what hurts the most: a song and short story
Bella laid her head down on the pillow it had been 4 months since he left and she knew he wasnt comeing back. She couldnt live without him. with that thought in mind she grabbed a pen and paper to start her suicide letter....
dearest, edward
I love you with all of my heart and i always will. I always believed you had a soul so mabe one day we will meet again.
i couldnt handle liveing everyday knowing i would never see you again. It breaks my heart liveing without you. Im not really
killing myself just my body becouse when you left i died inside. All that was left was my body. Tell alice she was the most
wonderfull carefree sister even with her silly shopping obsession. Tell jasper i love him and i never blamed him for anything
that happend. tell emmett he was always my goofy big brother i miss his laugh so much. Tell rose even know we dint get off to
a good start i still thought of her as a sister. tell carlisle he was like a second dad to me and i know he is right about your souls
tell esme that she was the best mother ever.
But still with all the good words of you being family. you still left me. Family doesnt just up and leave when time gets tough. But
be happy edward im being human like you wanted and part of humanity is dieing. I lived all the life i wanted when you were here.
I love you all so so so much please forgive me for this. And i forgive you for leaveing. Goodbye
love always
isabella swan
ps. there is a cd in my cd player i want you to listen to.
with that bella turned on her stario and listend to the song that she wanted edward to hear. While singing along she sliced her wrists waiting to slowley bleed to death.......................but she was determined to finish this song and she had a recorder. recording it.
"i love you" she said and started singing
"i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that dont bother me
i can take a few tears now and then an just let them out
im not afraid to cry
every once in awhile
even though going on with you gone
still upsets me
there are days
every now and again i pretend
im ok
but thats not what gets me
what hurts the most
was being so close
and haveing so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowen
what couldve been
and not seeing that loven you
is what i was trying to do
its hard to deal with the pain of loseing you every where i go
but im doing it
its hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and im alone
still harder
getten up
getten dressed
liven with this regret
but i know
if i could do it over
i would trade
give away
all the words that i saved
in my heart that i left unspoken
what hurts the most is being so close
and haven so much to say and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loven you
is what i was trying to do
ooohhh yaaayaaa
what hurts the most
was being so close
and haven so much to say
and watchen you walk away
and never knowen
what couldve been
and not seeing that loven you
is what i was tryen to do
not seeing that loven you
thats what i was trying to doooo
ooooohhhh."
"goodbye edward my love" she said with her last breath as her heart stopped she had the song on replay so it just kept on playeing
as her blood drown the floor. Every heart felt word went through her dead body like air. she was really gone.
ok so how did i do? r+r. right now this is just a oneshot but if i get enough reviews i will make it a 2 shot adding a funeral scene so let me know what you think? ~trinity~
