heart and his forever warm smile spread around.
James smiled also, saying his usual four words, as they were said every day, "My place after school?" The boys all nodded, did their goofy hand-shake and went off their separate ways for the day, only to know they will meet again at the end of the day.
Yeah, just a little bit of a back story on the characters. James and Carlos get more of a back story next chapter, just so you know. And, yeah. Hope that didn't suck. Have any idea for improvements, than message me, along with ideas!
Review pwease,
Dallie
