A/N: Heyo, Gally here. I got into this game and I had to write something about it. Now as I said in the description there are spoilers due to it being after the game. Now I do not own Doki Doki Literature Club (DDLC) or anything in the game. See you next chapter my awesome peeps ^_^
Monika sighed as she looked out the classroom window. Why was she here? How was she here? She was deleted by the user, well it was clear somehow they had tampered with the files and make it so everything was like it was before she ever tampered with the files. They hadn't returned and that did hurt her a little, but she supposed it was for the best. All the damage she did, all because she loved him, or her. She really didn't know anything about the user and it made her smile sadly, if only she could have gotten to know them better.
She was snapped out of her thoughts by the bell went off, it was time for piano practice. She smiled a little as she picked up her bag and walked out of the room, ignoring all the looks she got. Monika was admired by many of the males in the school, she couldn't say the same though. She didn't see the point in it all, this was all a game after all. This was all one's and zero's. She could delete this if she wanted to, however Monika couldn't bring herself to do it again, not after last time. She walked until she had reached the music room and sat down at the familiar piano. Brushing against the keys she began playing the one song she was familiar with, she played it more than enough. She couldn't hold herself back, she had begun singing to the quiet as she played.
"Every day, I imagine a future where I can be with you. In my hand is a pen that will write a poem of me and you. The ink flows down into a dark puddle. Just move your hand - write the way into his heart! But in this world of infinite choices. What will it take just to find that special day? What will it take just to find that special day?
Have I found everybody a fun assignment to do today? When you're here, everything that we do is fun for them anyway. When I can't even read my own feelings. What good are words when a smile says it all? And if this world won't write me an ending. What will it take just for me to have it all?
Does my pen only write bitter words for those who are dear to me? Is it love if I take you, or is it love if I set you free? The ink flows down into a dark puddle. How can I write love into reality? If I can't hear the sound of your heartbeat. What do you call love in your reality? And in your reality, if I don't know how to love you. I'll leave you be." Monika had teared up a little as she played the last few notes, wiping her eyes once she was done. She had heard clapping noises as she looked to the door, everyone from the club was there, looking at her in awe as if she played the most beautiful song.
"Monika, that was amazing!" Sayori began saying as she walked in the room and pulled her into a hug. It made Monika feel even worse, she had hurt Sayori to drive her to suicide, tampering with the game codes to make her hang herself. She didn't deserve to be shown this level of kindness, not that she could change this.
"I guess it was okay." Natsuki smiled. She liked the song but in typical Natsuki fashion she couldn't just admit it straight out, but she wasn't going to be mean about it. She could see the emotion put behind it and like the others could see there was more to the lyrics than what some would see. They were part of a literature club after all.
"I think it was perfect for you." Yuri smiled as she spoke in her usual soft tone. How was it Monika had good friends? She was not a good person after all. She assumed it was a punishment for how she treated them all, how she neglected her friends for the user. All because of jealousy, all because she was not programmed with a route, she was alone and she needed to accept it.
"Thank you everyone. I've just begun learning the piano so it's nice to get feedback." Monika put on a smile, of course it was a false smile, but the members caught onto it, they just didn't say anything about it. Sayori took a step back smiling at Monika as she stood with the other two. It was something Monika envied, how they could be so ignorant about the world and who they were.
"Just began? You couldn't have, you must have been practising for a thousanmillion years." Sayori meant it as a compliment but she was met with a small smack to the head by Natsuki.
"That's not a real word Sayori, besides it wasn't that amazing. It was another love song." She rolled her eyes as she was met with a pouting Sayori mumbling excuses.
"If I may, I think the lyrics were more than a love song." Yuri smiled Monika's way. "Isn't that right Monika?"
"Well kind of. It's complicated really. It's about a girl trapped in another world and she wants to be with someone who she can never be with. She could only be with them if she changes the world around her to destroy it all only leaving her." She smiled sadly as she told the story. "It ends with her accepting she could never be with them and she allows herself to be erased for the person she loves."
