Pairings: not sure yet

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from gravitation.

Warnings: Slight angst.. a little smut and a healthy dose of yaoi, sprinkled with a bit o' fluff and a lot of drama. (and a just a touch of swearing)

A/N: not sure if i should continue this... well tell me what you think

Loud voices faded in and out of focus, bright lights dimming,brightening, spinning.
A soft moan escaped his lips and hands reached up to clutch an aching head.
the pounding intensified and the voices neared, a rough hand was shaking his shoulder and a slurred voice broke through his scattered thoughts.

"Hey kid," another shake. "Kid? you right? got some place to go?"

A dazed shrug.

"well you can't stay here we're closing for the night"

Stay here? ...Thats right he had no where to go.. no one... he'd pushed them all away... why though?

Yuki...Hiro why aren't you here...

flashes raced through his mind

Staying late at the studio...

Working on lyrics.. going out with Suguru to that bar..

Being chased by fan girls. Coming home..

home.

Opening the door yelling "Taidaima!!"

No response.. why no response..

Bedroom...Yuki..

YukiYukiYuki

Yuki in bed with another man..

Yuki cheated on him!

Well yeah.. Yuki cheated on him a lot.. he'd ignored it before.. going on believing their love to be stronger.. what was different this time?

Usually he'd run to Hiro's for the night, cry, then Yuki would come pick him up and everything would be perfect again..

why didn't he go to Hiro's?

"Kid!!!"

A hand on each shoulder shaking him.

"Oi, kid don't pass out on me again come on... I want to go home too ya' know?"

Shuichi sat up, the room spinning wildly before settling in place, he glanced around. It looked like he was in some seedy bar, the stools upside down on the table, neon lights flickering on and off, a man who looked to be in his forties was standing over him, a dark stained shirt stretching over his rotund belly, a scraggly beard barely covering an even scragglier face. Kind, weary, crinkled eyes gazed down at him in concern.

Another groan.

"Did I pass out?"

"mmmhmm"

"shit."

A/N sorry finishing here too tired to continue.

the beginning is supposed to be disjointed.. he's trying to remember through a drunken haze what happened

looking for a beta