Chapter 1
(Sara)
It was late night I'm sitting on my couth watching television, I haven't sleep since the shooting and I can't stop thinking about Nick.
Every since the shooting I have been sitting beside Nick's bed at the hospital, but the doctor had sent her home to shower, eat and get some sleep in a normal bed and not in a chair.
I can't eat and I don't feel like taking a shower, and I can't sleep because every time I close my eyes I see all the blood on the ground and paper.
Before I could get my head out of the bad thoughts, I started to cry again, I cried so long I don't know how long.
When my cell phone started to ring, I dried my tears of my cheeks and took a beep breath and answered my phone.
"Sidle" I answered hoping that who ever there were calling was eater wrong number or nothing to do with work.
"Hi Miss Sidle, this is nurse Taggart" said the woman on the other side of the phone, I just hope nothing is wrong.
"Is there something wrong? Did something happen?" asked I.
"No don't worry every thing is fine, Doctor Greene told me to call you, he said he had promised you to call if Nick Stokes would wake up" said nurse Taggart.
"Is he awake?" I asked her.
"Yes he is awake but he needs a lot of bed rest and sleep, you can come down and see him if you want to" said Taggart.
"Of course I want to see him, why do you think I told the doctor to call me with any news" I was starting to get a bit irritated at her.
Did she leave her brain at home, because if she didn't then she is very stupid, especially if she don't understand that I of course want to visit Nick or else there was no reason to ask the doctor to call me?
"I don't know you can just stop by he wants' to see you" said nurse Taggart.
"How do you know?" I asked her getting a little und patient.
"The doctor have been in to look at him, so he probably told Doctor Greene that he wants' to see you" explained the nurse.
"I will be there in 10 minutes time" I told her, after we said our goodbyes I hung up my cell phone.
I got up from my place on the couth and walked to the door to take my coat on and walked out of the apartment and down the stairs to the side walk to hale a cab. When I got inside the cab, I gave the cab driver the address to the hospital.
The cab stopped outside the hospital and I stepped out of the cab and gave the cab driver the money for the drive.
I walked inside and up to the front disk and asked a nurse for Nick's room number, after getting the room number I walked to the elevator and drove up to the third floor room 315.
I walked down the hall to the room when I stood outside the room I looked inside the window, even trough he have woken up he still looks so pale and he is not moving at all.
I took a deep breath and knock on the door, I didn't wait for an answer I just walked inside and over to the bed and took my place beside his bed.
"Hi" I said taking his still cold hand in mine.
"Hi sweetheart" Nick said back.
"How are you?" I asked him, I looked at him to see if I could read his face for any thing that could help me finding out how he is filing, maybe I should just wait for his answer.
"A little pain and tired, but else I'm doing fine" he said smiling over at me.
"That's good" I said.
"How have you been doing you look tired" he told me, yes I know that.
"I am I haven't slept much in the last couple of days" I told him looking down at my feet.
"Why not don't tell me you have been up all night because of me" he said to me like I was I little kid there had done something wrong.
"I was so afraid I would loose you" I said, I leaned over and lied my head on the bed and started to cry, like I had been doing every day since the shooting.
"Hi, hi don't cry, I'm right here you haven't lost me, I'm fine" He tried to calm me down and it help with his sweet words and his hand running trough my hair.
"I know that I have just been so afraid that you wouldn't wake up and I would be all alone, I don't think I can live without you" I told him.
"It's oaky to be afraid, everybody is scared once in a wail" he told me.
"I know that it's just…" I didn't get to say the rest because he cut me off.
"I know I would have been afraid to if it was you there had gotten hurt. So stop crying every thing is going to be just fine, I just need sleep and your love then I will be on the top soon" he explained.
"Okay, it's just hard not to cry when I almost lost you" I told him giving him a smile trough my tears.
"I would be crying to if it was you" he said.
"I know, can I sleep here with you tonight, when I might be able to get some sleep" I asked him.
"Sure you can stay here, get up here you are not going to sleep in that chair, I'm sure you have been sleeping in it for the last couple of days, so you are going to sleep up here with me you understand" he asked me, like I'm a little child there don't understand my mate homework.
"Okay you win" I said getting up from the chair and crawled up on the bed and lied down beside Nick I laid my head on his shoulder.
"Are you okay, am I hurting you?" I asked to make sure he isn't hurting because of me.
