what hurts the most: a song and short story

Bella laid her head down on the pillow it had been 4 months since he left and she knew he wasnt comeing back. She couldnt live without him. with that thought in mind she grabbed a pen and paper to start her suicide letter....

dearest, edward

I love you with all of my heart and i always will. I always believed you had a soul so mabe one day we will meet again.

i couldnt handle liveing everyday knowing i would never see you again. It breaks my heart liveing without you. Im not really

killing myself just my body becouse when you left i died inside. All that was left was my body. Tell alice she was the most

wonderfull carefree sister even with her silly shopping obsession. Tell jasper i love him and i never blamed him for anything

that happend. tell emmett he was always my goofy big brother i miss his laugh so much. Tell rose even know we dint get off to

a good start i still thought of her as a sister. tell carlisle he was like a second dad to me and i know he is right about your souls

tell esme that she was the best mother ever.

But still with all the good words of you being family. you still left me. Family doesnt just up and leave when time gets tough. But

be happy edward im being human like you wanted and part of humanity is dieing. I lived all the life i wanted when you were here.

I love you all so so so much please forgive me for this. And i forgive you for leaveing. Goodbye

love always

isabella swan

ps. there is a cd in my cd player i want you to listen to.

with that bella turned on her stario and listend to the song that she wanted edward to hear. While singing along she sliced her wrists waiting to slowley bleed to death.......................but she was determined to finish this song and she had a recorder. recording it.

"i love you" she said and started singing

"i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

that dont bother me

i can take a few tears now and then an just let them out

im not afraid to cry

every once in awhile

even though going on with you gone

still upsets me

there are days

every now and again i pretend

im ok

but thats not what gets me

what hurts the most

was being so close

and haveing so much to say

and watching you walk away

and never knowen

what couldve been

and not seeing that loven you

is what i was trying to do

its hard to deal with the pain of loseing you every where i go

but im doing it

its hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and im alone

still harder

getten up

getten dressed

liven with this regret

but i know

if i could do it over

i would trade

give away

all the words that i saved

in my heart that i left unspoken

what hurts the most is being so close

and haven so much to say and watching you walk away

and never knowing

what could have been

and not seeing that loven you

is what i was trying to do

ooohhh yaaayaaa

what hurts the most

was being so close

and haven so much to say

and watchen you walk away

and never knowen

what couldve been

and not seeing that loven you

is what i was tryen to do

not seeing that loven you

thats what i was trying to doooo

ooooohhhh."

"goodbye edward my love" she said with her last breath as her heart stopped she had the song on replay so it just kept on playeing

as her blood drown the floor. Every heart felt word went through her dead body like air. she was really gone.


ok so how did i do? r+r. right now this is just a oneshot but if i get enough reviews i will make it a 2 shot adding a funeral scene so let me know what you think? ~trinity~