Chapter 1

Everyone has a purpose in life, a purpose for being on this planet and from an early age Rachel always knew that her purpose in life was to perform. Broadway was what she always had her eyes on and although she knew she certainly had the talent for it, she also very well knew that dreams, didn't always come true.

But here she was at 28, living in her dream city, working her dream job living in her dream house with her dream man, Noah Puckerman.

The road to their life together was nowhere near easy. It took them years to realize that they were meant for each other….hell, they barely even kept in touch after high school except for the annual Glee club reunions that they had over holiday breaks while in college and of course there were the occasional Facebook messages, but with Rachel at NYADA and Puck back home and going to college in Lima, they never really spent much time together.

That all changed when Puck had decided to move to New York after college to try get some of his screenplays sold to major film production companies. One would think that L.A. would be a more suitable place for screenwriters, but Puck had already been there after high school and decided it just wasn't for him, so this time he wanted to take a bite out of the 'Big Apple.'

Everyone knew that Puck had moved to New York when his current city changed from Lima to New York on his Facebook account. Rachel, Kurt, and Santana met up with him for dinner and drinks one night and soon Puck was spending his free time with them more and more.

Rachel and Puck became somewhat of a support group for each other because showbiz was a cutthroat business and more doors slammed in their faces than opened. When Rachel was turned down for a roll, Puck consoled her and when another production company turned down one of Puck's screenplays, Rachel was there to comfort him. They were each other's rock and eventually, both of their careers began to take off and eventually, they became more than just old friends.

Puck and Rachel got married a few years in a traditional Jewish ceremony and moved into a spacious apartment in Upper Manhattan with two additional bedrooms because they knew that they always wanted to have a couple of "Good looking, talented, badass, Jewish kids" as Puck would always say and they wanted an apartment suitable enough for a family and not just a childless couple.

A few months before their two year wedding anniversary, Puck and Rachel found out that they were expecting and made an appointment for a pre-natal appointment as soon as possible. It was at that appointment where the overjoyed couple saw their child for the first time during an ultrasound. Not being able to keep the news to themselves any longer, Puck and Rachel posted the ultrasound picture of what looked like a tiny peanut, up on their Facebook accounts with the caption, "Baby Puckerman, coming in March!"

Despite of her pregnancy, Rachel continued to perform on Broadway, telling her director that she wanted to stay on until her 'baby bump' began to show, ignoring her doctor's orders to "take things easy" during the first trimester of the pregnancy.

It had been four weeks to the day since Puck and Rachel announced their pregnancy via Facebook. Rachel was rehearsing the final musical routine of the show when she lost her footing and fell hard onto her right side. Thinking nothing of it she went about her day until later that night when her lower back began to ache, getting worse and worse as the night progressed.

Worried about her condition Rachel woke Puck from his deep sleep.

"Babe, are you okay?" Puck asked drowsily.

"Noah, I think that fall I took in rehearsal was harder than I thought. This back ache is starting to become slightly uncomfortable…I don't know, maybe we should go to the hospital as a precaution."

They took a cab to the nearest hospital and arrived at the Emergency Room and signed in. After waiting for what seemed like an eternity, they were called into an observation room.

An older woman walked into the room and introduced herself. "Hello, Rachel. I'm Dr. Waller and I'm an attending physician here in the ER." She held her hand out and shook Rachel's hand.

"Hello Dr. This is my husband, Noah." Puck stood from his seat and stood next to Rachel's bedside.

"Hi, Noah. Now Rachel, from your chart, I see that you are currently ten weeks pregnant and that you had a hard fall earlier today and are now experiencing lower back pain."

Rachel nodded in agreement and watched as the doctor drew up some paper work.

"Rachel, I'm going to run a few tests on you just to make sure everything is okay with the baby. The nurse will be in to collect some blood and urine samples and once the results are back from the lab I will be back in to discuss any findings." Dr. Waller walked out of the room leaving Puck and Rachel to themselves. Until a young nurse came in to collect samples from Rachel and notified them that it may take an hour or longer for the results.

After an hour later, Rachel started to become antsy. "I can't take this anymore Noah. I want to know what's going on. It's absurd that we have to wait so long." A worried look was spreading across Rachel's face as she sat up in bed wringing her hands.

Puck grabbed Rachel's hands to calm her. "I know. I'm getting impatient as hell too babe, but there are a lot of patients here tonight, so I'm sure the lab is really busy. Just sit tight. I'm right here with you."

Rachel sighed and took a deep breath to help her calm down. A knock was heard on the door and both she and Puck looked up to see Dr. Waller.

"Rachel, Noah. I have the results of your urine and blood tests…Rachel your HcG levels have dropped dramatically."

Rachel shook her head, "I uh…I don't understand. What does that even mean?"

"Your HcG levels are your pregnancy hormone levels and they've dropped to below normal. There's no easy way to put this…I'm terribly sorry Rachel, but I'm afraid you had a miscarriage, an incomplete miscarriage meaning that there are parts of the fetus still remaining in you, so we need to schedule a D & C to remove the rest of the fetus. I'll leave you two alone for a little bit."

Rachel let out a soft whimper as tears burned her eyes. "No" was the only word she let out before sobbing into Puck's arms.

Puck held Rachel close clenching his eyes closed to stop himself from crying. In these last few moments, they realized how possible it was to love something that barely even existed. However, as hard as it was….they would get through this. They may have lost their child, but they still had each other and they knew that they could always try to conceive another child again because things could only get so bad before getting better…Besides, lightning never strikes the same place twice, right?

But they couldn't be anymore wrong. Lightning can strike at the same place twice and cause even more damage than the first time it strikes.

A week after her D & C, Rachel had her follow up appointment. Puck went with her for support and to find out when they could start trying to get pregnant again. It was at that appointment that they found out that Rachel had developed scar tissue in her uterus as a result of the D & C, meaning she would never be able to conceive again.

At 28, Rachel and Puck were living their dream lives, in their dream city, working their dream jobs, but they wanted one more thing to complete their dream and now they weren't sure if they could ever get it.