"No you are not hurting me, do you have end off room?" asked Nick pulling me closer to him.
"I'm fine, goodnight Nick" I said giving him a kiss on his lips.
"Night Sara" he said back.
I closed my eyes and soon after I fell asleep.
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The next morning when I woke up Nick was still asleep so I just lied there looking at him.
I started to think about what I would have done if he hadn't made it, it is one of many things I don't want to be thinking about, but I'm doing it any way and it is killing me.
I hadn't seen that Nick had woken up and was now lying staring at me.
"Morning sweetheart, what are you thinking about?" he asked me.
"Morning, I'm not thinking about any thing" I lied hoping he wouldn't see it.
"Yes you are, stop thinking about what haven't happened I'm not dead and I'm not going to in a very long time" he told me.
"How did you know what I was thinking?" I asked looking over at him.
"I can read you like an open book, like you can read me" explained Nick to me.
"Okay…so maybe you should get some pain killers for that pain of your" I told him
"See you can read me. I do have a little pain" he said in a small voice.
"Let me get the nurse or a doctor to give you some meds" I said getting up from the bed and walked to the door.
I walked down the hall to nurse station to get someone to give Nick some pain killers.
"Nurse Taggart could you give Nick Stokes some pain killers, he is in pain" I said walking over to nurse Taggart.
"Sure you go back to him, and I will come in, in a minute to give him some pain killers" she told me
"Okay thanks" I said walking back to Nick's room and sat down in the chair beside the bed and I took Nick's hand in mine.
"Nurse Taggart is coming in a minute" I told him.
"Thank you Sara-bear" he said, I hate when people are calling me other things other than my real name.
"Why did you all me that?" I asked him.
"Can I not call you Sara-bear, if you don't want me to call you that again I want do it" he said.
"You can call me Sara-Bear, I just wanted to hear why and if there is something behind it" I said.
"There is" he said smiling at me like he has a big secret.
"What I want to know" I said to him.
"It's because you are so sweet and… I love you" he told me, I like it when he says those three little words.
"I love you too" I said back.
They where both sitting not saying any thing and just looking at each other when nurse Taggart cam in side the hospital room.
"How are you feeling today?" nurse Taggart asked Nick, she walked over to the machine there is standing beside Nick's bed.
"I have some pain in my chest" he told nurse Taggart.
"Okay I will give you some pain meds for the pain" she said giving him pain killers in his drop.
"Thank you" Nick said.
When nurse Taggart had given Nick the pain killers she left the room. Just when nurse Taggart had walked out of the door Nick started to stare at me again.
"Come here up will you" he said.
"I would love too" I said crawling up on the bed to Nick, I sat beside him when I had got comfortable Nick looked up at me and he leaned forward and then he started to kiss me and I kissed him back, when we brook apart we where lying down on the bed.
"Do you want me to cal your parents?" I asked him.
"Would you call my mom, my dad is probably not home any way he is always working" he told me.
"Sure I can do that" I said, I sat up and I was on my way down from the bed when Nick grabbed my arm and turned me around and gave me a kiss before letting me leave the room.
I left the room and walked down the hallway to the elevator and drove down to the main floor and out front of the hospital.
I took my cell phone out of my front pocket and called Nick's mother.
"Hallo" said the voice on the other side of the phone.
"Hi Mrs. Stokes" I said taking a beep breath.
"Hi who am I speaking too" Katherine said.
"Oh sorry I'm Sara Sidle I work with your son" I said trying to find out how to tell her, her son had been shoot.
"Is he okay?" she asked me.
"Haven't Grissom not called you?" I asked her, if Gil hasn't called her I'm going to kick his ass when I get back to the lab.
"No why? What's wrong? Please tell me" she begged.
"Nick is in the hospital, he was shoot, three times a couple of days ago" I told Nick's mother.
"Is he going to be okay?" Nick's mother asked me.
"He woke up from coma yesterday. The doctor said he is going to be just fine in some time" I explained to her.
"Thank you for calling me, what was your name again?" she asked me.
"Sara Sidle" I told her.
"I would really want to meet you some day" she told me.
"I would like to meet you too" I told her smiling to my self.
"I will come to Las Vegas with the next plain. So I will see you then?" Katherine asked.
"Yes you will, see you then" I said.
"Okay bye" she said
"Bye" I said back, I turned my cell phone off and walked back inside