A/N OK I finished this story already, its 19 chapters and I probably post one daily. All the chapters are in Bella's POV except for one which is marked. So if not marked, Bella. Please review.

"Bella, we have to stop this." Carlisle moans as I take my clothes off.

"Why? The kids are all asleep." I ask innocently knowing exactly what he means.

"I think Alice is getting suspicious, she'll being cold and moody lately." He tries to resist as I move towards him.

"She's 13, of course she's moody!" They all are at that age.

"She's 13 Bella, and you're 19. We need to stop this." He tries to push me away.

"You knew that we started this. But we'll stop, tomorrow. Just one last time." I beg him but we both know it won't be the last time.

He finally gives in and makes love to me.

I raise his kids, I do his laundry and I cook his meals but I only get to do this when his wife is out of town. I am just the nanny after all.

I started right after I graduated high school. Rich family needs live in nanny for 2 year old twins, 4 year old and 12 year. The pay is awesome and best of all I got out of my small town life and overbearing big brother.

He's not really even my brother but he won't stay out of my business. My parents died when I was 10 and I went to live with their closest friend Billy, his 12 year old son and his 15 year old twin daughters. Both of the twins got out as soon as possible but we stay in contact. Rachel is actually the one that encouraged me to take this job, of course not knowing how far I would take my position.

Jake on the other hand is only 2 years older than me but he tries to act like my freaking father. He flipped out when I moved from small town Forks to Seattle. He tried all of my high school years to hook me up with his best friend Embry so I would be stuck there. His dad Billy doesn't really care what I do. He did at first but I went wild child when my parent s died and he felt bad for me so he let me do what I wanted and then it was just too late.

So I took this job for the new city and awesome pay. The kids are good for the most part. Sure the twins Jasper and Rosalie are a handful and Alice is moody as hell but they're kids. Edward is an amazingingly easy child who never causes problems. Their mom travels a lot and when she's here she's usually too busy for them or Carlisle so one night I was cleaning up after the kids were in bed and Carlisle was drinking as he tends to do after work, he's a doctor, it's stressful. He got a little drunk and came on to me and me being me went for it. The next morning we both realized it was a mistake but it just kept happening, with him sober in my defense.

After the first few times I guess the guilt set in and he always goes through the we need to stop crap but we never do. It's been a year and no one knows. Some many times I thought about telling Rachel or Rebecca but even though they aren't close to Jake and don't agree with his overbearing ways I'm pretty sure they would tell him "for my own good" and he would probably come kidnap and lock me up.

Sometimes it's hard keeping it myself, but even harder is watching him play the good husband when she comes back. Esme is nice enough to me. I just hate the way she ignores her family.

I love him, and someday I will win him over.