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I suppose I should have known that one day they'd just shut me out. I was horrible to them and the most sensible thing to do would be to leave me on my own. But as I sat on my empty table, gazing over at my friends, I couldn't help but feel a little bittersweet. It was almost as though there had always been pressure on our friendships and suddenly it had all just collapsed.
The week before today I could feel the tension building with every bickering argument we had. They were about stupid things, so stupid I hadn't even bothered to remember them, yet at the time they felt so important. I'd fight with everyone: Tori, Andre and Robbie… Sometimes even Cat and Beck, but they would never fight amongst themselves. It would always be me vs. one of them.
Tori let out a shrill laugh from their table, Andre had just told a joke or something and, apparently, it had been amusing. They all burst into layers of laughter, the sound was so rich ad pure. And I hated it. I wanted it to stop. It reminded me of the fact that when I'd been around no one had ever laughed like that, they would all just shout… or cry… or both.
I pulled out my headphones and blared music from them, not really listening to it, just effectively blocking out the happiness radiating from the table across from mine.
But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved…
These are the three lines I heard, the three lines I really listened to. Because they were true.
I'd decided what I was going to do, I knew my plan, I knew the lyrics back to front, I knew what I was going to say and when I was going to say it… But what I didn't know was how they would react, so I just had to wait and see.
I walked across to their table and sat down, ignoring their shocked expressions. "Jade, what are you doing here?" Robbie asked bluntly. "I need to tell you something," I whispered, looking round the table and meeting eyes with every single person sat there.
I took a deep breath, pressed the play button, and sang the words I'd been too scared to speak.
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop
[Chorus]
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
"What do you mean? You're not leaving are you?" Beck asked, panicked. "You can't leave!" Tori protested. I turned on my heel and fled, but not before I whispered, "I'm sorry… Thank you." They had been good friends to me, I just hadn't been a good friend to them… and so this was how it had to end… But it was for the best… And I couldn't hurt them, not anymore.
