Being part of Star Fleet was a dream of mine since before I can remember. When I was young I remember looking up into the stars and wishing with all my heart that I was up there exploring new life and new civilizations. But when I saw the completely awful uniforms they forced the women to ware I began to rethink my opinions. I began researching into Star Fleet history and will even admit to hacking their computers a few times to learn more about their history. Based on everything I had read and researched there had never once been a female captain of any star ship. Here we were so far into the future and women were still being treated like they were back so many years ago. I was by no means a feminist don't get me wrong but I knew that I could take those men in a fight and run a ship ten times better than any of them. So I decided that I would prove that a woman was the right choice to be a star fleet captain.

When I entered academy a made sure that my files were untraceably changed so that no one would know the truth. I went from being Andrea to Anders. I chopped all my hair off so that it was now shaggy and since I never had much of a chest anyway, which in this case I was happy about for once, it was easy to fool everyone. I had managed to hack into the school's systems whenever a physical was due and submit a fake report I was also able to excuse myself from any gym related activities. I focused on my studies and kept mostly to myself so that I could become the top and the best at everything. When my graduation came I was asked which star ship I wanted to be stationed upon and my choice was clear it was either the USS Enterprise or no ship at all. The Enterprise was known as one of the best ships Star Fleet had ever produced and that its crew was famous for escaping death but my focus was that the captain of the ship was known to be one of the most bold and brash captain's star fleet had ever produced. He was dedicated to the ship above all else I could learn from him and I fully planned to.

I was lucky enough for the Enterprise to be departing on a five year mission to explore the galaxy. It was the first time a mission like this had ever been attempted. I waited patiently in the office for the dean to come back. I was to meet the first officer of the Enterprise and he was to give me information about the crew and its goals and make sure all the paper work was filed perfectly. I heard the door open and rose to greet my new commander. He was clearly Vulcan and I remember reading his file when looking over staff history records. He was known as Spock and he was half human and half Vulcan. He was known for being an incredibly logical thinker, making sure that rules and regulations were followed to perfection.

"It is a pleasure to meet you cadet, my name is Spock and I am the first officer aboard the Enterprise," he reached out a hand. I found it odd since in my readings it had said Vulcan hands were incredibly sensitive, and that when they shake hands they grasp at the wrist as to avoid direct hand to hand contact. I reached out and latched my hand onto his wrist and firmly shook before pulling away. I could see the look of surprise flash in his eyes but his face remained calm and collected. "I've been looking over your paper work and it appears that you have taken every class star fleet has to offer and passed with incredible marks. The only thing your records did not show was gym classes, may I inquire as to why that is?"

"I was exempt from gym classes due to the premise that I substituted it was combat fighting and I was already taking so many other classes. Do not worry though commander I can hold my own better than most I believe," I straighten my posture and clasped my hands behind my back.

"We shall see of that fact. Looking over your records I see no reasons to deny your request to serve aboard the Enterprise. I think you would make an excellent addition to the crew." He turned to face the Dean. "I believe Mr. Anders thinks have already been loaded for transfer correct?" the Dean nodded. "Excellent I shall take the cadet with me than." He turned to leave and I followed quickly at his heels.

We were loaded into a car and driven to where the ship was set to leave tomorrow. It was an incredibly quiet ride and I spent most of it analyzing my traveling companion. He seemed less reserved than a Vulcan should but I deduced that down to his heart being human. He tried to hard it seemed which made him come across distant and cold but I began thinking he wants to embrace his human side. I watched him as he stared out the window the sights outside reflecting in his dark chocolate colored eyes. I could see past the shield he had put up and could see his sense of excitement and joy at seeing the culture of his other half.

I pulled my gaze away from Spock. I was beginning to feel for him in a weird unfamiliar way. I had managed to survive academy with only a few encounters with the other girls. I had been asked out several times and when I declined rumors began circulating that I played for the other team. So then it went from girls to guys hitting on me. I had brushed them aside because they did not matter. But I believe that if I dropped my defense to much that I would fall in love with the being sitting beside me.

My fist clenched as I mentally kicked myself for being so foolish. No man was worth destroying everything I had built. If Star fleet were to find out everything I did I would surely have my duty revoked and never achieve my dream of one day becoming Captain of a star ship. I calmed myself and focused all my attention out the window until we arrived. The view of the enterprise was beautiful. She was everything I had dreamed of and more. Spock led me through the crowd of people until we were fully on board. My head was racing with excitement. When we entered the turbo deck Spock spoke again, "We are in route to the bridge where you will meet the Captain and the rest of the Bridge crew. You will be stationed here so don't forget the way."

