First Night: Hesitate
As per usual, he sits at his desk, scribbling away madly at some frivolous papers. 'Permission slips…? Really…?' He thinks, leaning back into his chair and stretching. When he looks outside his window lazily, he notices the multicoloured sky, the orange, setting sun. His violet gaze slides back to his desk and he sighs loudly at two large stacks of papers. It is already very late, yet he remains in the school infirmary, juggling his two- rather hectic- jobs.
Knock knock.
He knows the timid sound is made by her immediately. His mind flits to the events of yesterday.
Her brown eyes had betrayed her hurt as she regarded his broken image. He told her everything, how he loved her but his love was so… not right. She was a student, for God's sake! He didn't want her to have feelings for him- only to end up battered and bruised by them like Yui had. He told her about his past, about his futile efforts to heal a terminal illness… his tries at mending someone broken beyond repair. Even still, her quivering voice had told him surely, "Sensei, I love you."
He had agreed to see her, because of his selfishness. "We'll have to keep it secret… I hope you understand that," he muttered, watching the ends of her lips turn up into a tiny smile.
"I know."
Even now, he watches her: her thin silhouette walking towards him, her frail arms reaching out to hold him.
"I love you." He whispers into the darkness, quietly, truthfully. He wishes with all his heart that she'll understand his hesitation, his worry. At the same time, he hopes she'll hear the desperation in his voice- how he yearns for her… yearns for something he cannot have.
Her breathing nearly lulls him to sleep, but he awakens when she lets go of him. She doesn't kiss him, doesn't tempt him, only takes his right hand with her cold fingers.
She replies:
"I know."
END.
Eeee. I finally wrote something for Starry Sky! -happyhappy-
Incase you didn't know, the bishie featured in this drabble was Kotarou Hoshizuki (AKA my one and only love :B).
I hope this wasn't too confusing… or too emo, for that matter… yeah! D:
Stay tuned for drabble number two~ It should be more lighthearted… or maybe not… Oh jeez. I suck at writing non-emo things. \';
PS: Merry Christmas everyone! Pffthahah. It's so like me to be writing stuff on Christmas. -sad existence plz-
Coming up next:
Second Night: Miscalculate