The mind can be thought of and visualized like a computer: The desktop as what your thinking about right now, he ram is how much or how fast you are capable of thinking. Also the memory is like how much your able to remember, it may take a bit of searching for but you'll find it eventually. but the main thing that is similar is the way you memorize things whether in the form of something you can see, like a picture or a string of words or perhaps even in the form of a video maybe even just hearing the words in your head like an audio book.

Technology amazes me, at the touch of a few buttons you can create something so spectacular that it makes you wonder, just how they came up with the seemingly ingenious ideas in the first place. That idea was how i visualized my mind, so when it kicked to far into overdrive it automatically and unconsciously started pressing buttons.

I was left cold. Alone. Empty. Except for the strange pain in the pit of my stomach. But the pain was welcome it meant that is was still alive, that there was some power left, that i could recharge, that i could reboot. No i will never reboot, i refuse to change what i am, i refuse to start over. Again. I'm sick of having to mold myself to other people's personalities just to fit in, i could just end it all- I mean no one would miss me and it wasn't like i was leaving anything behind either. I could just vanish and become another tombstone in a graveyard, another child tired of the disaster that we call society, who faded into the mist. However as much as i might like to entertain the thought and as much as might long for the end I don't have the means nor will power to do so. Therefore that leaves me with three options, three realistic options. I've considered everything else like changing my personality completely, but I've changed it so many times each becoming more painful and draining than the last. To ignore everything around me and escape into my own little world of imagination, but i tried and it never seemed to last. Physically i was never able to do them or it never lasted, but then i get my three ideas:

one

I'd make a mental shield around myself, a barrier of sorts that none would be able to break. It would protect me from the disastrous people in this rotten society. Everything would be hidden behind a false smile and fake words of kindness.

two

I could split what little personality i have left into my different traits, separating it into different individuals inside the same body, so they could be stronger.

three

I could...I could- what was the third idea? i guess it went away with the tide, just like my dreams and the people i once called friends, so for now I'll have to use ideas one and two, but idea two can only be used as a last resort as its so hard to collect and bring all the pieces back together again. It should only be used for a way through the darkest parts of the void called

Life.

a/n this is a short idea i had for a starter to another story, I haven't got many ideas yet so any suggestions would be awesome.

and regarding my other story: parallel, I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while, a long while really...uh i'll be carrying on with it soon and if you want any pairings feel free to ask. but right now everything is a little tipsy which is kinda what lead to this...whatever it is and however arrogant i may seem (i get the feeling i come across as arrogant, kinda like Naruto in a way- chunin exams) I have no confidence in myself that I even have any skill at writing what so ever so any comments to improve would really be appreciated :)

so until next time

see ya!