There was no way I would ever forget. Every memory was clear because I never wanted to forget it. When the lift stopped and the doors opened I was greeted with a roomful of eyes. Spock walked into the room and I followed him until he stopped in front of the Captain's chair.

"Captain this is the new recruit we were informed about. I looked over all the files and it looks like he is highly qualified for the position, "Spock said. The captain stood from his chair and extended a friendly hand.

"Captain James T. Kirk," he said boisterously. I accepted the gesture and responded,

"Anders Amell. It is a pleasure to be serving under you Captain."

"Welcome aboard the Enterprise. Your first order of business is to report to Dr. McCoy for a full physical." I wanted to protest but that didn't seem like the wisest move. Back talking the captain my first day with the whole bridge crew watching.

"Yes Captain," I responded like a good little cadet.

"Mr. Spock please escorts Mr. Amell to sick bay."

"It is fine Captain I know the way," I turned and headed back towards the turbo lift. Once inside I began formulating a plan in my head. It was probably just a basic and I wouldn't have to dress down or anything so I began to relax. Once I reached my appointed area I was met by a blonde woman. "I was issued to report to Dr. McCoy by the captain," I stated plainly. She looked at me very oddly but then gestured for me to follow her. In the next room there seemed to be a much shaken doctor. He was mumbling to himself as he was signing documents. "Five freaking years in space, god help me," I heard him mumble. "Doctor we have the new Lieutenant here for a check-up by the captain."

"Alright Christine thanks," he turned around to face me. "Names McCoy. Hope up on the table and I'll be with you in just a second." I did as was ordered. The doctor finished his paper and walked over to me and pulled my arm up before sticking a needle into me. I watched as crimson liquid began to file the vile at the end of the needle. "What's your name?"

"Anders Amell sir," I said. As far as I recalled gender unless deeply analyzed would not give away my secret. The physical had gone faster than expected and if the doctor realized the truth he certainly didn't let on. We were not set to leave until 08:00 tomorrow so I decided to seek out and stay in my cabin. Walking down the hall I began looking at the names on the doors. Captain Kirks was one and the one right next to his was Commander Spock then my own.

As I entered I dropped my bag on the floor and began rummaging around for something more comfortable than my black recruit outfit. As of tomorrow it was blue shirts and trousers so I decided shorts and a regulated undershirt would make it cool enough. Once changed I began to hear the water running in the bathroom curious I carefully peaked inside to see Spock standing there. His body was hidden from the perspiration clinging to the walls of the small shower but there was no doubting it was Spock. I quietly closed the door and flopped down on the bed. It had been a long night. I had stayed up most of the night having been nervous so I read through files about the crew and the design of the Enterprise. It was all finally catching up to me as I placed my hand over my face to shield my eyes from the light, which I was too lazy to even turn off. I slowly began to fall asleep listening to the sound of the water.

When I finally awoke it was evening and the ship had quieted down I drug myself up from my sleep of the dead. And walked over to the door where my bag was. There were two little white sheets of paper that someone had slide under the door. One said, I came by to see if you were interested in joining me for some activities for our lift our party tonight. It would give you a great change to meet the crew rec room 8:00pm~kirk. I looked over at the clock to see it was only seven and I had full time to get ready if I decided to attend. I did not read to the other note due to the fact that I began digging through my bag for suitable attire for tonight. Once found I headed for the shower. I made sure to knock as to be sure I would not walk in on my commander again. When I got no answer I opened the door and peeked inside it looked clear. Once safely inside I made sure to lock both doors so there would be no chance of anyone accessing the restroom.

Once fully showered I took more time than usual to do my hair so it looked presentable and not my normal bed head that I always wore. I spiked it so it looked like I was a bad boy accompanied by black skinny jeans and a matching black tee that clung tight to show my less than feminine figure. I swear I looked more like a boy than a girl even without all the props. I had made sure I was in shape so my shirt clung to my muscular arms in a way that seemed to appeal to most earth women. Once finally satisfied I unlocked the door and headed out to the rec room.

