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December 1983.

It was Christmas eve, celebrations had been going on downstairs, Alex didn't feel up to joining in, this time of year always hurt her most- not being with Molly. So she sat down to watch the old Christmas classic- Frosty the snowman, drinking endless bottles of wine.

No matter how hard she tried she couldn't fight back the tears when he melted in the sun, with all of the children being upset. It made her think, that's just what she had become really, Molly being the one getting upset. She thought of Molly sitting there at her bedside, opening her presents. 'It wasn't fair' she told herself. 'I should be there, hugging my daughter, watching her open her presents, except I'm stuck here and I don't know how to get out' she said in her head, as the tears escaped her eyes.

She turned off the TV and made her way to bed, since she had been shot, she hadn't dreamt of home, hadn't heard any voices, she was beginning to forget what Evan looked like, even Molly. She only saw what looked like a young copper, he didn't talk or anything, she had no idea who he was or what he was doing there, maybe he was like her, she just wished she could go home. Gene made it worse, anything she tried to do to find anything out about this world, he was there, telling her not to mess with history and just leave it at that, but Alex being Alex wasn't going to give up a fight that easily.

She turned off all of the lights and climbed into bed, sighing, she was so unhappy here. The only thing that really could make her happy was Gene, which surprised her; she just couldn't stop how she felt about him, the night they danced, his touch on her, them being in the same room all felt so magical to her.

She lay there for a while, looking out to the window, looking through seeing the stars. She saw something move, taking it was a shooting star, she made a wish. 'I wish I could get home again' she said softly and closed her eyes, just lying there for a few moments then opened her eyes again and looked at the bright moon, sighing.

Gene was sitting in Luigi's, looking down at the box he had for Alex which contained a necklace, he just sat and stared at it, hoping all night she would have come down but she never did.

He carried on drinking for a while before leaving for the night.

'Night team' he shouted to everyone who were messing about, in a drunken state as usual.

'Night Guv' they shouted back, laughing and talking loudly.

He walked out to the Quattro and looked up at her window, seeing the blinds weren't closed, he simply sighed and got in the car and drove home.

He couldn't help how he felt, he couldn't get her off his mind at all, he thought he would never admit it too her, she could have anyone she wanted, why would she go for someone like me?

He decided it would be best to try not to think about her, he pulled up at his house and got out, walking in. It was freezing in there, he put the fire on and sat on his couch, drinking his scotch, just staring into the fire.

After a couple of glasses later, he staggered upstairs into bed, taking his clothes off and getting in, throwing his head on the pillow, looking over at a picture of the team on his birthday, looking at how beautiful Alex looked that night, he sighed and drifted off to sleep, hoping she would accept his present the next morning.