Might be made into two parts who knows?

Written in Hermiones perspective.

The words I've left unspoken.

I will just fall asleep I'll die. Peacefully, no pain, without feeling. Just leaving the world. I won't have anymore troubles. No more questions. It'll be just like I feel asleep and everyone forgot. That I slipped away and I won't return. I won't ever see you again. You won't see me, and you won't know what happened right away, but soon you will figure it out. You might care You might not. Its been lonely these past few weeks. Excuses are almost always made up for the problems I surprise my friends with. I feel sad; you'll get over it. I talk about self harm; I'm not that type of person. I tell you that sometimes I feel hopeless; my problem isn't real. But I guess that's just the type of person they expect me to be. Not a small scared girl. I'm supposed to be brave. Aren't I, you have come to expect logic and bravery from me at all times. Do I expect you to stay the same. People change, people become different. New things come up that I never had to deal with before. What do you care though. You don't pay any attention to it. You think I'm just overtired and stating crazy things and you make up excuses in order to push off a problem. But soon enough none of that will matter.

I feel a lump in my throat. How many others took this way out? It doesn't matter, I'll just be an addition. Another lost soul wondering the world. I won't do anything great. I won't accomplish things I dreamed of. Things I wished I could do when I was small. Now I'll die. but it is not without proper reason. I only wish I could tell you in person. But you would try to stop me. I would love your words of reassurance and comfort. But I'm not sure if I'll even get that. I'm sure I want to do this though. I'll never see you again. And then i think I'll never hold your hand. I wont ever be with you again. Please don't be sad is the only thing I ask of you. When you cry just remember that you could have said something earlier you might have had the chance to save me. Now you have nothing.

I'll see you again sometime, you might not like it, or maybe you don't even care. You know in your heart I really did love and care for you all. In the end it was just too much for me to take. You wouldn't understand that though.

Not be because you're incapable of understanding but because I never told you anything. Not one thing, I never dared to let you know how much I hurt inside. Never did I once talk about my home life, or what I did in the times we were apart. I didn't want you too know or see that part of my life. I wanted you to remember me as a happy girl.

A brave, courageous girl. Somebody who can deal with their own problems and don't want to bother their friends for help with something that small. I wouldn't want it any other way though. I was once told that actions speak louder than words. I took the cowards way out, I'm

Supposed to be brave. I guess now that's what you must think of me? Am I really a coward? I did something stupid didn't I? Does that mean I'm really not smart. I left a lot of people, people I love. And I don't want you to remember me as a stupid cowardly girl. Because I'm not am I? And you know that.

I am a smart girl, I am not a coward. Sometimes it's our words that speak louder than our actions. The words we wrote the words we said.

I may have left you, but isn't it the things we said that people remember after we've left? I still have a few more for you, if you care to listen.

I never wanted this to be goodbye.