I had taken longer to get ready than I expected so mostly everyone was there when I entered the rec room. Thankfully I was not the only one in street clothes. Most of the women were dressed in shimmering party gowns as to show what they look like outside of uniform and attract a mate for the night probably. I could see eyes turn to look me over as I walked into the room. Loud music was playing but it was a decent song so it didn't bother me. I walked over to the Captain who was talking to Spock and McCoy. He turned to face me, giving me a once over, "Ah Anders glad you could make it!" he said slinging an arm around my shoulder. I could smell the booze on his breath. He turned to look over to a man and exclaimed, "One for our newest member Scotty!" The man acknowledges the captain's order and began filling a cup with beer. He brought it over and handed it to me. "Scotty meet Anders, Anders this is Scotty best damn engineer in all the galaxy."

"Pleasure to meet you sir," I said taking the cup from him. I didn't drink. It made logic tuck tail and run the other way and made people act like idiots. But I inferred that this was a test from my captain so I timidly took a sip of the common substance. Kirk gave me a slap on the back, "That's my boy! See Spock even smart people can have fun," his attention was focused solely on the commander now.

"My apologies Captain but the idea of alcohol at this party was a bad idea from the start. I see no reason as to why we are even having this party." The more Spock talked the more I began to like him. He had a firm point and stuck to his morals. I looked over to the doctor who was looking at me with an odd look on his face like I had a third eye or something. The Captain moved from me to take the first officers arm and drag him towards the make shift stage they had created, leaving me alone with McCoy.

"I left you a note. Why didn't you answer me?" his tone seemed harsh but that could be due to the fact that he had to raise his voice to be heard over the music.

"I'm sorry doctor, I did not see it. Is there something you wished to talk with me about?" he knew. He had to of. But I was going to play like I had done nothing wrong until he blatantly came out and said it. He moved closer to me as to make sure our conversation was secret.

"There were some interesting things on your report today. Is there something you wish to tell me?" I sighed inwardly but continued to feign ignorance.

"What could I possibly have to tell you doctor?" he gave me a harsh stare.

"Oh I don't know perhaps the fact that you're really a female," he whispered. Damn. My secret was up. But maybe I could get the good doctor to play along.

"Oh right, that. Please doctor it's not that big a deal is it? You haven't informed the Captain have you?" I could hear the slight panic in my own voice.

"No I figured you had a good reason for what you did and thought I should talk to you first. What I want to know is how you went three years in the academy without anyone finding out." I grinned sheepishly.

"Well let's just say that Star Fleet should put a lot more security on their databases." He looked at me like I had slapped him across the face.

"The security of files is one of the most advanced in the galaxy, Mr. Spock himself helped design it's software."

"Well than I guess that means my hacking skills exceed Mr. Spock knowledge," I giggled and McCoy finally cracked a smile.

"Well since you don't seem to be a treat to the ship I have no reason to tell the Captain about this. It will stay with me, you have my word." I wanted to thank the Doctor for his promise but a loud voice over the speakers cut me off before I could,

"Ladies and Gentleman, I would like to thank you all for coming out this fine evening," Kirk was standing center stage with a mic in his hand. "Tomorrow we make history by setting off on a five year mission that no man has ever attempted before. We are a family here on the Enterprise and right now I would like to introduce you to our newest family member, ladies you're gonna love him, Anders come up here." I could see Kirk's eyes searching me out in the crowd I solemnly dropped my head in defeat as I began walking up to the stage. I joined the Captain and he placed his arm around my shoulder once more. If I didn't know the customs of men by now I'd say the Captain was gay but having been a man for over three years it was something I was accustom to by now.

"Well here he is everybody our new member let's give him a warm Star Fleet welcome," at Kirk's words the crew began clapping. The captain had clearly had way too much to drink. I could feel him swaying as he held onto my shoulder. "Let's make sure to make him feel as welcome as we can alright?" the crew cheered and I quickly retreated off stage. I was stopped by a lady with tall blonde hair.

"My name's Yeoman," she said timidly. She looked very pretty and a part of me wished I had her looks. "I've been reading your file is it true you're fluent in 5 earth languages and 7 space ones?"

"C'est exact. L'étude des langues est aussi belle que toi," I said. I figured a little flirtation might get me a long way with the female crew members and perhaps even some of the males.

"So beautiful what did you say?" her eyes sparkled from the lights over head as she looked up at me.

"I said, that is correct for the study of languages is just as beautiful as you," I watched as a blush swept across her cheeks. I smiled to myself. Women were easy creatures to flatter.

"Well aren't you a charmer," she giggled. We were joined by the overly drunk captain once more.

"Yeoman I see you're getting to know our new member here. Quiet a guy isn't he," Kirk smiled sloppily. Human men were horrible. I had read many books on other races and how they attain there mates. It is more logical approach and much more graceful in most cases. Human men simply puffed out there chest and let their ego ooze like the simple primates they descended from.