"It is quite a tragedy." Yuri pointed out as she observed the other, she seemed sad? It didn't make sense to Yuri however like the others she was concerned.
"It sounds dull to me. Why couldn't she be with him?" Natsuki looked at Monika as she waited for an answer to her question.
"Because there was no route. It wasn't written to her character, she was made to be in the background. The person she loved however could be with anyone around her and with her friends. All she could do was watch from a distance." Monika sighed as she looked away, needing to wipe her eyes again, she was just too emotional over this. Why couldn't she just forget it ever happened?
"Well that's mean to happen to her. I think she deserves the love, I mean if I was in that position I would use my charms to get the love." Sayori smiled as she laughed. "I couldn't just leave the person I love alone, I wouldn't leave the opportunity hanging." Bad choice of wordings. Monika's smile became more forced as she nodded. Monika felt her stomach knot together, she couldn't shake off the guilt. The more she was around everyone the more she just wanted to say something, anything. She couldn't though. They wouldn't believe her and even if they did they would hate her. Quite rightfully so though, especially when she had caused them all to die in one way or another.
"Well we all have our paths Sayori." Monika settled on saying, her voice strained to sound upbeat and happy, it was at this the rest of them couldn't keep pretending that everything was fine.
"Look we can tell something's wrong, tell us. We're all friends right?" Natsuki interjected with a look mixing concern and a glare together.
"I don't know what you're talking about Natsuki, I'm fine." Monika laughed nervously, she tried to pretend everything was fine. That was okay and she wasn't hurting and in a state of constant guilt.
"Natsuki is right, we're worried about you. You don't need to lie to us." Yuri smiled as she spoke in her usual soft tone. She was usually so quiet and it shocked Monika to hear all this from all of them. Even more so when she tampered with Yuri's files making her possessive and also aggressive in a way to others. Not to mention making her stab herself, that was very unpleasant. More so as the user had to see it happen as well as everything else they had to witness.
"If you don't tell us then we'll keep asking until you do." Sayori pouted as she encased the other in a hug again.
"Sayori, that is a little extreme. We won't keep pestering you if you're not ready to tell us yet but we would like for you to tell us." Yuri interjected, keeping her calm exterior.
"Please Yuri, Sayori is right. We have to keep asking her. It's not right to keep something locked away when it hurts, trust me on this one. It's better if she told us." Natsuki interrupted the shy girl. She turned Monika's way as she held a concerned glare. "So tell us what's wrong."
""̸̼̲̯͖̠́̑̇͊̎̀́̚Ȉ̴͎̲̋́͌ ̶̡͇̍c̸͕̦̖̲͗̔̑͛̾̇͆͘ă̴͙͇̲̳̪̄̀̑͋͗͠n̸͕͓̜̉̔̒̈̌'̷̻̲̦͊͑̎̚͜͝ţ̶͔̞̒ͅ ̴̢͙͓̠͙̫̘̬̎̈́ṱ̸̰͔̤͖̫́̑͐̎̈̒e̷̖̰̲̼͓͒́̉̌͒́͜͝͝l̵͔̖͛̊̃̋́͘͘͝l̵̨͌ ̴͉̹̟̤͖̻̳̑ẙ̷̲̂́̊͛͋̚õ̸̻̥͓̋͒͛͆̿̏ù̴̧͉̻͓̠̲̖́̌̉̍̊̿͐.̵̗͍̩̼̦̻̳̪͑̉̍̎̔͘"̴̧̱͇̼̦̳͚̃̈̅̒̕͠" Monika looked away. Her voice glitched, she glitched. She looked at the other three girls who looked at her as if something was wrong. She froze up, how could she talk her way out of this? It was clear even if everything was back, if she was back that she was still buggy. She wasn't meant to be here and her existence was messing with the code. Monika closed her eyes as she sighed, looking into the game files. Nothing was broken but her character coding. She sighed in relief, no one but her was going to experience glitches…hopefully.