Sleeping. Dreaming. Living.
The small and delicate features send warmth through my body. Quietly she sleeps, unaware of the world around her. The intricate blanket, passed down from generation to generation lightly lay out on top of her. The tiny fingertips gripped the edge of it. I reached out and ran a finger over her small hand, the softness and warmth filling my soul with despair and angst.
She had taken his place. The house busied around for her, the new little princess, as if she were something special. No one cared to remember, as if his existence, as brief as it was, meant nothing. Of course I acted okay and happy with it, what else could I do, but now I was going to take revenge. She didn't deserve to be here.
Carefully, I walked out of the room and looked around, no one in Piper's room. Looking out in to the hallway I found no one in sight there either, good the coast was clear.
Walking back into the room I closed the door behind me and made sure to turn off the baby monitor. Again I approached the crib and peered inside. She was still sleeping, just the way she had been moments before. Gently I lifted the pillow from under her head and placed it over her face.
Instantly she awoke, her small hands loosing grip of the blanket and flailing around. Her tiny legs pushing the air as if doing so would remove the blockade which was leaving her without air.
Harder and harder I pushed the pillow, making sure there was no possible entry way of air.
This was the way it should be, she shouldn't be here. She didn't deserve it!! She was taking his place and that wasn't right. He had lived as much a life as her. Okay well maybe not as much, but she still couldn't be here. The earth didn't want her, didn't need her.
Her hands went into fists one more time and then the fist slowly got loose and her arms and legs went limb.
Holding it down another second I made sure the job was done.
Screaming. Crying. Dying.
Removing the pillow I gently placed it back under her head, her blue face staring up at me. I closed her eyes, laid the blanket back on her and turned the baby monitor back on.
Then I opened the door and left.
The small and delicate features send warmth through my body. Quietly she sleeps, unaware of the world around her. The intricate blanket, passed down from generation to generation lightly lay out on top of her. The tiny fingertips gripped the edge of it. I reached out and ran a finger over her small hand, the softness and warmth filling my soul with despair and angst.
She had taken his place. The house busied around for her, the new little princess, as if she were something special. No one cared to remember, as if his existence, as brief as it was, meant nothing. Of course I acted okay and happy with it, what else could I do, but now I was going to take revenge. She didn't deserve to be here.
Carefully, I walked out of the room and looked around, no one in Piper's room. Looking out in to the hallway I found no one in sight there either, good the coast was clear.
Walking back into the room I closed the door behind me and made sure to turn off the baby monitor. Again I approached the crib and peered inside. She was still sleeping, just the way she had been moments before. Gently I lifted the pillow from under her head and placed it over her face.
Instantly she awoke, her small hands loosing grip of the blanket and flailing around. Her tiny legs pushing the air as if doing so would remove the blockade which was leaving her without air.
Harder and harder I pushed the pillow, making sure there was no possible entry way of air.
This was the way it should be, she shouldn't be here. She didn't deserve it!! She was taking his place and that wasn't right. He had lived as much a life as her. Okay well maybe not as much, but she still couldn't be here. The earth didn't want her, didn't need her.
Her hands went into fists one more time and then the fist slowly got loose and her arms and legs went limb.
Holding it down another second I made sure the job was done.
Screaming. Crying. Dying.
Removing the pillow I gently placed it back under her head, her blue face staring up at me. I closed her eyes, laid the blanket back on her and turned the baby monitor back on.
Then I opened the door and left.