Spock was soon by the Captain's side making sure the captain was being logical as always.

"Captain I believe we should end the party now. Most of the crew as an early morning tomorrow and the last thing we need is everyone, including our Captain to have hangovers." The Captain stumbled and I reached to catch him.

"Thanks Lieutenant. Mr. Spock I am perfectly fine and can you just for once let loose and have a little fun. Look how happy everyone is. This is the last time most of them will see their home for five whole years. Let them enjoy tonight Spock," the Captain stumbled again but I made sure to keep him upright.

"As you wish Captain but I believe you have had enough to drink. I must ask that you at least return to your quarters." The Captain thought for a minute.

"Captain I agree with Sock we have a big day tomorrow and you need to be in tip top shape for it. The crew looks up to you, you would want them to see you like that would you?" I tried. He nodded in agreement.

"Alright I guess the two of you have a point. But the party will continue in my absence!" he jested. He pulled himself out of my grip and began trying to walk away but he stumbled once more. I helped him back up.

"Spock I'll escort the Captain back to his quarters," I moved Kirk behind me and lifted him up into a piggy back form so it would be much easier to carry him. I carefully walked out of the room but the Captain kept moving around. I almost dropped him a couple times but we reached his cabin soon enough. Once we were in his room I eased him off my back. It seemed the beer's effect on his equilibrium. He stood tall, looking down at me with intensity.

"You know Anders I can't help but notice you're different than everyone else. You look reserved like you're hiding something. But your eyes sparkle, almost like a girl's, with truth. I find myself at ease when you're around," he laughed. "Wow I guess I drank more than I thought. I'm not really making much sense am I?" I helped lower the Captain on the bed and removed his shoes for him. "You're sure you're not a chick?" he asked before he passed out.

I hurried out of the Captain's room. But I run right into Spock as I was leaving. "I'm so sorry Commander," I babbled.

"It is alright Lieutenant. I was just checking to make sure the Captain got back to his quarters with no problems." His voice was like velvet, soothing and soft to the soul. I could literally listen to him talk for hours if he'd ever give me the chance. "It is still early would you like to join me for a game of ches?" he offered. Honestly if it were anyone else I would have declined and returned to the comfort of my room but Spock was like my kryptonite, I could simply not resist him.

"A game of chess would be nice," I said. He nodded and continued down the hall to his room and I followed eagerly. Once inside I found the room hot and humid, but said nothing. I remember that Vulcan was a desert like plant. So it was only logical that Spock would feel comfortable in the setting. He walked over to the desk where the chest board was already set up and ready for playing.

"Are you familiar with this version?" he asked.

"Of course," I replied. I was actually really good at chess but I figured I would let Spock find that out on his own.

"I do enjoy playing with humans for it seems your moves are normally illogical yet predictable," I could hear the confidence he held in himself oozing out. I smirk and began playing. By my sixth turn I was ready to put him in checkmate.

"It seems that we humans may not be as predictable as you think commander," I said as I moved my place to checkmate his king. He looked at the board with a puzzled look on his face.

"That was a very good game Lieutenant. I must say you are highly advanced in logical and critical thinking. You play an excellent game of chess," he kept his eyes on the board as if looking for his mistake.

"Thank you commander I hold that comment in the highest seeing as how Vulcan's pride themselves on logic," I smiled as he looked up at me. For a second our eyes locked and I could see deep into those dark eyes. Spock looked away quickly as if he had seen something he didn't like. I stood up, "You must excuse me Commander the hour seems to be quiet late I do not wish to keep you from your sleep." I began my decent to the door. But Spock was faster and beat me to it.

"Lieutenant wait," he grasped my shoulders fairly hard. I knew there would be bruises there tomorrow. He looked down at me with an intensity that scared me. He was looking back into my eyes as if searching for something. What it was I did not know but he didn't seem to find whatever it was. "I'm sorry Lieutenant," he said walking back over the desk and slouching down in his chair, clearly deep in thought. I used it to my advantage and made my way out of the room. Once safely in my own cabin I pressed my back against the door trying to calm my heart rate down. Spock defiantly had an unusual effect on me calming yet making my nerves fire into hyper drive.

Once I brought my heart rate down I climbed into bed and will thoughts Spock to vacate my head. But it was no use. As hard as I tried sleep eluded me and thoughts of my commander filled my mind. I was not sure when but apparently I had fall asleep only to be awoken by the sound of an alarm clock informing me I had thirty minutes to report to my post.

