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She sees him, getting dragged away by the guards. She sees him, mouthing "I love you" to his Lucy. Not to her, but Lucy. She knows he doesn't mean her, but it's so easy to pretend. She's done it before and so she does it now. As they drag him further and further away to his death, she, for once, is the subject of his love. It's enough for now.
Three months later she finds an hysteric Lucy in her room. Baby Johanna is crying along with her mother, poor thing. She rushes over to Lucy's side as her eyes fall on the empty bottle of arsenic. She can't believe it. That silly nit has everything and she just tosses it al away because of the stupid incident with Turpin. How is she going to take care of Johanna when she's dead?! Nellie grabs both of Lucy's shoulders and shakes them, so hard. She's so angry. 'You stupid little girl! How can you do this?! How can you betray him, betray your own daughter?! You had everything!" Realizing yelling only makes Johanna cry even harder she loosens her grip. "Why?" she asks, again and again 'till it's only a whisper and her throat's gone hoarse. When she's about to turn around to take Johanna and leave this miserable mess that's left of "the angel" Lucy, the angel with broken wings speaks, 'I didn't do it, you know. I didn't take the poison.