Welcome to our Kradam fic! Me and my friend collaborated writing this, so it was a team effort! :) I really like what we have. Just to warn you, the next chapter is going to be cheese and passion. XD But we swear, it gets better! :) Enjoy!
I couldn't bare it any longer.
It has been too long since we have talked. These months have seemed to drag on. My spine tingled and I shook a little. I blink my eyes quickly and stretch my arms. I slowly make my way to my bed, picking up my laptop on the way. I open it up, blinded by the artificial light. I open up Skype, and wait to see if…he comes online.
I waited for what seemed like hours. I looked at the clock and it has only been a few minutes. 'You're too impatient, Adam' I said to myself. 'He'll be online…' With that thought, a *ping was heard, and his name illuminated green. I smiled wide. I started typing, but he beat me to it.
Kris: Hi, Adam
-I could hear my heartbeat. I tried to act casual-
Adam: Hey Kris! How's it going?
Kris is typing…
Kris: Pretty good, pretty good, nothing much going on. You?
Nothing much…
Adam: Eh just kinda chilln. Working on sum ideas for the new album.
Kris: Nice. What kinds of ideas you have rolling around in your pretty head?
Was he being serious?
Adam: I want to make it more me, you know? Maybe even a little dark.
…Pretty head? Lol Kris.
Kris: Ooo, darker? The inner depths of Mr. Glam? Yes, you have a very pretty head!
Adam: lol right, the inner depths of me. Why thank you! Ur head is nice too.
This conversation is getting weird.
Kris: Don't laugh dude! It's true, you must have dark secrets. Thanks, my head is hard to tame.
Adam: Yeah, secrets no one knows. lol.
Kris is typing…
Kris: Is Kris special enough to know them? =P
Adam: Depends…Should I? …okay
Kris: Depends on...what?
I think for a second.
Adam: Well…I dunno. Promise not to trip?
Kris is typing…
Kris: Promise, no tripping.
Adam: lol okay.
I look up from my computer. I did not know if this was a good idea. I could really screw things up for him, but I just cannot hide my feelings anymore. I know I am more impulsive than he is, and willing to share my emotions…I hope he's okay with what I have to say. I take a deep breath.
Adam: Well…I think I like you. But I am torn; cause Tommy, my bassist, keeps hitting on me. But he's straight, so it's weird.
Kris is typing…
Five minutes pass…
Kris: Ohhh... um... Well, I wasn't expecting THAT, but it's totally cool. I would guess it's weird, I thought I was completely straight until we shared that hotel room together for Idol...
I held my breath.
Kris: Maybe he feels the same as I did then? Which sounds weird, but um...yeah.
Adam: So...u like me?
Kris is typing...
Kris: ...maybe. I'm sort of nervous though.
Adam: It's okay.
I start to become bolder.
Adam: You are so handsome.
Kris: You are too...and beautiful.
I blush. Since when has Kris been a casanova?
Adam: You mean it, Kris?
Kris: Of course... I wouldn't lie to you, you're one my most cherished friends.
I smile wide. I start to type with more vigor than before, anxiously spilling my emotions out on our chat.
Adam: You are too, Kris. I think of you as a friend...and more.
Kris is typing...
Kris: Wow, I never thought you'd think the same of me, Addy. Is it all right if I call you that? I always wanted too...
Adam: I think you are beautiful...I like the nickname, Kris.
Kris: Really? I dunno. I'm scrawny compared to you.
Adam: Size doesn't matter to me. All that matters is you...And I… think I love u.
At this point, my hands and heart were doing all of the talking. I just let my hands move across the keyboard, typing whatever was spilling from my chest.
Kris:…Me too, I was too shy back then and scared. I never questioned my sexuality until you came along, and then you know - I didn't care. So, I stopped questioning it.
Adam: Kris, you are amazing. Ur music is lovely.
Kris: And so are u. Your music sends chills down my spine, I'll admit - I totally got teary when you performed Mad World... I imagined you feeling that pain and it really hurt me. At the finale, you were so happy and I was just taken aback by everything. I didn't want you to let go...
Adam: Aw Kris. That means so much...I never want to let you go again. I wanted that moment to last forever…because you were in my arms.
Kris: Aw, Adam... I felt so right in your arms, more so than I have with anyone else I have ever met.
Adam: Even more than...your wife?
Kris is typing…
Kris: …Yes, more than her. I know it sounds bad, awful even.
Adam: I feel bad getting in between you two…
Kris: I hate myself for it, I married her, took vows...
Adam: It's because you loved her...and I'm ruining it.
Kris: No, you're not ruining anything honey.
Adam: Are u sure?
Kris: Maybe I never really loved her - just thought I did, went along with my life, a detour to you, maybe? I'm sure…that's my next single, A Detour To You.
Adam: That is sweet. I should tell u my next single then...
Kris: Tell me. :3
Adam: Temptation.
Kris: ...Adam, I miss you. I need your hugs!
Adam: I miss you too. I need to feel your breath on my neck. Your warmth.
Kris: I need to feel every part of you; especially how safe you make me feel. I wish I had taken all those chances before now to kiss you.
Adam: My arms are your safe place. I can't let u go again. I wanted to kiss you so many times. But I was already in deep water.
Kris: Yes, they are... Me too. What deep water?
I roll my eyes. 'How does he not remember?'
Adam: The whole 'gay' thing...I didn't want you to get hurt.
Kris: We could have gone down together.
Adam: You would have done that for me?
Kris: Um, metaphorically and literally.
My eyes widen at Kris' comment. What did he just say?
Adam: Rawr, Kris! Naughty.
At this point I was grinning ear to ear, very entertained.
Kris: Yes, definitely, I mean that. Rawr? Maybe you should come here and show me that mean face.
Adam: Heh. I should.
I think to myself. Should I go see him? Maybe I could just play with him for a little longer…but I do want to see him.
Adam: I'm bearing my teeth.
Kris: Oh, feisty Addy!
I started to act coy.
Adam: You know me. ;)
Kris: I do. I want to know more though.
Adam: What more would u like to know? I'm an open book.
Kris is typing…
Kris: We should meet up soon.
It's like he read my mind.
Adam: We should. We have lost too much time. I miss you so much. I feel when I kiss Tommy I'm betraying you. It kills me.
Kris: When my wife asks me to make love to her, I feel as though I am cheating on the one I belong with - and that's you. It's been getting worse, she is starting to notice. You aren't cheating.
Adam: Ur married to her
Kris: It's doesn't matter, I'm married to you with my soul, I know. That's all that matters.
Adam: Kris...I feel like we have been married all this time.
Kris: It's been so hard to keep it in…I know...I really do. Even my wife seems to know it's not "love making" anymore, it's just about, you know...getting off. I just, I want you - and no one else. I don't care. I need you in my life.
Adam: Kris...I need you…Desperately. You are my life. My love, my passion…
Kris: Oh, Addy...
I have to see Kris.
Adam: …Kris, you should come over.
I said it.
Kris is typing...
Kris: Sure, I'll be over in a few minutes.
I close out Skype, slam my laptop shut, and jump off of my bed, landing on the rug. I am too excited. Running around my room, I throw on a fierce top with a studded belt and black leather pants. I had to look my best. Kris admitted he liked me too! I felt like I was on air. He makes me act like a completely different person. Now all I have to do is wait.
