Title:When in Oakdale
Chapter:Chapter 1
Rating:M
Summary:Luke and Noah have arrived home from Rome, when Luke gets some news that an old crush has come to town
Characters:Luke, Noah, Kevin (mentioned), Jade (mentioned), Lucinda (mentioned)
Genre:AU
Warnings:some mild language
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Luke and Noah had just arrived back in Oakdale from their long and well overdue holiday, break, whatever you want to call it from Rome. And now the hard part starts. Luke had just been told about Kevin Davis being back in town.
That name, that guy, what does it do to overpower him with such hate. A feeling he hasn't felt in ages. Kevin Davis, his first crush, his first whatever really. Luke could only remember lusting, wanting, needing to be with Kevin when he was around him. But he also remembered how much he did become a bad influence on Luke. Making him drink, have an accident, nearly badly injuring and well almost killing his cousin Jade, hiding his sexuality and lying to everyone.
No he really didn't need his past to be brought up like this, into his now perfect world. All he wants to do right now is board the plane with Noah and go back to Rome, never to return. But too late, they where back.
Noah could sense that something was up with Luke. He never really talked about his past or about Kevin really. He did mention little bits, but nothing to cause Noah harm or worry really, that is until now.
Luke and Noah sat in the limo, barely saying a word. Noah kept hold of Luke's hand, hoping that it would in some way give comfort to his boyfriend. Hoping it would get him to open up, but it didn't, so Noah just came out with it, fed up with the silence "Babe, please…….Please tell me what's wrong?" Noah pleaded with his bright Blue puppy dog eyes.
Luke just stared into them. A tear formed in his eyes, and made its way down his cheek, his lip started to tremble and then he held onto Noah, hard, as if his life depended on it. He cried so hard. He has never cried this hard in ages at all, but all those memories, just flooding back like a raging storm, he could hardly think, let alone breathe.
Noah tried his best to sooth his boyfriend. He hated seeing him so upset and hurt. He was wondering what Luke had been thinking, what had really happened back then to make such a caring, loving, gentle person break down like that. He wondered what had happened and wanted to take all the pain, sadness and anger away from Luke and protect him at all cost.
Noah just held onto Luke, letting him cry out his sadness, hurt, frustration, anger - everything really. He knew Luke would explain all to him, but he just like the waiting part. But he had no choice really. He knew Luke would open up to him, just right now he needed comfort. Comfort of his boyfriend.
Luke had stopped crying and was sniffling, he finally looked up at Noah, his eye's all red, puffed up, his nose runny. He looked into His boyfriend eyes, his eyes so deep and Blue, so loving, yet calming. They had effect on Luke like no other really. Luke grabbed a tissue and blew his nose. He then wiped his Tears, or what where left of his tears with another and looked at Noah again. He kissed him and just rested his head on his shoulder.
He wanted to tell Noah everything, but he was unsure of where to start. The pain of just telling him what he went through would be enough to make the floodgates open again really.
Luke just rested his head a little bit longer, just thinking. Thinking of what to say, how to say it, where to start and where to end, but more so how. He was a writer for gods sake, this should be easy right? But it wasn't at all. How do you tell your Boyfriend that you're your ex best friend, your crush is definitely back in town and how do you explain it all so he understands? The pain of thinking was becoming to much, as Luke's head started throbbing - a headache forming.
Noah looked at Luke and held his hand, kissed his hair and forehead. He knew Luke was thinking. He could sense it with his body language really. He then decided to take the first move again to ask what had happened "Babe, I….I know your probably thinking about how to tell me, so just tell me Luke….I'm not here to judge you ok……I love you……with all my heart" Noah said looking into Luke's eyes as Luke propped himself back up.
Luke looked at Noah and began to tell Noah everything "well I'm not sure where to start, but, Kevin was my best friend. We used to do nearly everything together as kids and well that all changed one day, when I came out to him. Prior to that though for a little while before I came out to him, I…….I did something pretty stupid. I begin drinking to ease my pain, but to help spend more time with Kevin" Luke said as Noah just continued to look at Luke "Ok, I get it, I do" Noah said.
"No you don't, because, well I was mainly doing it, cause I thought what the hell, maybe he might like me if I start drinking, and well I didn't want to also admit to everyone I was gay. So drinking was a way to stop the guilt, the pain I was feeling. It was like I was on a high and that I could forget all about my worries and troubles, but unfortunately it was also my undoing really. The first of my undoing was when I was drunk and I drove my car, smashing into Jade and her car and almost killing her. Thank god she wasn't badly injured though" Luke said
"The other undoing reason is well, I only have one functioning kidney. You see I ended up drunk one day on Grandma's plane and ended up in Mexico, where I had a well backyard Kidney Transplant which made things all the worse. Suffice to say my parents where non to pleased about this and when they had to come to rescue me, I was read the riot act" Luke continued to tell Noah. Noah was in a little bit of shock, with the way Luke was just explaining this all, it was like he was giving him a summary of his life story in a way, or a part of his life story actually, to be exact.
"Well, that when I decided to tell Kevin. Everything just got the better of me and well, he took it the wrong way really. I also did the most stupidest thing I could have ever done when I told him I was gay and that was that I liked him. I mean seriously, did I think he would actually feel the same - no but I felt I had to tell him. Now I wish I never did actually, cause the pain and guilt he made me go through on that camping trip, and then saving him from drowning cause he and his stupid girlfriend where drunk and out on a rowing boat at the lake we where staying at, she hit him, accidentally mind you, the paddle and he got knocked unconscious. Of course me being the better man really went into save him and yeah, we took him to hospital. We had a small chat when he came through, but it was never the same. After that he just either ignored me, or with some other students teased me about being gay. Part of me wanted to go up to his face and bash the living shit out of him, but the other half wanted me to just hug him or kiss him - but now, all I want to do is erase all that history, never remembering a fucking damn thing about it" Luke aid with such hatred in his voice, which certainly took Noah back a bit.
"Well, I don't know what to say, but I know that I am glad you told me, I knew you tell me eventually and I am sorry I pushed you, but maybe this could be a good thing really" Noah said as he looked at Luke "What do you mean a good thing, Noah it will never be a good thing, not like you and us" Luke said
Noah had to think about the last statement Lue just said "what do you mean me, and us exactly Luke, do you still have feeling for Kevin?" Noah asked, hoping it wasn't true at all "No, Noah never, I could never love him at all ever, but part of me will never forget about him, it complicated to explain but I hope you understand what I am saying, its just difficult and hard really" Luke said as he looked into Noah's eyes pleading for understanding.
"I think I do and I certainly I'm glad you don't like Kevin. But what I meant to say is that this might be a good chance to sit down and talk with Kevin, hopefully make some new ground and maybe re-establish a friendship or a new friendship maybe? I mean high school was a few years ago but maybe he might have changed. he might be more grown up, just like you my darling Luciano" Noah said as he kissed Luke.
Luke thought about what Noah said. Could it be possible? Could it be Kevin has changed? could he start or rebuild his friendship with him? Could he forgive him for all the pain and suffering he put him through? Could it be all be really true, could they move past from their history at all? Maybe just …………..maybe?
