Short, sweet Neoshippy oneshot in Cass's POV! Yes, yes it is painfully corny.
Sometimes I wish I could just tell you how I feel. We have these awkward moments from time to time, and in my head, I'm urging myself to just come straight and tell you. It never happens though. It's so much easier to just…pretend. Pretend that I don't care about you, pretend that you're 'just a friend'.
I can't even imagine myself telling you that the mere thought of you puts a smile on my face. Or how the sound of your voice, yes, your voice, is comforting to me. Or how safe and protected I feel whenever I'm close to you.
I'd never be able to find the words to tell you that every time we touch by accident my heart skips a beat. Or how I get butterflies whenever I look into your gorgeous brown eyes. Or how I struggle to even go a day without you.
I wouldn't ever dream of saying this out loud, but on the other hand I feel I could tell you anything. I feel that whatever I say to you, you won't ever judge me. In fact, I feel like you're the most loyal person in the world, you stick by my side through everything, all the crap I put you through. Let's face it, we both know I'm a bitch, but you don't seem to care. You accept me, and that's something, because nobody else has ever accepted me.
I think you're the only man I've ever loved and trusted. Yes. I love you. Not just as a friend, but I'm in love with you. Which is weird, because when we first met at training academy I couldn't stand you. I thought you were arrogant, which is totally hypocritical coming from me. Maybe that's what makes us such a perfect match.
No, I'm kidding there. You're such a sweet guy deep down, I feel I'm the only one who really gets to see that side of you, and I appreciate that more than anything. I never thought I'd end up falling in love with you though.
I love how protective you are over me; I love how you look after me and care about me so much. Maybe I don't show it in return, but I do care about you. More than anything. I wish I could find the words to tell you.
But I can't, and I don't think I ever will.
I guess these are just a few more of those things I'll never say.
