Kyoko never knew what it was like to be loved. It's true, she has loved once. But it was never like this. Until now she only has experienced that everyone who she loved left her.
Firstly her unknown Dad. Then from Corn, her Mom and lastly from Shoutaro. Okay. You could scratch out the last one.
It was just recently that she realized that she never truly loved him.
He was there, when she had no one. She was thankful for this, but she know that she paid him back for this. The feelings that she had for Shou weren't from the same nature as the ones she has for Ren. Not even a little bit. They never were as deep as her fellings now. And to be honest, she never ever truly believed that there was a happy end for her and Shou. True was that she tried. And Kami-Sama knows how hard she tried to please him. She really tried to believe in it. But there was always a doubt. She knew from her beloved Fairytales that love meant to give the other the chance to flower out.
But Shoutaro had always holded her back. She did everything for him. She always helped him. But what did HE do FOR HER? He always screened her from the others. He never could comfort her when she was sad. He never helped her to envelope and do something just for herself. He never motivated her. In fact she thought that he did the opposite. He prevented her do all these things.
There wasn't a possibilty that there would somethin evelope betwenn her and Ren-Sempai, but as a matter of fact she knew that he was totally different. He was always there for her, listened to her problems, motivated her, supported her und protected her. He wasn't like Shou. Not a bit.
Being alone and take care of her self was something really familiar with her. She knew how to keep herself busy and how it felt to be left out from other people. But everything changed since she came to Tokyo. She now got friend to which she was really precious. Moko-San, Maria-chan, Okami-San and her husband, the Taicou, Chiori-Chan...and then, there was Tsuruga-San.
She should stop to make herself small. To repress her feelings. Now she got people which would catch her if she fall and help her to get up again. They would motivate her to grow. She wasn't alone anymore. And for the first time in her life she wasn't lonely. She should do it! She could feel how the warmth spread in her chest. She was optimistic and motivated. She could do this!
"Sorry? Are you THE KYOUKO-SAN? The one who plays Mio and Natsu?" asked a shy voice. She looked up with a smiling face and saw a group of 5 teenage girls. "Yes, I'am:" For the first time, she could say this without shyness and with confidence. On contray. She was proud of herself and of her acrting. While giving her autograph she was thinking that walking the way to the end maybe wasn't so bad.