I felt so tired but knew if I was late it would be a bad start to the five year mission I was going to be on. Dragging myself out of bed I headed towards the bathroom not even aware that I had shed my clothes from last night and was simply dressed in a thin lace tight fitting tank top and my boxers. I walked into the bathroom completely forgetting to knock to find Spock standing in front of the mirror brushing his teeth. He looked at me strangely and I looked down to finally realize what I was wearing before closing the door and rushing to change into something more suitable. I decided to skip using the bathroom completely and head to the bridge early once in the turbo lift I could hear someone hollering to hold the lift I pushed to keep the door open as I waited for the person. How I wish I hadn't though. I saw Spock come around the corner and I hung my head in defeat. Today was just going to be freaking perfect I could tell. Honestly what else could go wrong?

After about five seconds of the most awkward silence of my life that seemed to go on forever I finally spoke up, "Commander I do apologize for this morning. I should have knocked," I could feel my face heating up and my heart beginning to race again. What the heck was wrong with me? Spock was quiet as if picking his word carefully.

"It is fine Lieutenant. I too am at fault for not locking the door when I entered. Although," he paused and before he could continue his thought the doors opened and we stepped onto the bridge. Spock took his place at his station and I happily took my on the opposing side of the room. Maybe this wasn't the best idea I've ever had. Spock was not stupid he was highly intelligent it would take no time before he figured out I was lying about everything. And I had a feeling him being the duty bound officer he was I would be dropped off at the first available location as soon as he told the captain.

Our lift off was smooth and simple the entire shift went by so fast because I was lost in my own thoughts. Mostly thoughts concerning the first officer currently sitting in his chair discussion course destination with the captain. He had been on my mind all day long and I couldn't figure out why I could not get him out of my head. It was not just thought of what would happen if he found out the truth but thoughts of breaking down his barriers, looking inside that brilliant mind of his and seeing if underneath all that Vulcan exterior there was a human heart that could love.

Alpha ship was over and I was planning to head to sick bay to talk to the doctor about the events of last night seeing as how we never really got a full chance to converse but as I was relieved the Captain joined in the turbo lift.

"Lieutenant I'm sorry for anything I might have said or done last night. Spock informed me that it was you who carried my intoxicated arse back to my cabin last night. I just wanted to say thank you for that. An again apologize for anything I might have said," he looked at me like a school boy. I couldn't help but smile.

"It is perfectly fine Captain. I am glad to see you enjoyed yourself last night but in the future maybe watch what Scotty's putting in your drink from now on. That didn't smell like regular beer to me," I joked.

"Please call me Jim. We are not on shift and we are friends are we not Anders?"

"Yes cap- I mean Jim. I believe we are," another smile which Kirk mirrored back. I was beginning to feel welcome aboard the ship and for the first time I felt like I truly did have a friend. Once out of the turbo lift the Captain headed one way and I the other. When I reached the door of McCoy's office I could hear voices coming from inside.

"Doctor I need a look at one the crew members files," Spock's voice came through loud and clear.

"Spock you know all patient files are confidential. Unless the Captain himself orders me to release them with reasonable warrant I'm not releasing any files to anyone," McCoy barked back.

"Doctor something is just not right with the Lieutenant and I intend to find out what it is. If there is something you are keeping from me I will find out," I could hear him walking this was and ducked into the opposing room. Once I could no longer hear Spock's footsteps I walked out and softly knocked on McCoy's door.

"Spock I told you I'm not giving you any information!" I softly pushed the door open.

"It's me doctor," I figured since he already knew it was okay to use my normal voice, which came out soft, sweet and innocent. McCoy turned as if he did not know who he was speaking to, looking at me funny.

"Is that your normal voice?" he asked. I nodded silently. It was nice to let down my defense and be my true self if only for little while.

"Wow, I never would have guess. You've got this act down pretty well haven't you?"

"Heh, I guess you can say that Doctor. It's been quiet sometime since I spoke normally," I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"So since we didn't get a chance to talk at the party due to the drunken tomfoolery of our beloved Captain I assume that's why you are here. Want to tell me why you are pretending to be a man?" I told McCoy everything. I was such a relief to finally tell someone the truth. I told him I wanted to be captain of a star ship one day and that this seemed the only logical way to be treated as an equal. He seemed very understanding.

