Why don't I miss you?
Edward left Bella after her 18th months later she is changed by Victoria and strip her off all her memories of the Cullen's ,being changed and her the transformation is over Bella relizesshe has a power she can block others powers . 50 years later Edward comes back to Forks with his family thinking Bella is dead .But to their surprisethey find Bella with her new vampire family and her boyfriend has no memories of the Cullen'sor Edward?Will Bella rember who she was?Can Edward win her back?
"Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."Kevin Arnold quotes
As I drove down the dark unpaved roads leading to what I hoped would be the meadow .I thought about 's been two months sincehe has left me.I feel the emptiness he once filled growing and 's like I can't breathe without him.I am left alone with the memories haunting me everyday.I try to stay strong for Charlie because I can see that seeing my pain is hurting him,so I try to put on a brave face for it's hard to do that.I really thought that he loved who was I kidding who would ever want me plain Bella.I wasn't special in any way so why did I not see this coming?I was a fool to pain I feel will keep me from ever loving again.
I came to a stop at the end of the road and parked my truck.I slide myself out of the car and started walking .It was almost as if ,I knew where I was going.I had been walking for an I reached the end of the trail and the opening of the meadow.I couldn't believe I had finally found like me it was empty. I walked towards the center lay-ed down and closed my eyes.I woke up to the feeling of a cold hand strokingmy hair.I opened my eyes to see him,Laurent just a few inches away from crimson eyes looked at her with hunger in them."Hello,Bella."I managed to choke out a hello .He asked in a entertained tone,"So how are the Cullen?"Does he not know that they left me or does he still think their safest way for me to get out of here was to lie,so I said faking a smile,"They are great!Thanks for asking in fact I was just leaving to go see if you'll excuse me."I went to get up but Laurent pulled me back down by my wrist and didn't let gave me a reproving lookand shook his finger and said,"Tisk!Tisk! Bella it is not nice to lie,I know they left you and are no longer in Forks."How could he know that ?Almost as if to answer my unspoken question he said,"You are probably wondering how I came across this interesting piece of information .Well you see , when I was in Denali I heard from Irina that they had left immediately I contacted Victoria and we decided to come for a visit."
He looked to the paths entrance and I fallowed his gaze to see Victoria her fiery red hair flowing as she walked towards looked as though she was on the she reached us she kneeled down , grabbed my face and said ,"You have no idea how long I have waited for this get my revenge against you and the since they have finally left you I can now get my see initially I was just going to kill I like my new plan much see I have to live through the rest of my existence without my mate .So ironically so will you .You see Bella, I am going to change you into vampire ,so that you will know how it feels to be alone like me forever!"
"No please!Please don't do this it would kill Charlie,"I looked amused and said,"Speaking of killing Charlie .He was rather tasty snack."I sobbed,"No!"Charlie was dead and it was all my fault .She smiled at me and said,"Yes!It was just too easy to sneak in to you was just sitting in his chair asleep he never even saw I was done I met Laurent where you had left your car and put his body in Laurent went to meet you ,I drove your truck into a tree and lit it on when it is found everyone will think that you both are your precious Cullen's!"
I sat their crying as Victoria pushed back my hair and said ,"Don't be sad Bella,you wont rememberany of this when I'm through withsee the last time we came to here, I hid my power well."I said in a shaky voice,"Your power."She looked at me with a sinister smile and boasted,"Yes no one new that I had a power of my very 's quite impressive actually!You see, my power can erase the memories of my 's quite sad actually! You won't even be able to remember your own name and no one has ever been able to gain their memories way I can be I can make sure they can never find you and you can never find now that you now everything ,let's get things on the we!"I squeezed my eyes shut and thought about Edward his angelic face, his beautiful topaz eyes , ho it sounded when he said my name and that he loved me & I him.I thought about my mom and Charlie & how they had been their for me and how much I didn't deserve 's him when I felt Victoria bit into my neck, immediatelythe fire began to grow inside me and just as soon as she had bit me she pulled away.I felt a slight breeze and they were gone .I was all alone with no one to save me.I lay crying , the pain was far worse than when James had bit me .It felt like I was being burned alive slowly.
Their was something else happening I was slowly starting to forget things like my address ,my mother phone number,or what I wore to school yesterday.I realised what was happening my memories were being erased, my past was starting to next things to disappear was my memories of before I was eleven.I thought oh no!As my memories disappeared ,the pain grew.I lay their trying to remmber things from when I was younger, but I couldn' the pain and trying to remember I had not realised that it was getting dark again.I couldn't remember anything before I came to Forks , my only comfort was that I could still remember Edward.I held onto my memories of him as hard as I could but as time passed his face began to grow blurry and my memories of him where getting fewer and was around midnight when his face disappeared all next thing to go was his voice it was becoming statiky and by dawn I couldn't remember it at pain was starting to my heart took it's final beat I whispered,"I love you,"and then my memories where throat burned as I got up.I knew what I was ,I knew what everything was,& yet who am I?I could not remember , my name & I was so confused. I just started running until a smell appealed to me their was a herd of deer near a watering hole.I had no clue what happened all I knew was that their were three dead deers in front of me.I sat down against a tree and cried,I hated that I had I just killed & what I had become.
I was brought out of my tearless sobs by a snap of a branch and I sprang onto my feet & let out a when I saw was a vampire in front of me he had brown short hair,& his topaz eyes were full of shock and amusement as he looked at said to me in a calming ,"Whoa!It's alright I won't hurt you."I stood up straight and asked him curiously,"Who are you?"He smiled at me and said,"I am Cole Blake and you are?"
Who was I?That was one of the questions about myself I didn't know."I don't know who I am,"I cried my tearless sobs shaking stepped forward and held me as I cried.I don't know what it is about him but I felt safe in his he stroked my hair he said,"Shh.. it's alright .Your going to be alright.I won't leave you I safe with me."His words calmed me down and I stopped he took a step back and said,"Come with can stay with me and my family,"he held out his hand for me to take.I stood there and looked at his hand and took it smiled and then we started walked for a while until we reached a silver car and he opened the door.I looked at him questioningly and he laughed and said,"It's OK! This is my car it's a 2010 BMW Gran have to drive to get to my house in Oregon."I nodded my head and climbed in as he shut the door & rushed to the other drove for three hours until we reached a unpaved road surrounded by the woods and at the end was a white two story Victorian came to a stop and he opened my door.I felt so many emotions all at one time fear, curiosity, we reached the front steps I grabbed his hand in mine and he smiled as we entered the bright house.
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