Another one. Whoopie. I got…well, I was pressured into finishing it by the teachers (biology and chemistry). And in chemistry I got to make some awesome goopy stuff, and it is so cool! . It's purple. And it's stretchy. And it's fun! You make it with glue and liquid starch… . Anywhos….here ya go!

Oh yes…I HAVE MUFFIN EARRINGS!!! -¡¡squee!!-

Disclaimer: I do not own.

Warnings: AU, OOCness, shonen-ai, suicide…usual stuff…

Summary: I just never thought… n e v e r s a y n e v e r . . .

x x x x x

Never Say Never

Riku was always a good kid. He made straight A's, was captain of the school's soccer and football teams, and co-captain of the dueling team. He had a lot of friends, and great parents. He had the perfect life. I never thought that things could be too perfect. I guess his life was.

He used to sit with us at lunch. He always, always ate. Most of the time he bought food from the cafeteria. He would always talk, and loudly, too. He was so sweet. No one would have known he was shy if it wasn't for his (best) friend, Naminé. She sort of forced him to show everyone. He asked me out at lunch that day. I'll always think of that day as the best in my life.

He tried to learn to play the sitar for me. I knew how, but he wanted to be able to play for me. It was a sweet gesture…but he sucked. I told him to stick to playing the piano. He pouted at me, and it was the most adorable pout I had (have) ever seen. It was even cuter than Sora's. I told Axel, my (best) friend, what I thought. He laughed at me and told me that I had fallen in love. Well, so had he and Sora, but I didn't point that out.

Riku's brother had to drive us to the movies once, because Riku's car broke down. Roxas sat up front with Zexion and wouldn't stop touching him. That was when I learned that Sora's brother was dating Zexion. When we were at the movies, we bought popcorn and watched Saw III. Riku got scared, and it made me giggle. I just held his hand, though. After the movie I kissed his forehead and told him I'd protect him forever.

Everyone always used to say that Riku and I would n e v e r break up. They just never thought…

One day he brought his own lunch to school. He was quiet all through lunch, too. No one questioned it, figuring he just had something on his mind. At the end of lunch, however, he stood up and announced that he was seeing a psychiatrist. When asked why, he gave a simple response and walked off as the bell rang.

"Because I want to kill myself."

Everyone just figured that would never happen. Riku would n e v e r kill himself. Riku was just fine, they said. His parents probably just think he's depressed. But for some reason I felt awful. And Naminé agreed. Something was definitely wrong.

Now, fast forward a few months. Riku left. It turns out that he really did want to kill himself (just like we thought). And he really did it, too. I couldn't make it to his funeral (couldntsaygoodbye). Naminé came by and sat with me while the funeral went on. She couldn't go, either…

Everyone used to say that Riku would never kill himself. Everyone used to say that Riku would never leave me. And, I guess, everyone finally learned never to say n e v e r . . .

x x x x x

Sooo…. –coughs- Umm, this is it! It's…rushed…because I was rushed…and wanted to make the purple goop that I've been playing with all day… Soo…yeah! Umm…review and…. I guess…I'll try to get back to you…y'know, if my homework river ever runs dry. Which I doubt will happen any time soon. BUT I'll be finished with my English paper on Thursday (finally!). So, that's a plus. Anywhos….

Review, please. Feed my ego…it's starving…

-Miss ''Rissa