October 31 11:57 PM
How did I end up here?
So my life wasn't perfect, but what led me here? What did I do?
Oh Yeah. Helping a girl in pain got me here.
Although I do like it here. I dunno, it feels like I've been here before … What!? I might have been to a lot of places but never to Ipswich. I had never seen a place like this - not until them. And yet here I am, standing in one of the most provocative outfits I own, in the middle of the forest, having the wind caress me while the 'Sons of Ipswich' … my brothers of sorts, surround me.
Great! I should have known this was all too good for me, but NO! I just had to believe in them. With their mind numbing smiles, charm of the ages and bodies like gods. Huh? Now, is when I choose to acknowledge the physical?! Smart girl … that's me. But just look at them, even in this light they look like that. Funny, huh, I'm admiring their looks when they're probably gonna KILL me soon. Well maybe not kill me. And yet as I wait for my life to end or to change, I still can't believe it.
They have saved me and destroyed me all at once. I have never taken anything from anyone and yet they couldn't help it, couldn't stop it. Guess it IS destiny. They change me and I change them back.
I still debate whether I should have done this or if I just should've taken his car and ran.
11:59 PM. Guess this is it - wonder if my eyes will do that.
