A secret of my own

What happens when Claire starts hearing voices? And for how long can she keep it a secret? One thing is sure – Morganville is never without trouble!

Hi everyone, this is my first fanfiction ever! I'm from Denmark, so my English isn't quite perfect, but you should definitely be able to understand it xD I hope you'll enjoy my story 3

Chapter 1 - The Scream

Claire's POV

Morganville had been quiet for almost three month now, which was unbelievable. I knew I was supposed to be happy and enjoy it, but instead it just freaked me out. The truth was that Morganville wasn't supposed to be good and quiet, but chaos as normally. There should at least be one thing wrong – one thing to fear. But no. Not a single thing was wrong, with the exception of the vampires of course. Morganville was still ruled by vampires, like always, but that was kind of normal here, at least for us who knew it. Shane, Michael and Eve acted the opposite of me. They all acted as you really should, when Morganville was quiet like this. They enjoyed every single minute of it. I tried to do so too, I really did, but I just couldn't relax.

"Claire, are you even listening?" Shane said, interrupting my thoughts.

"Yeah, of course I'm listening" I lied.

The good thing about Shane was that he knew me so well, and in this case he knew I lied.

"What's wrong?" He asked, even though he already knew the answer. It wasn't the first time we have had this conversation, and probably also not the last.

"Nothing. That's the problem Shane. Nothing is wrong, but we live in Morganville for God sake, which makes it totally wrong that nothing is wrong. Because something really should be wrong, and we all know it!"

"Claire you're babbling now, so just … stop, okay. I get what you mean, I really do and you have to trust me on that. But what I don't get is why you just can't enjoy it? We finally have an opportunity to actually enjoy being all happy together, you, me, Michael and Eve. We don't need to sacrifice us self, or be worried about protecting each other constantly. But no, you keep ruining it! I'm sorry I have to say this Claire, but I just really wish that was enough for you."

I was absolutely and completely speechless. We have had this conversation so many times, through this three month, but not once had Shane acted like that. I knew he didn't get why I couldn't just be happy and enjoy it, but still…

"I … Shane, I am happy! So happy, that the fear of loosing this conquer all the happiness. Trust me, I want it to be like this, but I just need to be sure that it's not going to disappear as soon as I accept it."

We were both quiet for a minute or two. I wasn't sure if I should say anymore or not, so I just kept quiet. Finally Shane spoked.

"It's not because I'm angry Clare. You just have to understand …. I lived my whole life with troubles bottled up, and now I'm finally free from all of it. But if you can't even enjoy this with me – then what is it even worth?

I could feel tears threatening by showing, but I didn't let them. I didn't want to look weak in front of anyone, not even Shane. So instead, I turned around in the couch, just as Michael came around the corner into the living room.

"What's up guys? Ready for dinner?" Michael asked with his sweet angel voice.

"Of course they are! It's buuuuurgeeeer!" Eve came singing in. Both Shane and I rolled our eyes - None of us really in the mood for an over-exited Eve. Michael clearly saw that.

"Something wrong?" he asked immediately, with a hidden concern.

"No!" Shane and I answered in choir. We could just as well had yelled 'yeah, we are in the middle of a huge discussion about some shit', from the way we both spitted the 'no' out. I wasn't sure rather I should be mad at Shane or he should be at me, but at this point I didn't care. I only knew that I definitely wasn't in the mood for small talk and burgers.

"I'm not that hungry" I lied "and I also have a lot of homework for tomorrow, so uhmm…" I didn't know what to say next, so instead I turned around and walked upstairs to my room.

I barely made it through my bedroom door before a serious headache hit me. Everything became a blur, but thankfully my bed wasn't too far away. I sat there for multiple minutes with me head in my hands, before I became able to see my surroundings again. My balance was a bit off when I went standing again, but at least I could see clear now. I considered calling Shane but I was still too mad at him. Plus he made it pretty clear, that he didn't want to have anything to do with any kind of problems.

I tried making some physics, but the pain in my head was still too intense. Instead I went to bed. I knew it was only eight o'clock but I was too tired, mad and dizzy to care.

I woke up in the dark by an ear-killing scream. My room was still in absolute darkness so it had to be in the middle of the night. The panic sat in, and I turned so fast to switch on my bedside lamp. But there was nothing to see – my room looked completely as it should, which made me really confused. The scream had been so loud, how could it not had come from my room? Nothing seemed wrong, everything looked the same. Expect me. I was covered in sweat from top to toe. I rose from my bed and once again a headache hit me, together with a heavy dizziness.

I went out my room and down to the kitchen, where I took a glass, filled it with water, drank it, and did it over and over again. A couple of glasses later I realised that the scream must have been from a dream. No, not a dream – a nightmare. But that just freaked me more out, because I didn't remember any part of the nightmare besides the scream. I didn't know what to do next. I couldn't go back to sleep in my bedroom, just the thought of it scared me. I also couldn't go to Shane, Eve or Michael – they would just give me that unbearable pity look. I ended up on the couch in the living room, where I tried to fall back to sleep.

At five o'clock in the morning I gave up. There was no way I was going to fall asleep again. I could just as well get up and eat some early breakfast, instead of laying here doing nothing. But just as I sat up I heard the scream loud and clear again. It was the exact same scream as earlier from my nightmare - but this time it was real! And it was Eve's.

I really hoped you enjoyed the first chapter of this fanfiction! I'm aware that this is a totally cliff-hanger, and I'm sorry for that … but hey, that just means you'll have to read the next chapter too, right?

See you soon