"Well your secret is safe with me. But I'd watch out for the green blooded hobgoblin known as Spock. He was in here just seconds before you asking to see your medical files. And just out of pure curiosity what is your real name?"

"I did hear Spock asking for my files. Thank you for protecting them doctor. You are a truly amazing man and if I may be permitted to say, friend. Oh and my name is Andrea Amell or Andie whatever you prefer."

"Andie huh? Well do you mind if I do a proper evaluation on you know that I know the truth?"

"Of course Doctor."

The examination didn't take very long but McCoy and I talked the entire time so maybe it did take longer than it seemed. After that was done we walked to the dinner room to grab a bite to eat. It was empty except for a few people Kirk, Uhura, Scotty and Spock. Bones and I grabbed our trays and went to join them at the table. Spock looking at me like I was an equation he simply couldn't figure out and I could see it frustrated him to no end. I smirk to myself as I began talking to the captain about his life on earth and his hobbies.

By the time we had finished eating I felt like I knew everyone better, everyone except Spock who had picked at his food and said little while everyone else chatted. It seems I was not the only one who noticed for I saw Kirk looking at the commander as well, a worried look displayed in his eyes.

"Spock are you feeling alright?" Kirk finally asked. Everyone turned to look at the Vulcan who was snapped out of his thoughts. He lifted his gaze from me to Kirk.

"I am feeling fine Captain. I'm sorry but I think I shall turn in early tonight, do excuse me," he stood to leave the table quickly making his way out of the room.

"Wonder what's up with him?" Scotty commented.

"Bones maybe you should check him out. He's seemed off all day," Kirk pointed out.

"You know just as well as I do that if Spock doesn't want me to look at him I won't be able to get near him. Besides I'm probably the last person he wants to see," Bones said laughing. I looked down at my plate of dessert. Sugar wasn't really my thing I slide the piece of cake over onto McCoy's tray. He looked at over at me like I'd lost my mind.

"I don't really like sweets. You eat it Bones," I said nudging his shoulder to encourage him. He happily accepted with a smile. I was making friends fast and I felt closer to McCoy because he knew the truth about me. The evening progressed pleasantly with games and even a song or two from Uhura. I and the Captain walked back to our quarters together laughing the whole way.

We stopped at his door and he looked at me, the same look he had given me last night. "Well Anders it's been a long day. I'm glad we had a chance to get to know you better tonight at dinner. I'm sorry that not all the crew was as friendly," he looked over to Spock's room.

"It's alright Jim. I don't know what it is but I get the feeling our Vulcan commander doesn't care for my presence very much. But it does not bother me so do not worry about it. We can't have everything Captain. You have an amazing crew Jim, it's almost like a family, but as I'm sure you know all families have their issues," I smiled and swatted him on the shoulder gently as he had done to me many times. The Captain smiled and laughed.

"Don't I know it," he said. "Well I shall see you tomorrow on the bridge Anders."

"Affirmative Captain. Pleasant dream," I said turning for my own quarters. I had barely sat down and taken my shoes off when the computer beeped someone was at the door. I pushed the button to open it. Spock stepped in still in uniform, exactly as he had left the dining room hours ago, the same confused look on his face.

"Lieutenant I wish to speak with you," he said not moving from his space in the doorway.

"Well Commander this is a surprise. You didn't seem too talkative at dinner. What have I done to earn the pleasure of such an event," the sarcasm dripped from me like a venom dagger. I was hoping to put back up my walls that seemed to be crumbling due the incredibly perfect Vulcan standing there.

"I am sorry for my behavior tonight. I simply just do not understand," he stated plainly. I put on a coy smile and decided to play with the little confused mouse that appeared caught in my trap.

"Well perhaps I could enlighten you . Tell me what is it that you do not understand?"

"Something is not right about you. Someone with as much knowledge as yourself could be so great yet here you are in a low ranking position wasting your talents," he said.

"I could say the same about you ya know? Other than my own you had the top marks at the academy as well but you too had to work to get where you are now. I am simply doing the same thing you are."

"Yes but I looked into everything before entering the academy it was like you didn't care about school someone with your knowledge would have achievements, awards but your records are perfectly clear," he paused, "I'm sorry I'm not making much sense I'll go now," he hurried out the door before I could try to stop him. I sighed and began removing my uniform I began lifting my shirt over my head when I heard the door open once more. I didn't even have to look to know it was Spock standing there. I quickly pulled my shirt back down, covering myself and looked at him in horror. I could not decipher the look on his face and that scared me.