Here's To Being Alone
Hey people. I've done a lot of writing in the Clique fandom, but I've decided to branch out to others. I really love LWD, and I think that Dasey is THE BEST pair.
This is my first Life with Derek fanfic, so I'd appreciate reviews.
Oh, also, sorry if this seems a bit OOC, but he's supposed to have matured a lot and become "overcome with sorrow and longing."
Anyway, this is a oneshot to The Graduate's 'The City That Reads'
ENJOY!
Baltimore is quiet and cold
There's no ship in the bay to take me back home
Derek regretted the day that he applied to college so far away from home. Casey, smart as she was, opted to stay close to the family and go to a college close to home.
Casey. Derek remembered the day when he broke it off with her. That fateful day in August. Derek had thought that it wouldn't work out long distance, so he ended it. He remembered the look on Casey's face when he told her. Sadness. Surprise. Anger. Longing. He had hated that look. It still appeared to him in his sleep.
In time for the holiday
So December never ends
It's December now. Over three years have passed. Over three years. God, Derek missed her. He missed her so much. More than he had even thought he did before he left.
You come here instead
I've got gifts and food and friends
Plenty of room in my bed
Oh, you can help me mend
Derek had hoped that maybe, after he left, she would come to visit, and they would come up with a solution. Somehow.
This December, Derek had thought somehow, Casey would come to him. He had bought food and presents, and even made up a bed for her.
So here's to being alone
To anyone on their own
If anyone's listening
Think of me when I'm gone
It's not going to hurt for long
And you can just forget
And I can live without regret
Derek sighed. It was Christmas Eve. She wasn't coming. He probably would never see her ever again. All the times that Nora and George came to visit, Casey never came.
She didn't know how much that broke his heart. It shattered into millions of pieces every time.
Derek went to the kitchen in his apartment. He took out a bottle of champagne and opened it. He poured a bit in a glass and gave a toast.
"Well, Derek," he thought. "Here's to being alone. Here's to anyone on their own."
After that, he laid down on his couch. He wondered if after he left, Casey thought of him. He wondered if she had just forgotten him. He wondered if she regretted ever being with him.
Baltimore is quiet and cold
So I walk down to the bay
Where everyone's gone inside for the holiday
Oh, December never ends
So will you make up your mind
Over time I've found a piece of me
Somewhere on these empty streets
That I could never bring myself to leave
Derek gave up, and just went outside for a walk. He walked to the bay, and stared at the frozen waters. No one was out. It was just him.
It seemed like the month of December went on forever. One month of moping. One month of hoping. He wondered if Casey still remembered when their anniversary was. He still did.
So here's to being alone
To anyone on their own
If anyone's listening
Think of me when I'm gone
It's not going to hurt for long
And you can just forget
Derek was so lonely. He was all alone in Baltimore. The middle of nowhere, according to him…
When I return to you at last
Surprise me in red and black
Oh no, you never ever give in
Never give in
When you smile there's a certain line
Of muscles strained from front to back
So I'll do anything to get me right back home
Derek kept thinking of Casey. He could never get her out of his head. He thought of her. Her smile, her grace, her charm. He smiled softly to himself, and then smirked, thinking even more.
So here's to being alone
To anyone on their own
If anyone's listening
Think of me when I'm gone
It's not going to hurt for long
So here's to being alone
To anyone on their own
If anyone's listening
Think of me when I'm gone
It's not going to hurt for long
And you can just forget
And I can live without regret
Derek went back home and laid back on the couch. He fell asleep pretty fast. He woke up only when the doorbell rang. He looked at the clock and wondered who would be out at this hour.
He opened up the door anyway, and was surprised to see a smallish, feminine figure.
Derek was shocked. He rubbed his eyes and scratched the stubble on his chin.
It was Casey?
He woke up from his thoughts and kissed her. A kiss full of passion, longing, and love.
He never wanted this to end. He never wanted to be alone again.
Sorry if it sucked. I don't like it at all, actually...
Review mahh dahhlinks...