I sat in that room with that girl and my past suddenly came back to me. This girl had been through the same things. The fights, the yelling, and the deaths. Her dad had been drunk one night and had killed her mom in a fit of rage, luckily Sienna hadnt been there. Sara looked at Sienna like she had been looking through a mirror. The deepened fear that escaped through the corners of her eyes and slid quietly down her face. Catherine looked over at me but I just watched the girl. I couldnt let my pass get to me, I was stronger than that. Nick was watching through the window I knew cuz he kepting calling my cell. I wiped my unrequited tears away and stood up and walked out. Grissom grabbed me from behind.

"Sara... You just cant leave a-"

He saw it. Those tears. The tears I have tried so hard not to reveal.

"Not now."

I whispered through my sobs.

"But sara-"

"No."

My cell phone rang. It was Brass. I just ignored Griss and ran into Brass's office.

"Sara, we got a call, apparently your mother has been kidnapped. She and her captor are now in New Mexico in a hotel. He wont come out..."

I saw the look in his eyes something was up.

"She wont come out, until he sees you."

"Brass... who is it?"

He just bent his head down.

"Brass?"

"Its your brother."

I walked away got in my tahoe and drove home.

I was packing when someone knocked on the door... it was Nick.

"Sara, I dont think you should go."

It's not what you thought
When you first began it
You got what you want
Now you can hardly stand it though
By now you know it's not

"Nick. You dont understand."

"No sara, you shouldnt go to New Mexico."

"I'm not."

"Then whats with the-"

He saw the look on my face and froze.

Going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up

"Youre leaving?"

He started to act way too serious for the Nicky I knew.

"Yes. And I might not come back."

A tear slid down his face.

"What! Why?"

"Complications."

"We need you."

I didnt know what to think of the look in his eye and then he sat slowly down on my bed.

You're sure there's a cure
And you have finally found it
You think one drink
will shrink you 'til
you're underground and living down

"I dont understand"

He said slowly as if in some kind of trance.

"It is best that you don't."

"Why?"

"Just because."

"You will call wont you?"

"No."

"Sar-"

He looked like he was going to have an emotional episode right in my bedroom.

But it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up

"No. Stop worrying, I will be fine."

Just then he got up and kissed me so passionately I could have fell right there. He pressed me to him by the small in my back. Wow. No wonder Nicky had such a rep. I pulled back a little.

"Sara, I will miss you so much."

"I know, and I'm sorry."

I started to grab my bags when he kneeled in front of me.

"Please. Please. Please dont go. I love you, I always have and always will."

"Im sorry."

I whispered about to head out of the door.

Prepare a list of what you need
Before you sign away the deed
'Cause it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up

"Wait, just tell me why."

I looked at him letting the tears fall more further and frequently.

"I cant..."

"Yes, please sara!"

I looked at him and heavily sighed.

"I was too young to loose both my parents. I shouldnt of had to. I was too young."

He looked at me once more with pity and I ran out into the street.


No it's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
Now it's not going to stop
So just give up