He sighed and payed the cab driver and got out. He stared up at gate leading to the cementary. The same cementary that holds the love of his life. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes trying to stop the tears and the memory of the day she was buried and how her sister woudn't stop crying or the look on her fathers face becuase even though they fought alot he loved his duaghter dearly.

Putting his hoody on, trying to protect himself from the wind, he made his way past the gate and up the path. He looked around seeing millions of people who were once happy, breathing, alive, who are now six feet under the ground he was walking on, with no hope of ever getting out. Thinking that only made him even more depressed as he held back more tears becuase, well she was here, with all these people. She didn't deserve to be here. It was his fualt, all of it.

A tear slid down his cheek as he stared at the tomb stone. Julia. His Julia. He kneeled down and touched her name. Tracing the lines as it started to rain slightly. Everything had been hell lately. Clare walked out on him. She left him after promising to always be there for him. But he shoudn't blame her. He was insane and he knew it. But he couldn't help but feel used. Whenever Clare needed him to be there he was there. But when he needer her most, she left. Without ever looking back. And thats what hurt most of all.

Another tear feel as he thought about his life. He was bullied ever since he was kid, never given any mercy. The people he loved always seemed to leave him and he had all this baggage on his shoulder wieghing him down with no chance of every leaving. The guilt was killing him. He didn't know what to do. All everyone ever did was tell him to move one. Tell him to be happy but how? How are you supposed to be all rainbows and sunshine when you have nothing to smile about? He was no reason to wake up in the morning, nothing to make his sun shine. He was alone. No one understands that its not easy! The one person he loved the most is dead! It's like losing a mother sort of. You never want to replace her becuase you will always love her. But nobody got that. Nobody got that Eli will always love Julia even if he did move on becuase what thay had was real.

He didn't need some one to tell him what to do. Or any one saying its okay becuase he knows its not okay. He doesn't need anyone to be there for him. All he needs is for some one, anyone to just understand.

He looked up quickly wiping his tears as he heard footsteps. He saw a girl in her early twenties walking up the path he was walking up a few minutes ago. She was dark skined and had on a buisness suit. She was also carrying a bouqet of white roses. She didn't notice him until she stopped at the tomb stone next to the on he was in. She gave an awkward smile whispered a small hello.

"Hey" Eli whispered back now standing up staring down at Julia's grave. He looked over at the tomb stone the girl was at and saw James Tiberius Yorke. He looked at her and said

"Your brother?" She looked up startled but gave a small smile.

"No actually we were, well we dated for a while and we had a kid. We were inlove but he was dating someone else. Its... complicated." She said

Eli nodded and looked back to Julia's grave. He sighed and heard the girl ask " She your sister or... ?" He smirked slightly and replied

"No actually, she is- I mean was my girlfriend. Died 2 years ago over spring break." His voice cracking slightly at the end. He closed his eyes and took deap breaths trying not to start crying like a little wimp in front of a stranger.

The girl nodded and stuck her hand out. "Liberty"

"Eli" He said taking her hand and shaking it.

"How did she die? If you dont mind me asking" She said quickly.

Eli sigh and looked at his now wet shoes.

"We got into a fight late at night. She left my house on her bike and... she got hit by a car. It was my fualt. Like everything else is." He said whispering the last part.

"Oh. Well J.T was stabbed after leaving my brithday party late at night. Heh looks like we have that in commen." Liberty said smiling sadly.

"Yeah... Do you ever feel guilty?" He asked instintly regretting it. "Not that it was your fualt I mean you didn't push him or anything i mean i woudn't now i wasn't there." He said quickly mentally smacking himself.

"Hah don't worry I'm not offended. Yes I have felt guilty for his death, but I realized that I didn't tell him to leave. I didn't push him out and most of all I didn't stab him so I have nothing to be guilty about." She said looking at Eli.

"But- nevermind" He said sighing slightly.

"Look, did you push Julia in front of the car that hit her?" She asked Eli who was now sitting indian style on the ground.

"No" He said inaudibly. " But I did get her mad. And if I had never gotten her mad then she woudn't have left. And if she never would have left she would still be alive."He whispered.

Liberty sat down next him. She sat there thinking for a few minutes before saying "Everything happens for a reason."

"Im athiest. I don't believe in 'God'" He said matter of factly.

"Ah but this has nothing to do with God. Everything happens for a reason. Julia dieing made you stonger as a person."

"I never learned from my mistake i guess. My ex girlfriend dumped me becuase I was suffocating her."

"Well then that helped you learn not to depend on a person too much eh?"

"I guess" He said.

"If theres anything I learned from J.t's death it was that the biggest mistaks are the one's you never learn from."

"I don't get it" Eli said looking at her confused.

" You thought you could always protect Clare becuase of what happened with Julia when really all you needed to do was let her protect her self." Liberty said getting up and laying the roses on J.T's tomb stone. She turned to Eli and said "Don't let all of the baggage on your shoulders stop you from being happy. Sometimes being happy can change everything. Even your point of view on things. I understand that you love her, and truth is you always will. Don't let what anyone tells you stop you from loving her becuase even if you did move on she will always be in your heart. You will never forget her. Thats just the way it is" She said smiling before wallking away.

Eli smiled pressed a kiss to Julia's tomb Stone and whispered "It's time to move on love, but I will always love you."

He walked down the same path he walked up smiling becuase for once he knows he's not alone.