I held her while she was the first time I`ve seen her crying and I`ve known her for 5 years.I haven`t seen her cry even when we were in the rehabilitation center or as we called it the always appeared strong and brave but now as I sat on the floor leaning my back on the wall with her in my lap, she seemed small and broken like anything can hurt yesterday I swore myself that I would protect her from everything, I told her I would look out for her the same way she looked out for me 5 years ago after the team...Well...After what seemed hours she calmed a little bit, her breathing was still shallow and every now and then she hickuped and sniffled.I still held her in my arms, trying to comfort her without any I got enough courage to speak.
"You okay?" I asked her while caressing her hair in soothing nodded slowly and took a deep breath,like she was preparing herself for something or like she was afraid to speak.
"Yeah,I guess.."Again she took a deep breath and continued."It`s just..It seems !I feel so powerless." She started to shake again and I tightened my grip around seemed to help head was cacooned between my shoulder and neck and her hair was tingling the skin on my neck and I had to supress the urge to scratch myself so I moved the hair so it doesn`t bother movement startled her a bit and she sat up,the palms of her hands lying on my faces were close, our lips not close enough to touch but I could feel her hot breath on my was sitting in my lap,my hands were around her holding her close,maybe too close.I had to use every bit of my strenght not to get anything to "wake up".I had to slap myself mentally for thinking about anything like that in this was sad and hurt and I felt like the biggest arse in the was staring at me,looking me in the deep brown orbs seemed black at the moment,the sadness threatening to spill over yet blinked and a single tear slipped out and moved across her cheek,I couldn`t stop myself and I raised my hand and put my palm on the side of her face and brushed the tear from her closed her eyes and relaxed into my hand,another set of tears slipped out of her eyes and I cupped her face bringing it closer to me.I kissed her forehead and she nuzzled her head back into my breathed in deeply and I could`ve swore she breathed in my scent sighed and put her arms around my waist,holding me tightly like I can disappear any second,gripping my shirt.I put my hands back around her,holding her as tight as she was holding me.I was just hoping this would make her feel better,safer that I would make her feel better cause I learned more than one thing tonight and that is that this woman was holding on to more than my shirt...She was holding onto my heart...I felt a pang in that same heart..I closed my eyes and felt a tear slding on my own cheek.
This is a one shot that I needed like half an hour to write it and I relaized it doesn`t fit anywhere in my inspiration is back and I think there will be updating this week!HOORAY right? I have so many exams right now but I will try to update all of my are going to be shorter than usual but I want to update ALL OF THEM so bear with me this is a BIG possibility for a collaboration but I am still fighting with my inspiration not being completely back so I will keep you updated.
I just hope I fixed the missing words problem I had before and that my writing has PM and review me so I can fix anything or to read a nice comment on my you.