All that I'm living for
The forest again, where so many things happened… Wonderful things, memories I will always remember. The centaurs, Norbert, the unicorn … the first time I met Voldemort. Yeah, Voldemort … I'm here because of him, about to die. There's no way out, not this time.
But, what shall we die for? For the Greater Good, like Grindelwald said? For freedom? To make this world better than it is now?
If I realised earlier that this would be my destiny, perhaps Fred, Mad-Eye, Tonks, Remus, Sirius, and all the others wouldn't have died, and my friends … Ron and Hermione … wouldn't be in danger. All these evenings we spent in the Common Room, just Ron, Hermione and I, learning or talking about everything. The evenings we met Sirius there, all these adventures we have survived… The Philosopher's Stone, the Chamber, saving Sirius, the Ministry. Perhaps we didn't have to go through this if I knew earlier that I would end so. But all the same, all those adventures were wonderful. We were in danger, yes, but I was with my friends, something I never had before. And having friends is an amazing experience. Ron and Hermione were there for me, they have always helped me, even when I told them not to do it. But now, they're not here.
Maybe they are in the Great Hall, helping Mrs Weasley and the Order. Yes, this time I'm alone, because it has got to be so. It's a fight between Voldemort and me. Just the two of us.
A few years ago I wouldn't have understand why in the end, I had to walk to death. But now, all is clear, "neither can live, while the other survives…" And it's me who's going to die. The Prophecy said it, and Dumbledore said it to. If I can save the Magic World with my death, I'll do it.
Dumbledore died searching the Horcruxes, he didn't find all of them. And so will I.
When Hagrind told me that I was a wizard, on this stormy night of the 31st of July, in this Hut on the sea, I couldn't believe it. Me, a wizard? Never. But for the first time in my life, something wonderful became true and I could go away with Hagrid. Our heading: To end up in Hogwarts.
The first birthday present I can remember was Hedwig. And now she's dead, because of those charming Death Eaters …
And then, a few weeks later, I truly was on the Hogwarts Express where I met the Weasleys at King's Cross. I didn't know how to get to gate nine-and-three-quarters. But there was Mrs Weasley … she's such a wonderful woman. And Ginny … she said goodbye. Oh, I would do anything for being with her now …
My first year at Hogwarts was so full of wonderful and strange experiences: The Quidditch Games, The mirror of Erised, Fluffy, the troll, Nicolas Flamel and the Stone. The Chess game or the Devil's Snare, on our way to the Philosopher's Stone. And of course … Voldemort. But I survived! I escaped another time. And a few months later, the story with the chamber. And Ginny. And I turned to escape from Voldemort. The year after that turned out to be really good. I knew Sirius, my Godfather. He was such an amazing guy, a very brave man. He helped me a lot… my father's best friend. And now he's gone, too.
Lupin … he had a son with Tonks, little Teddy.
Nearly everyone who was important to me, died because of trying to help me in the fight against Voldemort. My parents … oh, I wish they were still alive, I would live with them, not with the Dursleys.
But I can't change my destiny. My life had got wonderful moments and also bad and dangerous moments. And of one thing I'm really sure: I wouldn't change my life with the life of anotherone, because, even when my life comes to an end now, I liked my life in Hogwarts and the Magic World.
That's the last beautiful memory I'm gonna keep.
Even in Death.
And that's all what I'm living … and will always live for.