Show Me What I'm Looking For, a beastly fanfic

Beastly, it's a funny word, something that has meant different things to me through my life. There was a time that I thought it could describe an ugly person, than I thought it was me, but now I don't know. People have changed, I've changed and I owe it all to Kendra.

Hey I'm wrong

Should of done better than this

Please I'll be strong

I'm finding it hard to resist

So show me what I'm looking for

My biological father stuck me in that house, he didn't care about me. He only ever cared about how he looked and how other people thought of him, but only people who mattered. I think he still doesn't understand why I love Linda or why I still live with Will. I know that he doesn't understand at all why we have a silver mirror with a handle in the living room.

Save me I'm lost

Alone I've been waiting for you

I'll pay any cost

Save me from being confused

Show me what I'm looking for

Oh lord

When I had first become the beast I wanted to pay someone to love me, my dad did it so why couldn't I? But Linda isn't like that, I couldn't buy her. Which in a way I hated, but I also loved. I'm lost without her.

Don't let go I've wanted this far too long mistakes become regrets

I've learned to love abuse

Please show me what I'm looking for

When I let go of her, I didn't want her to let go also. When you love something you need to let it go to see if it will come back, that quote has haunted me for a long time now, but I'm glad I listened to it. I had reached a point where the pain of not having Linda, but having her happy was a lot better than the pain of having her, but her being miserable.

Save me I'm lost alone

I've been waiting for you

I'll pay any cost

Save me from being confused

Show me what I'm looking for

I am a lot happier now that I have had my happily ever after, but I'm scared that I'll wake up from this beautiful dream and everything will be back to being that miserable world. Before I had been cursed, when my life was meaningless.

oh lord

Show me what I'm looking for

Save me I'm lost

Alone I've been waiting for you

I'll pay any cost

Just save me from being confused

Sloane and Trey are still trying to be my friends. Apparently though everyone hated me, I'm so good looking that they don't care. I haven't even seen these people for two years and they still love me, but while they haven't changed I have. I am done with loving popularity and stepping on the hearts of random girls.

Wait I'm wrong

I can't do better than this

I'll pay any cost

Save me from being confused

Show me what I'm looking for

Oh lord

I owe Kendra so much, my life can never be better now and it's all because of the curse.